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What if in the beginning Edward lied to everyone about being in love with Bella? What if originally it actually was all about Bella's scent? And what would happen then if accidentally, much against his will, Edward kind of sort of fell head over heels in love with this not-so-dull human girl?

This is an AU of the Twilight Saga using an entirely different plot as to how, why, and when Edward and Bella fell in love. It offers a different explanation for what was so special about Bella Swan, why Edward vigilantly enforced those physical boundaries, why there's tension between the Cullens and the wolves, and why Edward behaved the way he did not only with Bella but with his family. Expect romance, mystery, angst, and humor. Dark Edward.

Canon Pairings, No BxExJ, OOC.

This story is rated NC-17 because of occasional naughty language, violence (or implied violence) against humans, vampires, werewolves, animals, insects, minding-their-own-business-pajamas, entities, books, coffee tables, leather recliners, bridges, sword ferns, shrubs, rocks, and worst of all....trees. It is also rated NC-17 due to excessive snarkiness by Edward, references to underage drinking, practical jokes and/or enthusiastic tormenting of secondary characters particularly Mike Newton, Jacob Black, and Charles Swan. It also is rated NC-17 due to sexual content.

 Thanks to Mizra for the banners.


Categories: AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Eleazar, Emmett, Esme, Irina, Jacob, Jasper, Kate, Lauren, Leah, Other Character, Rosalie, Sam, Seth, Tanya, Victoria
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Chapters: 74 Completed: Yes Word count: 1085631
[Report This] Published: October 30, 2008 Updated: May 31, 2011


Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 01, 2010 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Ten - Heartbeats and Lullabies

Ok...so since the Black's are after the O'Shea/Swan property, does that mean that Paula is involved too?  Is she trying to decieve Billy or Charlie?  The way I look at it is that she is doesn't want to become pregnant, but is trying to fool Billy.  With her having the fertility shit, and the birth control pills, there is so much more to this story.  I can't wait to find out.  I'm also curious about this Swan power.  It seems like Bella has some pretty special abilities.  Now, does she keep all these abilities, or are they just to help the Cullen's with their humanity?  I'm really trying to peice all of this together, but I really need more info. 

 

With that being said, I'm off to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

HI there Jennifer!

Thanks so much for the review! You will find out the answers to all those questions very soon. So I'm not going to spoil you. And the question you pose about Bella is rather insightful. The question I ask you back is this - How do you know that Bella is the one with the abilities? Eh? 

*evil grin, rubs hands together and cackles in glee* You'll totally find out that answer as well. :)

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 04, 2010 Title: Chapter 38: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty-Seven - Oh the Depravity! The newborns and Tyler Crowley Must Die! Not Necessarily in That Order

A lot of things were answered in your A/N at the end of this chapter.  But I still can't help but feel a bit bad for Edward.  He has so much on his plate right now, and I know his siblings are trying to help him out with Bella, but sometimes I think that they are doing more harm then good.  By god, he is just so confused right now.  He truly doesn't know what he did wrong, and I really think someone needs to tell him.  I think if he wasn't under so much stress, he might be able to figure it out, but it's just too much right now.  And sometimes it seems like his siblings are getting a kick out of him suffering.  While I was reading and feeling Edwards pain, I felt like climbing through me computer screen and just tell him what he did wrong and then tell him to fix it.  Atleast he would have had some sort of clue of what he did.  I know Bella could have told him too, but Edward and Bella are too much alike at the moment, especially with them both being shy and not one's for talking.

 

Hopefully they can work on their problems together.  Now, I really need to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

Thanks so much for your feedback! And at this point you really should be feeling bad for Edward. He's delusional, and his world is falling apart because he can't live in that delusion and love Bella at the same time. And his family has no idea how sick he is. So what to them comes across as teasing banter - to you and me comes across as them giving him thousands of paper cuts and pouring lemon juice on them. Aside from Mary Alice - he is not close to his family although he's been making an effort in this story on his own terms to correct that. And I didn't want to have them sit him down and explain more than they did - Emmett's conversation with him was an attempt to explain and he blew him off. So his family in part is taking the approach of they are going to have to sit back and watch him learn by falling. They do recognize that he is rock stubborn. But Bella too, and this is important, could have told him at any time what he did that offended her. And she did not. Her lips aren't frozen. So part of the problem that you see with her is that when she's angry, she avoids people. That to me is an important character flaw in Bella. Notice that she has learned her parents lied to her for her entire life about a serious medical condition. She has not said word one to either of them. As a matter of fact she's cut off all contact with her mother. Bella and Edward are both shy yes - but for different reasons and to different extents. Bella will warm up to people that she loves and she will talk to them. Edward will be a ghost in the back of the room. He's just now starting to actually speak and only because he's being forced to do so. Take heart, the next chapter should keep you entertained. :)

As ever, thank you so much for spoiling me with your thoughtful reviews. You seriously make my day. :)

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 02, 2010 Title: Chapter 28: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Seventeen - When the Fur Flies

Paula being the new shaman of the tribe seems fitting.  She has sacrificed the most for the tribe, and I think she makes a great addition. 

Edward's dreams of Bella are really disturbing to me.  It seems in a way, Edward is annoyed by Bella's behaviour in them.  I have no idea why though when I think about it.  It's at the point where when I think about it, no words come to mind.  It's rather infuriating.

 

I really hope Billy gets what's coming to him now with Paula being the new shaman to the tribe.  He is a really disturbed man.  It makes me wonder if there is any relation between him and Gregory.  They are both some fucked up people.  I really hope that Paula can break through Jacob's mantality.  Billy did a fine number on him.

