So I understand for the sake of a story and characterization there has to be the dreaded angst. I get that this chapter was a turning point for the purpose of context and literature. It has all the elements of a great tragic heart felt love story. And because of that...I have read this all in about 4 hours, even dealing with my 3 month old. I admire what you have written thus far and even with this chapter, I agree with what you wrote and why you wrote it. But, I am not happy with Bella and/or Edward.
I know the decision she felt like she had to make was justified in her eyes. I respect that aspect of the story. But I think it is utterly the most idiotic, and stupid fucked up thing she could have ever done. I get it in theory, I know that this type of writing is what one does to keep readers on the edge of their seats. And I will go out on a limb and speak not only for myself, but for others when I say I saw that stupid decision being made....very predictable.
Now I am not saying all of this to piss you off, GOD NO!! I really admire your work in all of your writings...yes I am a fan!
But why do what everyone expects? I just knew that she was going to pull that shit! Does Edward really deserve it...in some ways yes, some no. I understand that she loves him, but is afraid to love him. She has to get over and deal with her own shit because of him, so it's understandable as to why she told him no. A small part of me thinks it is deceitful and just to make him feel like complete and utter shit.
But really...she loves him, her brash decision is just going to continue hurting herself and those around her. She is bloody ignorant. She will realize what is going on and change her mind. Edward will have to work hard to make her see again. Yes I know that in a round about way this will happen because we all believe in HEA's right? But still.....it is just my opinion, and it is only what I would do. That is why I am not writing it and you are, that is why you have almost 8k reviews and no telling how many author alerts......... SO CONGRATS!!!!!!!
But I would have said that no I couldn't jump right back into where we left off, but we could slowly try to become one again...not shut him out of THAT aspect of my life completely....slow, really slow and easing back into things would have been best....give her love a chance to feel that way again, talk through everything and work through it together....work hard through the tears and frustrations.....she loves him, he loves her, don't punish each other because of what ifs and the unknown...try to slowly work yuor way back together and if after some time it isn't working out then be an adult and tell him about it!
In my opinion that would have worked so much better! But enough of my stupid meddlesome ranting.........I know you like HEA's and I know in the end they will be happy together,so no sweat, right...............g2g feed my boy!!!! Good luck with all of your reviews!
LOL! I respect your opinions. Thank you for sharing!
It's funny, most people wrote, emailed/PM'd, reviewed that they *never* saw it coming. It's always a wonderful experience to read how differently people view the story.
As for what she said, keep in mind she's been awake all of 48 hours, is under the influence of fatigue, recovery, pain meds and pregnancy hormones so she's not going to make the most rational decisions. But I'm not done with these kids yet, so hang in there.
Lastly, keep in mind, this is an emotional account of a story from the biased perspective of the characters speaking. It's not necessarily wholly what happens. It's just the recounting of an emotion and we all know that these perceptions are not always reality.
Thank you so much for reviewing!