Okay, so I'm behind on the band-wagon.  I'm not sure that you read these reviews anymore, but I imagine that doesn't matter.  I was supposed to be doing other things, but once you get pulled into a  story you can't let it go until those characters are out of your head.  Anyone who reads and writes knows what I am talking about... 

I wanted to tell you, that though i am usually not a Bella/Edward fan... I liked this.  The list made some of the changes to the original story that had always bothered me.  I had always wondered where her spine was, I had always wondered where the lust was and while I understand what SM did it had always bothered me that Bella had problems with people giving to her at all.  

The impact that this has had on me personally is another matter entirely.  It made me think about where my passion is. You see, my "match" is a person that I could never have.  Not because someone else has them, or because they are too young or old, or anything like that.  NO... he lives in Denmark.  I knew him for only 4 months and knew that I could spend the rest of my life knowing him and it wouldn't be enough.  You have re-inspired me to believe that something can happen that will make it possible.  That people can give and take and work on things--which hasn't been my experience. 

I know that often people don't think that a story about what amounts to a lot of lemons will mean anything but it wasn't that it was sex, it was that the sex meant something.  It was powerful enough to show their love, I only wish that I had enocuntered that... it would have been amazing if that had been my first experience... 

But on a less personal level i enjoyed your writing for the fact that I never focused on the words.  I felt.  I moved.  I watched.  the story unfolded before and the magic of your written voice carried me to a world where the time had no meaning to it.  Thank you. I needed that respite. I hope that you do keep writing.  Not just because it is great writing but also because I read everything you wrote about writing and it sounds to be a part of you.  

This will go on my favorites a the first Edward/Bella story.  I like your Bella. and thank you for leaving Bells to Jacob.  

I'm going to keep reading, then I'm going to go and write because finally my characters will have room to speak to me... Congratulations on the success that I know will be yours. 

Truly, 

Lys 

aka. Stkrwildme

I know it's late, but I don't really care. I suppose it doesn't matter if you don't read this... as I imagine a lot of my comments are like that... Long and annoying but otherwise ignored and only posted for my sanity.

I read your story because it was BellaxJasper and I almost stopped, but I'm glad I didn't.  You have an uncanny ability to write what people really feel, and still protray how they really act.  That's not an ability many writers have, even best-sellers.  I know that part of that may be people helping you write about the depression, but it wasn't just with that... so I know that's it's your writing.  Bella's reactions alone have inspired me, in a weird way, to find someone that will accept me.  

You're right, though, sometimes it just doesn't work, and there's no real reason why... it just doesn't.  But i hope i just know when it's right... Hopefully it won't be too complicated--I have a flair for complicated. 

I have recently been reading Loose Girl by Kerry Cohen (I think that's her last name), if you haven't you should.  It's a memoir about a girl that is addicted to male attention and it highlights a lot of the issues that you talked about in here, and it also spoke to me.  I have not always been a fan of Bella, or here "pushover" ways, but you made it work.  You showed another side of her.  Congrats on that. 

On a more personal level.  I know that you have gotten a lot of people talking about their fights with depression, and I liked especially that you didn't "cure" Jasper.  You can't cure it.  That's a reality that I have to deal with everyday... I am still struggling now to be able to talk about it ever-- I go in extremes, talking about it up front so that I never have to talk about it again, so that people never ask how I feel and I can continue feeling horrible, or never talking about it all.  I think that you captured that sturggle, I don't imagine that I am alone, but I think that it's hard to see from the outiside.  Your writing has made me realize that I do need to go to group again.  Even if I feel like I have control on my life again.  I need this stability, if not because I need to talk about then because I need to know that other people can talk to me. I need to know that I can be trusted. Somehow I have always been there for other people without being there for me too, it would be nice to be able to do both again, to be able to take care of myself while helping people... 

I'm sorry for the rambling... I'm sure that you've gotten a lot of people talking like this, but I wanted to say one thing in particular.  If nothing else, remember this. I will never forget how I felt when I read, "he's about as observant as a dehydrated starfish..."  That made my day, my week... I know it's small, but it made me laugh and I've found that when you find something that you are connected to like I was connected to this... that one thing, will always make you happy-- that line will always make me smile...  

Thanks,

for the story, the laughs, the time you spent, and for making a difference in me, and hopefully how people see addiction and depression.

Always,

Stkrwildme.

Rayne.

thanks. It was beautiful. I really like that imprinting idea. I always thought about it that way, but what about Leah and Sam?  He imprinted even though he was in love with Leah... or is it just the Imprintee that has to be unattached?

I don't know that entered my mind long after i felt all the wamr fuzzies about bella and Jake being together in that way.

Wonderful.

Lys

Lol... I absolutely love Leah. I think she's great... most people give her a bad wrap... but she makes my day.