 

Sorry to say, but the next chapter awaits.  So, until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

Thanks so much for the review! I liked the idea of Paula being the shaman as her character at this point in the story is a cipher. I think you are on track about Edward's feelings, in his dreams he senses that she's in danger and it terrifies him. Another thing to consider is that with these new wolf powers he has these emotions racing through him that he literally does not understand. 

*evil grin regarding Billy* that's all I'm sayin'. heh heh. 

There is absolutely no blood relation between Billy and Gregory. I liked the irony of Ephraim having family that "switched" roles with the Clearwaters and were the baddies. Given the Cullens' friendship with him, it does put them in a bind. To honor Ephraim's memory, they really don't want to hurt any of the Blacks. Okay fine, that's true for everyone save Edward. 

And you are right, Billy most definitely was a horrible parent. Jake will have his time to shine in this story. Promise. 

:)

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 02, 2010 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Eighteen - Stomping Through the Sword Ferns and Twinkling in the Night

Skeevy?  You mean the red-eyed monster who has been haunting Bella's dreams?  What the hell does he have to do with Aaron?  Does that mean they are together?  Does this have something to do with Jasper's past?  Wow...this chapter just brought up a whole new questions to this story.

 

I thought I was starting to get an understanding to Bella's powers.  I thought it was actually Bella's grandmother who was sending these images to the Cullen's through Bella, but after the talk Alice and Edward have, I'm confused again.  Oh well...you wouldn't be doing your job if everything was easily understood.  I can't wait to unlock the mystery though.

 

Off to read the next chapter now.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

Have no worries, you are sharp enough that I think you will figure these questions out. :) Bella's grandmother is indeed sending her visions. 

 

:)

 

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 02, 2010 Title: Chapter 31: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty - Mementos Long Forgotten

My god...the more I read the more astonished I am.  It seems like everyone is connected in some form to this story.  Edward and the knife, Jasper's past, Alice's past, and with the scent thing, I think Paula might be able to help with that since she doesn't give off a scent either.  I am literary sitting at the edge of my computer chair with my face pressed against the damn screen.  Great job by the way.

 

That is all I'm reviewing for this chapter though.  I need more.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Well hello there Jennifer!

Thank you so much for your kind words. :) I am delighted that you are enjoying my twisted take on Twilight. Edward's brain is so much fun! The plot is indeed intricate and yes it does seem that there are connections everywhere. It is a detailed story, I'll admit. :) And I'm totally cracking up at the idea of you with your face pressed against the screen. Mwa-ha-ha!

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 02, 2010 Title: Chapter 32: Chapter Eight: Part Twenty-One - Mammoth Sized Mongrels Stench-Sploding in the Night

I'm not too sure Edward really understands the consequences of the tests that he might have to undergo.  The first thing that came to my mind is that he might have to choose between protecting Bella or his family.  I couldn't possibly see how he could choose one over the other if that scenerio every came into fruition.  I just hope it really doesn't.

 

So, Bella has venom coated on her where she was feeling pain?  That is very interesting.  I wonder how the Cullen's are going to handle that.  Now I'm wondering though...is there any way that the Cullen's can extract that venom off of Bella to help with making the weapons since the venom doesn't give off any odor? 

 

I'm hanging on a thread here, so i'm off to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennnifer!

I think the problem that you have with Edward is that he is trapped in this delusion that he has to remain the perfect vampire child or his family will kick him out. On top of that he has these powers he does not understand that are impacting him in ways he a) cannot predict and b) just does not understand as well. And as established in the prologue, Edward HATES feeling out of control. And when you combine the wolf powers with how all his instincts go on full alert when he's around Bella (must not chomp singer, nom, nom) Poor guy really is in multiple levels of hell. So he's constantly trying to plan his campaign of being around his singer, but he also is trying to deal with so much else that is getting thrown at this normally painfully quiet and reserved man. He's on overload. 

Bella was indeed coated with a substance that appears to be venom. You'll find out more about it soon. Promise. And to your question about the extracting venom from her? No. Can't happen. 

:)

Thanks for making my day,

 

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 02, 2010 Title: Chapter 33: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty Two - "Scent"-antic Shenanigans

So I have a theory, but knowing me, I'm thinking way too much into things and is probably wrong.  But, I'm still going to state it.  I was thinking about Edwards dreams of Bella being chased in the forest, and he says that he's trying to call her but no words are heard.  Also in Bella's dreams, the red-eyed monsters are chasing her but can't find her as long as she doesn't say anything.  Here is my theory.  What if Edward had to chose between Bella and something else in able to keep all this power and decided since no vampire can track her by scent, that he decided to keep an eye on Bella through Miss Grace?  And I know your probably thinking of the venom tats, but I'm thinking that the Cullen's can see it since they are protecting her, but maybe, just maybe, no other mystical creatures can see it?

 

I'm not sure how much of that made sense since I'm very tired at the moment, and I'm actually slurring my damn words when I speak.  So, I'm going  to leave it here for now, and when I wake up, I'll be reading the next chapter.  Hopefully the next review will be more insightfull.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer! 

That's an interesting theory. Although it's wrong. :)You'll see why when you read the next chapter. Or two. That made an awful lot of sense and is far more clever than what I planned, so give yourself a pat on the back. And get some rest. :)

Best,

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Starched Shirt Edward is throwing rose petals at you.

