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Penname: spaniard [Contact]
Real name: Mary
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Member Since: August 12, 2008
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"Books are never finished. They are merely abandoned." -Oscar Wilde

No longer jumping around the globe. Now married and a mommy of a beautiful 5 year ols boy and a rambunctious 3 year old girl. Makes for a lot less writing time, unfortunately.

Sporadic reader...more sporadic writer...sadly sporadic reviewer...

Can't admit to a place...I've lived in so many places now that I really couldn't even claim a language...

Addicted to concepts and random mind-binding moments, reluctant heroes and antiheroes, flawed characters, vivid description, attention to detail, religous canon and songs sung at sundown from a fourth story balcony in the Barrio Santa Cruz in Sevilla. And's all about magic.

If I have favorited you, it is because you helped me believe in that magic...thank you.

"Fiction is the truth behind the lie, and the truth of this fiction is simple enough: The magic exists." -Stephen King

I love this sight, and the ladies who write so well.  I'm a lover of personal messages and reviews...I'll respond to all of them eventually...even when it makes me feel stupid!

Thanks for reading...and for writing them all!

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Thanks Roo, for the amazing banner! 

And more keep coming in!  Thanks to m81170 for this lovely piece of art:



Here's another amazing pic that fits in with Dark Side of the Moon perfectly -thank you to JohannaL for ID'ing the author: check out her (I assume) other manips - she's a genius!


Updated November, 2009

This story is now COMPLETE!

Dark Side of the Moon is my version of New Moon from Edward’s point of view.  Witness how Edward agonized over leaving Bella, hunted for Victoria, faced the Volturi, and came to realize that with Bella was where he was meant to be. 

This tormented story has been a part of my life for about a year and a half – and what a ride it’s been!  Meant to be canon and in character, I hope you enjoy angsty Edward and his suffering during New Moon.  As unhappy as Bella was during this time, Edward suffered so much more (I think).  So be sure and crack open a fresh box of tissues before reading!

 Thank you to everyone for all the reviews, especially to those of you who reviewed each and every chapter!  Your support and loyalty have been the driving force to me getting this project finished – and I hope it’s lived up to all of your expectations.

Love you all,


PS.  As one last thank you, I’ve posted a formatted, printable copy of Dark Side of the Moon at, as will also post as an electronic version suitable for viewing on a kindle or MobiReader.  I’m also posting a ‘Director’s Cut’ that includes citations of all of Bella’s quotes from Twilight, research notes, and even funny comments from my betas in this version in the same directory.


Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.

Use of the dialog from the series is just for clarity - Stephenie Meyer owns all things twilight!  I'm making absolutely nothing from this work.

Categories: New Moon Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Completed: Yes Word count: 163080
[Report This] Published: May 09, 2008 Updated: February 26, 2010

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: December 06, 2008 Title: Chapter 9: Distraction

My god!  I'm amazed!  You are so good at portraying Edward and making us feel so much for him...especially in his version of a book that I have no desire to like him in.  You have changed my mind!  I love this fic!

Author's Response:

Thank you!  I guess I was in the minority when I read NM - all through the story, all I could think about was how much Edward had to be suffering, having pulled himself away from the one thing that gave him life in order that she could live (in his mind, at least). 

Thanks for reading, and for the lovely review!  Edward thanks you too... 8-)


Invidia et Salus by Rialle Rated: PG starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 19]

A vignette about Emmett McCarty, his life from a human to a vampire and how he struggles with the most deadly of sins: envy. 

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Emmett
Series: The Seven Deadly Sins
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 2946
[Report This] Published: June 05, 2008 Updated: June 09, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: August 24, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

OK, oops.  I started one about the seven deadly sins!  I swear I am just reading yours for the first time though!  I really like your point of view of Emmett, though!

Author's Response:

dw about it, it's not like I own copyright to the idea.


Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: June 30, 2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This is such a beautiful Emmett.  I love stories that give him a personality past the limits of SM's stereotypes.  It would NEVER have occured to me to make Emmett insecure about Edward, but now that I think about it, it makes perfect sense.  He came first, and Rose was made for him...wonderful inclusion there.

