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What Jacob Wrote (One-Shot) by Jaxidy Alpha






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Twilighted Beta: psymom

 


I can't make her love me.

I can make her smile.
I can make her laugh,
Sometimes.
I can make that dead look in her eyes fade.
If only for a moment.
I can make her forget.
Forget was she's lost.
Remember what she's gained.
Me.
Sometimes.
I can warm her hand when it's cold,
When she's lost.
I can make her smile.
I want to hold her face,
hold her smile,
forever.
For me.
I can hold her when she can't hold herself.
I can be her sun,
her air,
her reason.
If only for a moment.
I can make her forget.
And I will.
Not just for a moment.
Forever.
I can make her day.
Every day.
Forever.
I can make her smile...

... I can't make her love me.

Not the way I love her.
Not the way she loves him.
Not even for a moment.

 

~>*<~

I know her.

I know the way her face breaks like a perfect dawn every time she smiles. The way she bites her lower lip when she’s distressed. The way she holds her arms over her chest when she thinks about him. I know how hard she’s trying. It hurts, how hard she’s trying.

I need her.

I didn’t at first. I liked her a lot. I like Charlie a lot, and I wanted his daughter to like me. I wanted us to be friends. I wanted to impress her, to be noticed by her; I had a crush on her.

I never thought I would need her like I do right now.

I want her.

Sometimes I think she wants me too. Sometimes when her hand is wrapped in mine and she looks okay again, I think that maybe she’s feeling what I feel. There are moments when she looks at me with an expression that melts my heart and I wonder if our time is coming. But then something triggers it. A song, or a place, or a phrase that is meaningless to me, but means everything. She wraps herself up in her arms and tries to hold it together, tries to hold the memories back. I want her to let me be the one holding on. I want her to let me replace the bad memories with good ones. I want her to be okay again. I want her.

I love her.

I want her to let me love her. I want her to see how natural it would be. Like sunlight, like breathing. I know she says she loves me, but it’s not the same. It’s the love of family. She can’t let herself think of me that way because she’s afraid. Afraid of feeling the way she feels right now. Afraid that she’s not good enough for me because she’s broken. She doesn’t think I deserve her because she’s broken. I don’t deserve her, but not because of that. Because she’s so good. She deserves better. Better than what she had, better than what she has.

I hate him.

I hated him for what he was. It was natural to hate him, I hated them all. Maybe they’re better than the others, maybe not. I don’t know or care. They shouldn’t exist. I hate them for existing.

Now I hate him for who he is.

He’s responsible for this. He’s the reason she gets that look in her eyes. It’s his fault that she can’t stand up straight, that she’s gasping for air and trying not to fall apart. He did that. If he ever comes back I will destroy him. I will destroy him and I will enjoy it.

I know her.

I know that with time she’ll be okay again. I know that we’ll get her put back together and she will be happy. We will be happy.

 

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