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 03, 2010 Title: Chapter 34: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty-Three: Family Trees and First Dates

Hmmm...a lot has happened in this chapter.  But I think the thing that most stood out was Bella's recurring dream she keeps having of Aaron at Jasper's human home.  By the sounds of it, I think Aaron tried to change Jasper's sister, but she sacrificed herself once she saved her son.  So the question that comes to mind is who ended up raising Aaron's son, and once he was of age, did he come back for him and change him?  Or did someone else do the honors?

 

Carlisle has been keeping a bunch of secrets from everyone.  His power does seem interesting, but I can't help but think that there is more to his powers then he is letting on.  That also brings to question about how much power Edward really has?  Since the shaman told Edward that he help the most power out of the Cullen's in 1940, and now he also has the Quiluete powers, he makes for a very powerful vampire.

 

Then all of this really makes me think about Bella.  There are quiet a few powerful vampires who are trying to claim Bella.  Do they sense that she has great power too?  Could that also be what drew Bella and Edward together?  Could they maybe sense that power from each other and not really realize it?  I really can't wait to find out more of the Swan/O'Shea history.  It seems really interesting.  Oh, an I can't wait to see what's in all the other safety deposit boxes too.  1918?  The year Edward died and became an immortal vampire.  There is just so much mystery to this story, and I really can't wait until it all unfolds.

 

Off to read the next chapter now.  I really should start a journal or something and start writing down all the clues to this story.  But, then again, I won't.  That would take away precious reading time.  Hehehe.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

I'd say that you are kinda sorta on the right track with Aaron. In my mind, as a raving newborn he really didn't know "how" to change anyone - same deal with Jasper. Jasper woke up and was this quivering mass of raw hunger. He wasn't picky about who he killed because he was overwhelmed with newborn thirst. I didn't imagine any kind of deliberation when I wrote up that scene with Aaron and the family. He was hungry. His instincts, since he was scared, let me to go "home" and the rest was tragedy. And since no one in the family knew anything about vampires, then Jasper's sister would have had no idea that she was making a sacrifice. Does that make sense? And how did you get the idea that the child is alive? I'd suggest re-reading the scene. 

 

I think that you raise a great point about Carlisle. In my mind, his power does not work in the mind, it works on the body and that is why people never sense him. Immortals that have the ability to know when their minds are being manipulated would sense him in a heartbeat. To me, Carlisle's gift works through sound. His voice literally soothes people and relaxes them. It's just little old him. Nothing to worry about. I also think it's possible that part of what makes Carlisle's gift so scary is that even gifted immortals (or wolves) can't sense it. So to me Hezekiah quite possibly might not have recognized that Carlisle had as much power as he did. He took a chance on Edward, instead. 

As for Bella, what I can tell you is that she is a plain ordinary human. That's about all I'm willing to tell you without spoiling the plot. Yeah, her mind is special, but to the Cullens it doesn't mean she'd be this hugely powerful vampire. To them, it's most likely the result of her brain being damaged. 

:) Thanks for making me think about my story. You are waaaaay too observant. :) 

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: April 03, 2010 Title: Chapter 35: Chapter 8: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty-Four - What Could Possibly Go Wrong With a Miscreant Immortal Having an Un-chaperoned First Date?

The character of Bella just seems to be getting more interesting.  While I was reading, I kept thinking to myself that Bella probaby knows more then she is letting on.  I remember in an earlier chapter how she liked to act clueless like her mother.  That made me think more.  I'm thinking maybe she does know that the Cullen's are vampires, and maybe she's trying to help them or something like that.  Maybe she knows somehow that an epic battle is on it's way to Forks and this is her way of trying to help.  Then again, maybe I have an over active imagination?  But Bella...Liam has trained her to fight with vampire weapons, and she's not suppose to know that?  And then with this being in EPOV, we don't get inside Bella's head to know what she is thinking or what she knows.  It really makes me think that she really does know more then she is letting on.

 

I can't wait any longer, so i'm off to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

I can tell you that in some regards - you think too much LOL - in others I think you might have a point. You will find out the answers to your questions within a few chapters. I will tell you that Bella was trained by Liam as physical therapy in part. Charlie and Renee refused to let her know that she had a disability. So if Genevieve is doing exercises with her, then that could be painfully obvious. Liam? Not so much. And I will tell you based on all the weaponry around his lab that Liam clearly was worried about something. To him, he taught Bella how to defend herself - to buy her some extra time if she was attacked. He knows that if it came to a physical conflict due to her disability that she would really have a problem. And if you re-read the chapter -the Other Immortals make it clear that Liam did not want Bella knowing about them. 

Thanks for the review!

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 05, 2010 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Twenty-Nine - How 'Bout 'Dem Apples?

I had a feeling that Bella knew about the Cullen's.  Hehehe.  I'm a perceptive litlle bitch.  I know I probably get a few things wrong, I'm so happy to see I got this right.

 

Now what I would really like to know is this treaty with the Vancouver coven.  I don't even know where to start deliberating with that.  I can't really think of anything that would involve a treaty.  The only thing I can think of is Liam wanted Bella protected, so he made a deal.  Possibly with algea. 

 

I wonder what the rest of the Cullen's are going to think once they realize that Bella knows all about them?  I can't wait to find out their reactions.

 

I'm a bit worried with the Volturi visiting with the Cullen's.  How are they going to keep them from discovering Bella?  I can't wait to see what you come up with.

 

Thinking about all of this is making me anxious for the next chapter, so I'm off to read it.  Until then...

 

Jennifer

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 05, 2010 Title: Chapter 41: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty - Between a Rock and a Hard Place, Not that Kind of Hard Place. Maybe.

