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Penname: casket4mytears [Contact]
Real name: Amber
Status: Administrator
Member Since: September 30, 2008
Beta-reader: No

Wild woman with way too much imagination and fangirl energy for a variety of characters seeks audience willing to enjoy alternate takes on existing canon and extensions in places sorely lacking explanation to her liking, and AH musically-flavoured adventures. Enjoys clever humour, angst, love and all that wonderful stuff. Completely obsessed with Alice Cullen.

In her spare time, she writes concert and CD reviews, despairs over the current political climate and rescues abused cats. Also known to partake in far too much wine and pose gummy bears into orgies.

Please note: I am now retired from the fandom.  I do still read and appreciate all reviews.  I have also written two original works of fiction under the name A.C. Dillon, available Amazon and all major ebook retailers.

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Stories by casket4mytears


Oct 2009:  Nominee, Best AU AH, The Moonlight Awards
Winter 2010:  Nominee, Best 'Under The Radar' Fic, The Faithful Shipper Awards
November 2010:  Nominee, Best Angst, Best Lemon, Most Original Storyline (Rare Gem division), Rare Gem Awards

Bella Swan attends group therapy to placate her worried father, remaining mute about the events that led to her suicide attempt.  Mesmerized by the sullen, silent stranger who enters five minutes late each session, she is shocked into action the day he finally speaks up, her pierced tongue forming words aloud for once...

Edward Cullen obliges his father and sees his colleague, Dr. Jones, for individual and group therapy after his near-demise - the physical one, that is.  For Edward knows that inside, he's already dead, destroyed by the painful memories he commemorates with tattoos like mile markers...

Two damaged souls who speak the same language come together by chance.  But can the damaged save each other in the wake of revelations to come?

This story's first chapter began as a finalist for the Tattward/Inkella one-shot contest, and is rated NC-17 for language, lemons and disturbing themes/imagery including suicide attempts, substance abuse, self-harm and scenes of violence.  It deals heavily with issues of mental illness and healing; please read with care.

Canon pairings, AU-AH, somewhat OOC.

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Angela, Bella, Ben, Bree, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Heidi, Jacob, James, Jasper, Jessica, Lauren, Leah, Mike, Other Character, Paul, Quil, Rosalie, Sam, Seth, Tanya
Series: None
Chapters: 44 Completed: Yes Word count: 223921
[Report This] Published: September 21, 2009 Updated: February 26, 2012


Over time, I will be posting lost moments and alternate POVs for scenes from my story, Tattoos Like Mile Markers, as well as "other versions considered".  They may be silly, sexy, or sad, but will serve as a fun extra treat for readers of the story.

Rated NC-17 for language, mature content, sexuality, drug and alcohol use and mental illness imagery.

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jacob, Jasper, Leah, Other Character, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Completed: No Word count: 9335
[Report This] Published: October 05, 2010 Updated: March 28, 2011



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When Alice's visions reveal the Volturi's horrfying plans to descend upon the Cullen family, armed with Irina's testimony of an immortal child sighted in their care, she enlists Jasper's aid in seeking out the one hope that may spare all of their lives... if they return alive.

This story serves to fill in Alice and Jasper's adventures away from the Cullen family during Breaking Dawn, and is second in an intended series based strongly in existing canon. That said, it is highly recommended that the first story in the series, Down The Rabbit Hole, be read, as parts of the created canon/backstory for Alice Cullen will become relevant down the road in this story as well. As with DTRH, this story draws on allusions to Alice's Adventures In Wonderland and Through The Looking-Glass, And What Alice Found There by Lewis Carroll.

Rated NC-17 for violence, language and a dash of lemons. This story will occassionally contain dialogue and text from Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer for clarity and continuity; no infringement is intended and all chapters will be noted accordingly in that instance.

Note (May 13/09): The White Rabbit series now has its own account, complete with ever-growing playlist of songs that influence the stories for you to stream.   Check it out here:

July 2009:  
Indie TwiFic Awards Finalist:  Best Canon (WIP)
Indie TwiFic Awards Nominee:  Best Characterizations (non Edward/Bella) (WIP) 

Eternal Hope Contributor

Categories: Breaking Dawn Characters: Alice, Alistair, Aro, Bella, Caius, Carlisle, Charlotte, Chelsea, Demetri, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Irina, Jacob, Jane, Jasper, Kachiri, Marcus, Nessie, Peter, Renesmee, Rosalie, Senna, Zafrina
Series: The White Rabbit series, Eternal Hope: The Alice and Jasper Archive
Chapters: 23 Completed: Yes Word count: 81239
[Report This] Published: January 31, 2009 Updated: October 02, 2010


When filming is unexpectedly halted for Eclipse, Kristen decides she needs a fix of her guilty pleasure:  Broadway musicals.  What begins as a way to spend time with Rob Pattinson quickly becomes a group expedition that neither she nor the NYPD will forget...