I love the way you link the milestones of Emmett's life with vivid descriptions of they appeal to all of the senses and how you were able to so perfectly include that freedom of the open countryside into every aspect of the story: the taste of apples with his first kiss, the wind in the Smoky Mountains with his first love, the monsoon with his first kill.  I always link Emmett with a strong connection to the outdoors.  Very well done.

This was the first fic I ever read.  I remember it as longer, which is a good thing.  It is so well thought out that I really think it should be.  If you ever get the time, I would be one of you biggest fans on a project like that. 


Edward’s out hunting. Alice is on her way over to see Bella, but leaves a cryptic message ordering Bella to stay inside the house. Alice’s visions can spot danger before it happens…and of course, Bella always does what she’s told. Doesn’t she?


Categories: Post-Eclipse Characters: Bella
Series: None
Chapters: 36 Completed: Yes Word count: 74273
[Report This] Published: June 09, 2008 Updated: August 29, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: August 27, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Take care of my Bella

This is really good.  I'm already in suspense.  I only have time to read one chapter at a time, but I'm actually pretty glad I don't have to wait for the next one!

Names by KlutzLikeBella Rated: PG starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 52]

Bella and Edward have a conversation that leaves Edward speechless....

Categories: Post-Eclipse Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 978
[Report This] Published: June 16, 2008 Updated: June 17, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 12, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Names

Beautiful.  You made me smile and sigh out loud.  I love it.  Thanks for that.


At the beginning of Twilight when Bella mentions the ostracizing of the Cullen siblings, Charlie reacts almost explosively. Bella thinks that it’s just because Charlie likes Dr. Cullen and the rumors flying around are really bad. Is that all there is to it, or is there something else?

Categories: Twilight, Pre-Twilight Characters: Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Lauren, Other Character
Series: None
Chapters: 2 Completed: No Word count: 1961
[Report This] Published: June 19, 2008 Updated: June 25, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: August 24, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This has got promise!  I've often wondered about that first overreaction.  I'm glad you were observant enough to see that and creative enough to come up with a reason behind it.

Their Singer by SarahJayne Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 500]

In Twilight, Edward told Bella that if her blood sang to James like it had to Edward, it would've meant a fight right there in the field. What if this was the case? Follow Bella as she is kidnapped and turned by James, and the Cullens' fevered attempts to get her back. Features James/Bella, but this is ultimately an Edward/Bella story. "NC-17" for language, situations, and eventual sexual content.


Categories: Twilight, AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, James, Jasper, Jessica, Laurent, Renee, Rosalie, Sam, Tanya, Victoria
Series: None
Chapters: 14 Completed: Yes Word count: 34456
[Report This] Published: July 24, 2008 Updated: November 01, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 26, 2008 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Oh, this is torture!  I'm only to chapter six and I have to go!  This is amazing.  You have a talent for suspense, and you are making me really feel for Edward.  I'm so glad I check the recent updates today!

Lunière by SiDEADde Rated: PG-13 starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 176]

TW/MS Alice's POV. Canon "Where Jasper and I were halves of the same whole, Edward and I were the same half. We understood each other more than the family understood us."

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Categories: Twilight Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: Eternal Hope: The Alice and Jasper Archive
Chapters: 20 Completed: No Word count: 61922
[Report This] Published: August 07, 2008 Updated: September 14, 2009

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: December 05, 2008 Title: Chapter 2: The Girl

AaaaH!  Two final papers left to finish and all I want to do is read your fic! 

This is incredibly done.  You made it fit so wonderfully into Twilight, and it seems like you've got even the little details down perfectly! 

So far, I'm loving the fact that Alice mistook Edward's murdering spree for Jasper's, and I also love the reactions that you have created for my favorite civil war vet!

Author's Response:

Ahhhh, Jasper.  He's such a complex character, I know why Alice loves him.  It's such a compliment to know I've perhaps kept you from your homework.  I know what it's like to want to read rather than work.  This site is my biggest vice!


I'm so glad you're enjoying the story, and I really appreciate the encouraging words.  Hopefully 18 will be done soon!

