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June 07, 2009
Hm. I wonder how I can put this... I am obsessed with Twilight. But even that doesn't cover it. In fact, obsessed is an understatement. It's as if I have imprinted on Twilight. Before, my life revolved around many things, and the one thing that pulled me to the Earth was gravity. Now, Twilight is my life, it is my pull to the Earth. Stephanie Meyer is like my god. Of course, part of my addiction could be my love for Edward. And this is not some petty teenage crush. I do not love Edward because he's "so hot!". In fact, I'm pretty sure that has nothing to do with it. Looks generally do not matter much to me. I think it's more what Edward represents that draws me to him. His love, admiration and clear protection over Bella really gets to me. If I could choose to experience anything in my life, it would be to love or be loved in the way Edward and Bella love each other.
As I once wrote in my diary:"I look at my reflection in the mirror and I see Bella, but younger. My plain face is transparent, even compared to the mostly pale faces of London's inhabitants, I see scars and bruises from my usual trip or act of clumsiness, yet, worse than any of that, I see emptiness. I read Twilight and my eyes, a naturally dark brown, go black. I feel a stabbing pain in my heart and an aching in my chest. I go through spasms of emotions, ranging from anger to admiration. I see myself as Bella Swan, but also as someone else. Because, you see, when I read Twilight it reminds me of how empty my heart is, how truly alone I am, in that sense anyway, and how hopeful... No, hopeful was the wrong word. Desperate, more like. How desperate I am to find my significant other, my Edward. Only Edward, not Edward Cullen, because Edward Cullen is what they call him - the girls who fantasize about being with Edward Cullen and Edward Cullen only. But my fantasy's are different. I'd like to believe that there is a boy out there who could love me as much as Edward loves Bella, and that's who I fantasize about, not Edward Cullen but myEdward."
This is why I've currently taken up reading and writing fan fiction, simply because I can not seem to stop thinking about the characters and this insanely incredible story. I hope you enjoy my stories, and please do comment on them. I know my writing needs improving, and I'd love some constructive criticism.
Twilight in Alice's POV. My first piece of fanfic.
Categories: Twilight Characters: Alice
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July 06, 2009
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