My god...even the spirits want Bella now?  Doesn't she have enough mystical creatures, humans, and god know what, after her?  Poor Edward is going to lose his shit.  I don't know how much more he's going to be able to take.  He's already on a very short fuse, this just might top the charts.  I wonder what he's going to do?  Is this the part of the story where he leaves her for her own good?  We all know it has to be done, but don't they have to profess their love for each other first?  I know, I'm pulling strings here, and I'm probably jumping the guantlet, but I can't help it.  My mind works in mysterious ways.  Hehehe.

 

When the others first came across the 8 piles of ashes, the they found the letter with it signed "V", the first group who came to mind was the Volturi.  It seems too convienent for it to come from the Vancouver clan.  There needs to be a twist in here somewhere, and I know your great at them, and I think that would be a good twist.  The Volturi know, and is after something as well.  Too far fetched?  Maybe. 

 

Oh well, I guess I better get ready to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer,

The Vancouver coven left the note. The problem they have and have always had - is that they are secretive to the point of exasperating Carlisle. They kill the bad guys, yet they don't tell anyone who they are or why. And you make a great point about Edward. No one really has any idea of just how messed up he is inside his head and his family is beginning to become quite frightened about the effects the powers are having on him. The problem that Edward has is that he sincerely does not recognize that he feels anything for Bella beyond instinctual attraction. His human memories have faded and take with it his memory of the emotion love. So if you woke up tomorrow, for example, and you couldn't remember how it felt to have a friend, to care for a friend, how would you know you had one? Edward has all these raging emotions running through him that he simply does not understand and is dismissing them as products of the wolf powers in his system rather than genuine emotions that he truly feels. 

Hope that helped. And thanks so much for the review! You should write mysteries. You have the right twisted mind for it. LOL?

Jugurtha is blowing kisses at you.

 

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 07, 2010 Title: Chapter 46: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty-Five - Fine. I Really, Truly, Sincerely, From the Bottom of My Ossified Heart, Love Bella Swan. Happy?

Wow...I actually have no words to describe how I felt when Edward broke up with Bella.  It was just cruel.  It did seem like she saw through it a bit though.  Her saying she knew what he was doing and made a decision without her, and then her calling him a coward.  Also, I keep thinking back to an earlier chapter where Edward was listening in on a conversation Paula was having and he tuned it out after Paula said that Swan's mate for life.  So to me, Bella's reaction to Edward leaving, even though we don't know much, is justifiable.  When a Vampire loses his mate, he or she see's no reason to continue.  To me, the same can be said for Bella.  She tried, but became lifeless without her mate.  Now, I just hope that Bella gives Edward hell.  Make him suffer a bit before they reunite.  He needs to be taught a lesson.  It makes me wonder what Jugurtha thinks of all of this.  He was mighty quiet in this chapter.  I hope he gives Edward a piece of his mind too.  Starch Shirt Edward is too devistated at the moment, but I hope he can give Edward a lashing too.

 

Now, I would like to apologize for not review the past couple of chapters.  I came down with the flu, and I've been reading while I was awake, but my mind really couldn't make sense out of much, so I just decided to review when I started to feel better.  I'm still not 100% though.  I woke up with body aches today, and it's driving me up the wall.  So, I'm taking it out with a half assed attempt of reviewing.

 

Off to read the next chapter now.  Hopefully my next review will be a bit more thorough.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

Thanks so much! I had a very hard time writing that chapter as I'm new to fiction writing and that was my first take on angst (beyond HOD1). I wanted Edward breaking up with Bella to be different than what I had read in other NM AU's. I thought it would be completely evil for him to tell her the truth. 

Something to keep in mind in his reasons listed in that chapter for breaking up with her, is that he does not feel the way that it has been described to him that vampire mates feel towards their mate (hope that made sense). Vampire mates in my mind, take one look at each other and bam, they're goners. The mate bond forms quickly and they're gooey-eyed in love forever more. Edward did not feel that way about Bella - not like he observed with his siblings. And because of that - and because of what he heard about happening with Liam and Eve - Edward sincerely believes that not only is it impossible for him to have the kind of love that his siblings have if he stays with Bella - but he also fears (legitimately so) that if he stayed with her that she would either a) get tired of him and date a mortal - humans are fickle, or b) HE could find a mate and the situation would end up like that of Annie/Victoria and Jasper, and c) since he refused to change her, he's risking his position in the family - he's terrified they'll find out how much he hates being a vampire and kick him out. And in Edward's mind, he can't have that - seeing as he doesn't think that he can depend on  Bella, her being a weak human and all. And then there's the fact that he's sincerely confused that maybe it's just his vampire charms that are working on her. 

As for Bella - remember that she first learned about Edward and his family when she was 7, and she took one look at that picture and read the stories that Ephraim wrote about him and fell head over heels - with an idea. And Edward met her at a time when she was extremely vulnerable and due to that, they formed a very quick relationship built on sandy soil. So Bella allowed herself to be convinced that this was all fate. And Edward ripped the rug out from under her. And she's angry with herself for falling for his ploy. 

You have my promise that Edward will be suffering - just not in the way you'd expect. :)

I hope you are feeling better! The flu is miserable. :)

 

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 15, 2010 Title: Chapter 47: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty-Six - Ok, So I'm Only Inhuman

So, the Violet Gorgon helped Edward, bathed him, sent him protection to get him to the Volturi and sent help to his family.  It seems she also has a suspicion that Bella is still alive, which we all know she is except Edward.  And all she wants is help finding her son?  Which brings me to this.  Does Maria have her son?  Edward thought he was about 2, and Maria seems to have an immortal child in her care, but this child seems to be powerful.  So either this is simply the case, or my math isn't adding up.