Thank you!


Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: March 10, 2009 Title: Chapter 4: Bella

I love how Bella's character radiates the need for protection to everyone.  It ties it in to Twilight and Midnight Sun wonderfully. 

It never occured to me that Edward left before he even got a chance to explain Bella's silence to the rest of them.  You have a great insight for these characters.  I wish I could find some of that!

Author's Response:

Heh...oh that Bella.  How she will turn the Cullens upsidedown!

Oh you have great insight =)  I thoroughly enjoyed your Alice story out of Purgatory.  Beautifully written.


Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: March 10, 2009 Title: Chapter 7: On Waiting and Weather

"There was nothing more dangerous than an existential vampire." Loved that line!

I've been trying to do some writing all day and my mind keeps coming back to the craving to read your story...I'm very slow as you can tell, but I'm loving it.

I really like how you made Alice the one behind the scenes that works to convince them all.  It makes her bond with Edward, and even Bella later on, that much stronger.

Also, I'm fascinated with the idea that Alice doesn't want to leave because of some "unfinished business."  Really, all of those tiny details that tie everything in so perfectly are addicting.

Sorry, but you may be inundated with reviews by me soon!

Author's Response:

Erm, first off.  No apologizing for an inundation of reviews.  I will NEVER complain. ;)

Hee!  Existential vampire....I so love Jasper.

Thank you so much.  It's very flattering to hear that my story has attracted your attention!  It doesn't matter your speed of reading.  The fact that you take the time to leave the reviews is very appreciated!

I'm glad you are enjoying the canon tie-ins.  I've really worked and leaned on my betas to make sure this is all feasible and aligned with Twilight.  It -does- deviate from the leaked copy of Midnight Sun since most of it was written before that.  I stopped the alignment with MS after the first chapter.


Thank you again!

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: March 11, 2009 Title: Chapter 9: Snow

I think my eyes were about as disbelieving as I imagined Jasper's when Alice agreed to the janitor's closet.  Nice.  I laughed out loud, and that kind of reaction isn't easy!

Great detail about the Cullen's not having visible breath.  It had never entered my mind, but now that I think about it, it's perfectly logical.  You are great at this!

Author's Response:

Why thank you!  I try.


Heh...janitor's closet.  Silly Alice, and dammit Emmett!


Thanks for the review!

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: March 15, 2009 Title: Chapter 13: Snow War No Peace

He ha...Captain Mindreader and Futurella!  Sounds like someone's got a title for a future crackfic.

I love the snow war!  SM doesn't describe much of the Cullen family life.  You make it easier to imagine how they can be so united.

Also, I have always been under the impression that Alice's visions just kind of appeared every now and then, and that the only thing she could really control was who they were about.  I like the idea that she can control them completely.  It opens up a lot! 

Author's Response:

I am not this fail with review replies, I swear.  I don't know what is going on.

Heh....crackfic.  I'll bring that up to Mel and maybe she'll tackle it.

I think that I see her visions in two ways: those that she searches for, and those that just happen.  I like to think too, that she can't always see what she is looking for, and can't always control what comes in.  I didn't want to make her a MarySue, and I think that precogs have the potential to be the biggest MarySues of them all.

Thank you again for all these reviews!

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: March 21, 2009 Title: Chapter 17: Amelioration

I really love how you explain Alice's instant love of Bella with a vision and a void.  It has always been a weak part of the book for me--the quick way that everyone seemed to fall in love with Bella without question (except Rosalie of course).

This is such a wonderful point of view,  There are such tiny details that I could never possibly think of in here.  I love it.

Author's Response:

You know...i'm pretty sure I responded to this before...but the lack of italics underneith lead me to believe no... BOOOO ME!


Yeah, Alice does love Bella instantly, but that instantaneous-ness is confusing, and over whelming, and all sorts of angsty goodness.  I'm glad you enjoy it and that all of the little things make sense to you as a reader.  That's the part i'm always worried about.



Thank you again for being such a great and supportive reader!