Rated NC-17 for language, sexuality and way too much underage drinking for a one-shot RPF.  A lesson in the down side to taking a Shark Boy anywhere...

Categories: Other Characters: Kellan Lutz, Kristen Stewart, Nikki Reed, Other Character, Robert Pattinson, Taylor Lautner
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4787
[Report This] Published: August 31, 2009 Updated: September 13, 2009


The first of several 'alternate takes' on chapters from the stories of The White Rabbit series, this one-shot is a stand-alone that can be read without knowing any other story in the series, simply keeping this in mind:  taking place during New Moon, Alice and Jasper are off in Mississippi to try and learn more about her mortal life.  This is what chapter 15 of Down The Rabbit Hole could have been, if I'd been working with an NC-17 and indulged my desire to write a lemon.

In other words, this is a one-shot of pure smut.  Alice and Jasper demonstrate why they love having a shower to themselves.

So sit back, get cozy, and prepare to envy Alice as much as I do.  A litle helping of smut does a reader good!

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Eternal Hope Contributor

Categories: New Moon Characters: Alice, Jasper
Series: The White Rabbit series, Eternal Hope: The Alice and Jasper Archive
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4689
[Report This] Published: June 14, 2009 Updated: July 08, 2009

Disc Jockeys by casket4mytears Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 375]

Disc Jockeys

2009 Nominee, Best AU AH, Most Romantic Moment, Indie TwiFic Awards

2009 Nominee, Character You Wish Was Real (Jasper), The Faithful Shipper Awards

A small-town music store... Several music-obsessed slackers with a penchant for sexual misadventures, disastrous love lives and a little too much alcohol... Customers with horrible taste in CDs... Thousands in missing cash deposits... and Carlisle's not even supposed to be here today!

Disc Jockeys is the story of Velvet Records, one of the few remaining independent music stores in Washington State. From shoplifters to has-been singers, from franchise threats to the complicated love lives of the inhabitants within, the employees of Velvet handle it all, under the watchful gaze of Carlisle, their long-suffering manager.

This AU, AH is a spoof of Empire Records blended with healthy cynicism of the Clerks vein. If you haven't seen Empire Records, have no fear; this fic assumes you haven't the faintest idea what "Damn The Man - Save The Empire!" means (but SEE IT because it's an awesome flick).

This fic is rated NC-17 for underage drinking, drug use, sexy naughty times, dark issues including sexual assault and abuse and language. Slightly OOC for some players, canon pairings apply (eventually).


Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jacob, James, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 27 Completed: Yes Word count: 117000
[Report This] Published: November 10, 2008 Updated: June 05, 2009


Down The Rabbit Hole graphic by casket4mytears

After departing Forks with the rest of the Cullen family, Alice becomes increasingly preoccupied with the information revealed to Bella by James about her life as a human and the vampire who changed her. Told partially through flashback and through present-day (read: during the New Moon time span) events, Down The Rabbit Hole explores the details of how Alice comes to an understanding of her past.

"I read that letter, just last week
You were telling me the darkness had taken you
and it had only lasted a week
I don't know where your saviour is...
Check the back room
He's writing the book that describes the end
as you're passing this life

Now I see it: it's a doorway
It's a doorway to my love..."

The Streets Fell Into My Window - The Red Paintings

July 2009:  Indie TwiFic Awards Finalist:

Best Canon Complete
Best Characterizations (non Edward/Bella) Complete

Eternal Hope Contributor

Categories: New Moon Characters: Alice, Alistair, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, James, Jasper, Rosalie, Tanya, Victoria
Series: The White Rabbit series, Eternal Hope: The Alice and Jasper Archive
Chapters: 19 Completed: Yes Word count: 58669
[Report This] Published: September 30, 2008 Updated: October 22, 2008


Edward slips into Bella’s room at night to decide whether he ought to kill her or leave Forks entirely…  Consider it an alternate view written prior to the leak of Midnight Sun.

“I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own…”

Anywhere – Evanescence


Categories: Twilight Characters: Alice, Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 2175
[Report This] Published: October 07, 2008 Updated: October 10, 2008


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