 

Edward totally deserved to get punched in the face.  I wonder how Bella didn't break her hand in the process though?  Does this also mean that it was Jacob who pulled Bella out of the water as well?  It makes sense since he pretty well stalks her when she is in La Push.

 

I really don't have much to say about Edward in this chapter.  He's pretty well delusional at the moment, and not in his best form.  Can't blame him on that count.

 

See, I haven't forgotten about this story.  To tell the truth, I never closed down this page.  Once I was better, I checked my inbox and saw that I had 200 messages in my inbox from fanfiction, twilighted and the writers coffee shop.  I had to get caught up on some of them.  Now, the last I checked, there was about 65 messages left in my inbox.  I'm good to go now.  Now, I'm off to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

The Violet Gorgon did indeed pluck Edward from the ocean and see to his proper grooming. Yes. And do you think that really is all she wants? Just finding her misplaced kid? I don't. She strikes me as awfully ambitious that one. I can confidently tell you that Maria does not have any children, nor did she bear any while human.

In my mind, Bella smacked him but her shields prevented her bones from breaking - that's why he actually felt the punch. Does that make sense? You are the first person to notice that, by the way. :)

200 messages! Yikes! I'm glad you are feeling better. And thanks so much for offering me such thoughtful feedback about my story. :)

Jugurtha is giving you his best leer.

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 15, 2010 Title: Chapter 48: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty-Seven - Vainglorious Vampires - Who's Your Daddy?

So, I never would have guessed that the immortal was Caius' son.  That shocked the hell out of me.  I thought it was funny when Alec had to check to make sure all of his parts grew.  Thank god I wasn't drinking anything at the time, or it would have ended up all over my computer screen.

 

I was also shocked to find out that Bella is related to Marcus and the Gorgon.  I never really saw that one coming.  I thought there was a possibility with Alice and Bella though.  Especially with the matching pendents.

 

I'm curious how Edward is going to apologize to Bella.  He did truly think he was telling the truth.  He forgot so much about his human emotions that he didn't realize what he was feeling with Bella.  And now, I think things are just starting to click into place.  I truly feel bad for him right now.

 

Not knowing what Bella is thinking and feeling is making it really hard to comment about her right now, so I won't.

 

So much has actually happened in this chapter, that I just can't really put anything else in the review.  I would like to find out a bit more before I make a comment.  So the only way to do that is to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

I'm delighted you didn't see that plot twist. :) And yeah, I wanted Alec to be all typical guy for just a half a second. I've been setting up the Bella's heritage storyline for all of CC. So I am particularly delighted that you didn't guess that one. :) I wanted to have a different explanation for what made Bella Swan so special. Why she was supernaturally speaking of interest to any immortal. 

And you are reading Edward's situation EXACTLY how I wanted you to. He can't do the, "Bella, I lied," routine. Because he told her the truth. So yeah, he has his work cut out for him. Thanks for making my day. :)

I think that the main thing you should see with Bella is literally that she's in shock. And she's got plenty of reason to, so right now she's just kind of sitting there trying to take everything in. Hope you enjoy the next chapter!

Best,

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 49: Chapter Eight - Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty-Eight - Edward Cullen: The Suckiest Monster of Them All

The only person who I can think who can be knocking at Bella's door is Liam.  He was said the have a bigger temper then Gene, so it makes sense.  I could be wrong though.

 

What is with Edward comparing his cucumber with everyone else?  I think it's hilarious.  Like seriously.  He makes me crack up everytime he does it.

 

I'm really starting to feel bad for Bella.  It seems like she's stuck in the moment when Edward left her.  Living it day in and day out.  I can't wait until she starts to recover to give Edward some hell.  Even though he is probably there at the moment.  I'm glad he's starting to wake up.  He has to stop his lying though.  It's really not helping anyone.  I hope he can at least be truthful with Bella.  She deserves it, espeically since her whole world is going to be thrown for a loop. 

 

I can't believe that Liam is her father.  So that makes Charlie her Uncle or great Uncle?  I can't really think now to do a proper family tree.  On that note, I really can't think of anything else for that matter.  So, I guess I will read the next chapter to see what other questions are going to be answered.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennifer!

Mizra, who made my banner, has made a family tree that you can click on in the next chapter that will show you who is related to whom. Very pretty work, too. And thanks so much for spoiling me so with the reviews! I have to admit that frolicking around Edward's twisted mind has been so much fun. To me Edward is a walking inferiority complex. And he's his own company because he is so shy, so he boasts internally, not externally - hence his, "I don't mean to brag...." comments to me at once show that part of him is like the typical pervy teenager all insecure and fixated with his size. In another way, though, it reinforces his loneliness because he's not boasting aloud. Or joking with his brothers. He's saying it to himself. Does that make sense?

I can tell you that Bella is not stuck in the moment where Edward left her. Currently, she's catatonic because of what she saw in the throne room. Her brain is flitting from traumatic moment to moment. Edward of course recognizes what she is saying. But the type of catatonia that she has is where the person is babbling every once in a while nonsense. So for dramatic irony I had her saying things that made sense to Edward but not to anyone else. In my mind, if you were inside of Bella's mind, it would be like sitting in the front seat of a car that is out of control and lurching around and swerving. And you can't steer. You can only watch in morbid fascination, terrified that you're going to crash, coming so close. Bella beating the beJesus out of him in that section of the story was also a symptom of her current mental state. She wasn't rational when she did it.