Breaking Dawn inspired:  Leah makes the decision to break free from Sam and his pack. (one-shot)


Categories: Breaking Dawn Characters: Leah
Series: Three Days of Leah
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3104
[Report This] Published: August 10, 2008 Updated: August 12, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: December 04, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

You do Leah wonderfully.  I love how I didn't even see the break from the pack coming in her reasoning.  It was a great transition. 

Author's Response:

Thank you so much!  I consider that an honor coming from you as well...I'm such a big fan of your beautiful 'Purgatory', which I am woefully behind on. 

I really enjoyed writing Leah.  I'm sure I will continue to revisit her - she's such an interesting character.

(be)LONGING by emm Rated: G starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 158]


Some little girls want bed time stories of princesses and dragons, or magical creatures.  Alice is not prepared for little Renesmee's story of choice -- how her aunt and uncle met.


Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Alice, Jasper, Renesmee
Series: Eternal Hope: The Alice and Jasper Archive
Chapters: 7 Completed: No Word count: 15216
[Report This] Published: August 13, 2008 Updated: November 29, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: August 23, 2008 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3 - Trust

I really like this!  You're off to a good start, and I'll be waiting for more.  You stick to the characters very well, and I've always had a weakness for Jasper...after Edward, of course!

Author's Response:

Thank you! Jasper is definitely fun to write about, and I'm trying to stick to the characterization as much as possible...but SM doesn't really give us many scenes of Alice/Jasper alone time :)


A Changing Heart by blondie Rated: PG-13 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 73]


WINNER:  Best Angst/Drama AND Best Missing Moment at The Twilight Awards 

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Edward's experience during Bella's change - while she was unconscious.  Parallels pages 355-378.

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.


Categories: Breaking Dawn Characters: Alice, Carlisle, Edward, Esme, Jacob, Renesmee, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4636
[Report This] Published: August 18, 2008 Updated: August 18, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: June 11, 2009 Title: Chapter 1: A Changing Heart

This was beautifully written.  You do such a wonderful job at writing everyone in character.  I love his encouragement, and his suffering…and his reaction toward Renesmee…well, let’s just say I loved everything.

My favorite:  Alice’s part.  I thought it was incredibly appropriate that her attitude would be so carefree and focused on tiny details like clothes, fully trusting that everything else would be fine.  I love her admonishment of Edward’s lack of thought in detail and her observation of how he’s changed. 

So perfectly emotional!

Redemption by oh Ivory Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 124]

Her weight had dropped. She felt frailer now, more breakable.
Her skin had taken on a translucent hue. It was strangely disturbing.
Her previously silky hair was always now a knotted, tangled mess.
Her teeth never gave her lower lip a break; It was pulsing from all the biting she'd been doing.
She stopped reading.
She drank coffee in unhealthy amounts.
She slept 3 hours a night.
God. What have I done?

Edward has to deal with the repercussions of leaving Bella.

Categories: AU, New Moon Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Completed: No Word count: 10392
[Report This] Published: August 20, 2008 Updated: October 05, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: August 24, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Smoke

Oh!  I really hated those feelings that you always knew she was experiencing, but were never properly expressed.  This is good!  It's one of those stories that you know will make you sad, but somehow, morbidly, you have to read it.


For True Edward Fans. An in-depth, accurate portrayal of the heart, mind, and soul of the beloved Edward Cullen as he deals with the complex themes and events taking place during Eclipse. RATED T FOR TEEN, ALTHOUGH CHAPTER 8 CONTAINS SENSUALITY. CANON. EPOV.

Categories: Eclipse Characters: Alice, Angela, Bella, Ben, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Esme, Jacob, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 10 Completed: No Word count: 64609
[Report This] Published: August 24, 2008 Updated: November 07, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: September 01, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Theme from Chapter 1 - Ultimatum

My gosh!  Who are you?!  I am blown away by your ability to get into the mind of someone that is supposed to think like a 108 year old!  I believed it completely!  I will be reading this one religiously.  Thanks for this...

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 06, 2008 Title: Chapter 4: Theme from Chapter 8 - Temper

OK, I just want to say that I find myself forgetting that I'm reading fan fiction and thinking that this is a new part of the series when I'm reading this.  I also find myself analyzing it...I love the repetition of the "one down, one thousand to go" in the first chapter, and how wonderfully you seem to understand his agony in this one.  If you ever decide to publish some of your ow stuff, I hope you let us know where it is!

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 15, 2008 Title: Chapter 10: Theme from Chapter 22 - Fire and Ice - Part Three

OK, you can already guess by now, I love your portrayal, and I am blown away by your perspective.  I really hope you write more.  I am really very impressed.  Reading about the inner conflict that you have injected into every chapter actually brings me pain...Thank for this.

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: October 21, 2008 Title: Chapter 5: Theme from Chapter 20 - Compromise - Part One

As usual, another breath taking chapter.  You have an amazing ability.  Your portrayal of Edward goes so far beyond what I would have imagined.  Thanks for another marvellous chapter!


I was too disappointed with Breaking Dawn to move on, so decided to make the finale more action packed!  I wanted a real fight, and decided to write my own!  Starts in chapter 38 from the book.

Categories: Breaking Dawn, AU Characters: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4351
[Report This] Published: August 29, 2008 Updated: September 03, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed starstarstarstar
Date: December 04, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 38 Power

I admit that this ending is so much better than the anticlimax of Breaking Dawn.  I think that there would have been a few more casualties on the good-guy side if there really was a fight, but who am I to complain.  I love a happy ending! 

You are great at action scenes, though!  I think I'll take a look at this again and pick up some hints when it comes around to that part of mine.  Thanks!

Author's Response: You know, I never knew it before writing fan fic, but I do love an intense fight scene.  And now you're telling me I'm good at it?  I feel totally complimented.  Your story is so wonderful that it makes your praise that much better.  Thank you!




Bella attempts to live a normal life after Edward and the Cullen's leave her. Finding herself face to face with an Edward look a like, Andy Masen, she hasn't a clue how he will lure her back into the world of the undead. She will learn how the vampire came into existence, and the political war that is stirring in the bowels of the vampire world. She must chose her side, either with her newfound friend, Andy, or the love of her life, Edward. Where do her allegiances lie? Join Bella on the painstaking journey, and the ride of her life, that may just lead to the end of it. 


Categories: New Moon, AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Other Character, Victoria
Series: None
Chapters: 15 Completed: No Word count: 67272
[Report This] Published: August 31, 2008 Updated: February 24, 2009

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 06, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Anthony Masen

This plot line has some real promise.  I think I'll keep watch on it for a while.  I'm very interested to see where you take it.  Good job.


Fairytale by Marauder by Midnight

Carlisle and Edward manage to get by in uneventful Ashland, Wisconsin. Both seem to have a hole inside them, aching to be filled. What started off as another routine day at the hospital sends Carlisle's life in a spin as he experiences an emotion he thinks to exist only to humans: love.

The third installment of the Afterlife series. This is Esme's transformation.

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Carlisle, Edward, Esme
Series: Afterlife
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 1834
[Report This] Published: September 09, 2008 Updated: September 10, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 14, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Fairytale

The present tense threw me for a bit, but I love the way you see Edward's first awkward years and Carlisle's patient contemplation.  I'm eager for him to find that love he deserves!


Carlisle is paged to the emergency room for a trauma that turns out to be very personal.

"Bella," I replied, walking next to her stretcher.  "I hadn't planned on seeing you till after work.  What happened?"

Categories: Post-Eclipse Characters: Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Esme
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3368
[Report This] Published: September 26, 2008 Updated: September 26, 2008

Reviewer: spaniard Signed
Date: September 26, 2008 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

OK, I get it!  No drinking and driving!

But it was very nicely written and I really loved the interaction between the characters.  Of course you already know, but the part about the grandchildren at the end was perfect, and tying it into Nessie actually made me able to bear the idea that she exists a little more!

Thank for this.

Author's Response: Didn't mean for it to seem like I was preaching at all.  I just needed some to further the interaction between Bella and Carlisle.  Glad you enjoyed!



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