Bella will most certainly give Edward hell. Promise. Just not, I think in the way that most people suspect. She's a very quiet and shy avoidant person. 

The problem that Edward has with her is that he DID tell her the truth. And that didn't turn out so well, now did it? Now what? He's really in a bind. He knows he needs to help her and he doesn't know how, or where to even begin.  To me, the first sign of Edward coming out of his own mental prison was him noticing just how bad of shape Bella was in. 

As for Charlie? No. first cousin. 

Best,

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 50: Chapter Eight - Heart of Darkness - Part Thirty-Nine - Desperate Times Create Disparate Vampires

hmmm...oddly enough I don't have much to say about this chapter.  The only tihng i can think of is now the Cullen's are under Marcus' protection.  That's great.  And I love how Edward brought others to witness the kind of power that Bella is weilding.

 

I don't like not having much to say.  It feels cheap.  I think I'm gonna sulk while I read the next chapter, and hopefully I have more to say.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

I am happy for any kind of feedback you offer, dear. :) And you are right, the Cullens are indeed under Marcus' protection. That means, too, that they are also under his control in order to accept that protection. It also means they definitely NEED that protection now. Bella's entire world has literally shifted. Again.

 

Best,

 

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 52: Chapter Eight - Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-One - The Sounds of Silence and War

It seems Arria has a lot of explaining to do.  By the looks of it, she has done nothing to protect Bella, and has done more harm then good.  Way to be a mother.

 

I can't believe Paula is dead.  I never saw that one coming either.  I wonder who the new Shaman is, and who is making the wolves now?  Unless Paula did that before she died?  It also makes me wonder how bad things really are in Forks/La Push? 

 

It seems like all hell is going to be breaking loose in the form of Marcus.  I can't wait to see Maria's coven get decimated.  Don't know much about the Romanians to know exactly how much of an ass whooping they deserve, but I can't wait for that to happen either.

 

I never realized Edward didn't know how long he was really gone for.  It's kinda funny how he didn't realize he was feeling the way he was cause he was separated from his mate.  I can't wait until he realizes exactly when they became mated?  Was it at first sight, or was it when they started hanging out together, or was it when Bella kissed Edward in his cave? 

 

I'm glad i'm out of my blank mind stupor.  It was driving me up the wall.  I feel bad for not reviewing last chapter, but I just couldn't think of anything at all.  Hopefully it won't happen again.  It makes me feel dirty.  The next chapter awaits, but I might sleep first before I read it.  Then again, maybe I won't.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

This is the part of the story where everything is hitting the wall and all the plot threads are starting to pull together. You've done a wonderful job negotiating it. :) And thanks so much for the reviews! You are seriously making my day as I work on the next chapter. Arria definitely does look like she seriously sucks as a mother. In my mind, part of her problem is that she has cut herself off from understanding humans. And she firmly believes that the necklace will heal any ill of Bella's so she's not too concerned about taking her to Italy. She most definitely doesn't want to leave her daughter alone again, which is also part of what motivated her. You'll find out a bit more about her in the next few chapters. 

And yes, Marcus is the big bad wolf of the immortal world. Maria was a high-born young girl who was taken prisoner by Caius who had issues with her Father. He was tickled at the idea of her being enslaved and forced to work for him. Maria is rather irritated at Cauis because he wiped out her family. She really knows how to hold a grudge, that one.

You raise a very interesting point about Forks.

I wanted to show in this section just how bad off Edward was in the "Fine." chapter. He's on the edge of insane as he's roaming around the halls of the Volturi's crib. I will tell you that they did not instantly mate. That's about all I'll spill on that issue. Edward has to figure it out. 

And don't beat yourself up if you skip a chapter. I'm happy for any feedback you have. :)

Best,

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 53: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-Two - Parenting Telecles Style is a Contact Sport

Those Cullen women know how to give a good tongue lashing.  It was nice to see Arria put in her place.  She clearly had no idea how to care for a mortal.  It does look like Arria tried to keep an eye on Bella, but not in the way the Cullen's would have done it.  I loved the fact how Esme claimed Bella as her own daughter, and again how Marcus confirmed Bella and Edward as mates.  It seems like Arria is going to be a bit of a problem though.  I would say I'm worried about what would happen to Edward if he did something to Arria if she tried to interfere, but I'm not.  We all know that he's fine a few days before his wedding to Bella.

 

So Forks and La Push is up in flames, and Bella waked up next chapter.  Does the fire have to do with Phoenix, or was it someone else like Maria?  I can't wait until that epic battle unsues.  I'm at the point where I hope they torture Phoenix and Maria for all the shit they put Bella and the Cullen's through.  Not to mention everyone else for that matter.

 

As much as I would love to read the next chapter right away, I really need to get some sleep so I'm more aware for the last remaining chapters that are posted.  So, until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennnifer!

Sleep is a good thing. I definitely recommend getting some. :) The chapters will be there in the morning. And thanks so much for reviewing! You are right, the Cullen women are a great tag-team. I liked the idea of how impudent they seem seeing as they aren't "high born" literally taking on the most powerful coven in the world over Bella. And Marcus in pronouncing Edward and Bella as mates has just officially married them in the immortal world. See? I told you I had a different wedding in mind. 

Arria knows that if Edward and Bella are mated that she can't kill Edward. That doesn't mean she can't give him hell for hurting her daughter. 

There is indeed a large fire brewing. And Bella is indeed awake soon. You'll find out the answers to your questions in the next few chapters. Promise.

Best,

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 54: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-Three - Fair Game - Rare Medium - Not So Well Done

It looks like a few people made promises to Liam about Bella being changed at a certain age.  Now, we find out she isn't to be changed until she's 19.  And Arria was never intending Bella to carry a heir?  Some things are just getting stranger and stranger.  I'm wondering though...does Bella end up having a full recovery?  I'm just thinking back to the beginning of this story.  She didn't seem to be having any health problems.  Did you intend to write it that way?  And since we all know that Bella and Edward are to be married, I see no one has one Bella's heart over Edward, but man...I can't even put my thoughts into words.  It's driving me up the wall.

 

I'm going to stop smacking my head off my desk now and just read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi there Jennnifer!

In my mind, Arria had no idea that her Mother was going to reveal Bella to the immortal world. And that was a game-changing moment and my mercy me, is she ever pissed off about that. There is no concept in the immortal high born culture for a person with disabilities. And Arria wanted to shield her daughter, not only to protect her life, but because she knew that she would be subject to immortal scorn. 

Here's what I will tell you about Bella's health in the front arc. There are many things (like SSE and Jugurtha) I left off the page. She is almost at a normal weight in the first arc. I'll tell you that much. I will not be writing a love triangle in this story at all. 

Edward has his work cut out for him in trying to get her to forgive him, though. Yanno?

Best,

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 55: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-Four - Um, Sorry

So something finally added up for me in this chapter.  I was thinking about it earlier when Edward was trying on the clothes that he had stored and noticed that they not only fit Bella, but himself as well.  I have a feeling that Edward and Bella are connected on a different level.  I think that what ever one is feeling, so is the other.  Bella lost weight, and so has Edward.  The headaches they both have, Bella's heart problem, Edward's bite wound.  Now, the only thing I don't know is who is giving the symptoms to whom?  I have a feeling it is Edward who is transfering them to Bella.  She said she started feeling pain everytime she ate for a few weeks.  I don't think she could drop 30lbs in that short of time.  Then again, it is possible.  A couple years ago, I lost about 14lbs in a week due to severe stress, so I guess it is possible after all.  But the other symptoms, could be coming from Edward.

 

I'm really curious about what exactly Edward did during that battle.  It was probably something epic, and I can't wait to find out.  My imagination is going crazy right now, but I will refrain from stating them, because some of them do seem a bit far fetched even for me.  And that's saying a lot.  LOL.

 

It's nice to see Bella giving Edward a hard time.  At least she didn't cave right away like she did in New Moon.  Now all Edward has to do is earn her trust back somehow.  Edward has a long road ahead of him in that front.  Good luck to him.  I know at the time when Edward left, he truly thought he was telling the truth, since he knew no better.  He didn't have his human emotions.  But I do believe in a way, since he didn't know these emotions he was lying, just without knowing it.  I probably confused you with that statement, because I confused myself.  I can't even get my thoughts straight on this damn subject, so I'm just going to leave it where it is before I do a total mind fuck on not only myself but you as well.  We don't want that to happen.

 

I can't wait for the next update.  I will be looking for it daily in my inbox.  Probably multiple times.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

Your questions will be answered - most of them - in the chapter I am literally posting as soon as I finish typing. It will probably take about twenty to thirty minutes to post. It goes up on ff.net before it does on Twilighted, just so you know. Although the version that is posted on Twilighted has all the pretty pictures. 

http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1657796/

I wanted to throw the book in NM when she did the whole of course I forgive you for leaving pathetic old me in the first place.

In this story, she tells him that she forgives him, not because she's pathetic. She understands that he left to defend the tribe and his family and it made logistical good sense at the time. She does not blame him for what happened in his absence. But also, on her list of things that have traumatized her, he is sincerely an afterthought. So in forgiving him, she is kind of dismissing him as well. I do want to make the distinction that he has not asked her for a reconciliation - I separate forgiveness and reconciliation in this story. Hope that made sense. 

CC Bella is a very shy person. But she's not a doormat. She's the one that always keeps you guessing.

Best,

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: April 20, 2010 Title: Chapter 56: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-Five - Mated: Dead or Alive

Ok...so Bella has all these problems with her health because of the mate bond?  And it's killing her slowly?  So does that also mean that Edward has these symptoms too because of the mate bond?  In my last review, I kind of figured that their symptoms were connected in some way, and it just so happened to be the obvious reason.  Because they are mated.  You gotta hate that sometimes...the answer is usually right in front of your face, and for some reason you don't see it.  I have to laugh now that it was pointed out.  Sometimes my mind is right there, but then it goes off in the opposite direction, and makes things more complicated.  Oh well...at least this was answered.

 

So, Bella is the one to save the tribe?  I wonder what her role is suppose to be.  Since she isn't Quiluete, I don't think she's suppose to be the shaman.  That was left to Paula.  But now that Paula has an evil spirit sucking her soul, what is going to happen to her? I'm not even going to guess at this point in the story.  I think I will sit around and possibly wait for this one to be answered on its own.  Then again, knowing me, I will probably have something to say in a later chapter.  LOL.

 

One would think that the last battle that went through Forks and La Push would be the evil Ephraim was talking about in his books, but I have a feeling that was just a sneek peek.  I have a feeling the Evil he was talking about is going to be coming from the hands of Maria and Caius' son.  I don't think the Cullen's, Swan's, the tribe, the fake Canadians, Marcus' family and so on are out of the woods yet. 

 

I thought that Douglas was mighty cute in this chapter.  I can't wait until we hear from his mate.  She needs to be pampered too by Rosalie and Emmett thank you very much.  LOL.

 

I know I had more to say with this chapter, but for some reason, it keeps evading me, and I don't like it.  So, I guess I have to leave it here.  I can't wait until the next update though.  Let it be soon, if not, it's still OK.  I will be here.

 

Oh...I just remembered something.  So, the HOD arc is coming to an end.  How many chapters do you think you have left before the next arc to this story starts?  I think that's it for now though.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

Yep. Exactly. From the second they first started forming the bond, it's been wearing away at Bella. Her system is too frail to withstand the supernatural process of the formation of the mate bond. And you are the only one that figured it out that quickly. :) And I have no intention of making Bella the shaman, no. You are right. She doesn't have a drop of Quileute blood in her veins (although for the record neither does Edward. But still). Douglas' mate, Henrietta will find some way of appearing in the story that is flattering. I hope. :) I'm glad you enjoyed his antics. I had so much fun writing that scene. 

I wrote the HOD story over a year ago. It's in this massive file that makes my computer weep whenever I click on it. And what I've been doing is carving off a section of the draft and tweaking it - adding in here or taking out there. I have no idea how many more chapters it will be although I do feel comfortable saying that we are nearing the end of it. I would feel kinda silly if I said, "Oh there are ten more chapters," and ended up writing seventeen instead. And the next update is with the betas. 

Thanks so much for your thoughtful reviews. You made me smile. A lot. :)

 

Books

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed
Date: May 04, 2010 Title: Chapter 57: Chapter Eight: Heart of Darkness - Part Forty-Six - Devotion is Beautiful

Ok...I was all for Bella giving Edward a hard time about what he did to her, but I can see that some time has passed in this chapter, and I think it's about time that Edward and Bella try to have a heart to heart.  If that is even possible for these two.  I know either one of them is a talker, but I really do think that Edward needs to fix this now. 

 

My god...Edward and Bella are going to be a force to be reconed with.  Just the power from those two alone is massive, but then when Bella combines her powers with Marcus it's just incredible.  I'm glad that Bella and Edward were able to destroy that black soul sucking demon.  He was one nasty mofo.

 

So, Aaron has finally reappeared.  I really hope that Jasper tortures the bastard.  I never imagined that he would have ripped his son's throat out, but when I read it I was absolutely shocked.  I was even a bit grossed out by it.

 

I can't believe Leah wanted to eat Douglas.  I was frightened there for a sec until Edward saved the day.  Thank god for that. 

 

I guess that about sums it up for now.  I can't wait until the next update though.  Until then...

 

Jennifer



Author's Response:

Hi Jennifer!

Thanks for the review! Allow me as the evil author to remind you that Edward did have a heart to heart with Bella on the day he took her to the hospital. He begged her to forgive him and she said she did. And his Father and his sister have both emphasized to him how emotionally fragile that Bella is at present. She's doped up to her eyeballs on antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication, and she's on watch for suicide. So beyond what he already said, Edward does not feel like he can have that heart to heart until she is better. She barely talks to those closest to her - so he has the cold comfort of knowing that he is not the only one she's not really speaking to. Another thing to keep in mind is that Edward was told by Marcus that simply being around Bella is what will heal her. CC Edward detests talking. So if Bella can get better without him saying a word, he's all behind that solution. You are right, they do need to talk, but Jugurtha keeps telling Edward he needs to wait. 

And Bella is one hot smoking mammacita. Just sayin'. And yes, Aaron has come calling. Wonder what that's all about. He's even been kind enough to come armed. Lovely. And yeah, the part about his son was gross. And to me even more tragic. My sick sense of humor dictated that Leah wanted to eat Douglas. Sorry. :)

Next update won't be up for a few weeks. I've got a lot of writing to do. In the meantime, your homework assignment is to reread How Bout Dem Apples and the Fine! chapter. :) Best,

Books

 
Summary:

 

Edward left Bella, forcing his family to stay away from her. Six years onwards, the Cullens are a mess without Bella and Emmett decides to get away from his angry, angst ridden family and let loose. What he finds in the meanest biker bar in Seatle will send shockwaves through his entire family.

 

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Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: March 22, 2010 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

OMG...I am so loving this Bella.  I can't wait to see what brought all this on.  I'm actually surprised I'm reviewing.  The first chapter has got me hooked, and I really can't wait to read the next chapter.  When I'm excited, I usually skip the review part.

 

I can see Emmett is going to have a blast with Bella.  I can't wait until the rest of the Cullen's find out about Bella.  I wonder if Alice has seen this in a vision?  Again, can't wait to find out.

 

Off to read the next chapter.  Until then...

 

Jennifer

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: March 22, 2010 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2: Reckless Abandonment

Man...this is great.  I can't wait to see what happens next.  Why can't Alice see Bella?  I think they are heading to a bar with wolves.  That would be why Alice's vision started to go fuzzy trying to see Emmett.

 

Off to read the next chapter now.  Until then...

 

Jennifer

 
Reviewer: jenn9394 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: March 22, 2010 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8: Poor, Poor Edward Cullen

I have to tell you that you make it very hard to review, since I just found this story, and there are more chapters to read. 

 

I loved what Bella did to Edward.  He better watch out.  Bella takes no shit from no one.  I can't wait to see what else she has up her sleave.

 

Off to read the next chapter now.  Until then...

 

Jennifer

 




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