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Penname: cjmuehlb [Contact]
Real name: CJ Cullen
Status: Member
Member Since: May 28, 2010
Beta-reader: No

3/28/12 - just finished chemo and radation.  I plan on jumping back into my stories, focusing primarily on ROI.  I have the next chapter written, but it needs some heavy editing.  I promise to complete it before the birth of your grand children.  No worries if you want to stop reading until the story is complete.  I don't need the reviews in order to continue, but I always appreciate the ones I get.

I have only been reading fanfic since April of 2010 so I"m a serious newbie which is why I'm writing it now too. LOL   I'm particularly interested in the Carlisle-Edward dynamic so my stories will always contain a strong relationship between these two characters.  The only thing I can promise about my stories is they will always have some serious angst (well except for the smut stories).  I like angst...a lot of angst...angst for the sake of angst.  You get the idea. That said, it's unlikely that I will out and out kill off main characters at the end in some surprise twist.  I am not a huge fan of Bella; she's usually written too perfect for me and I don't see her as the bad girl so there isn't much I can do with her.  In other words, I probably won't be writing from Bella's POV anytime soon.

Carlisle is one of my favorites but unlike some, I find his possibilities are much more limited. Since I prefer canon type stories that are just a tad AU, it's hard to write Carlisle.  His history is pretty well documented and he will always eventually wind up at the same place.

So to summarize - ANGST - CARLISLE - EDWARD - CANONish   Nuff said.

Requiem of Insanity - This is my latest story.  This story is going to involve a human Edward and Bella, but the Cullens are all vampires. It will be full of angst and deal with some very heavy issues.  

Submit started out as a one shot that has turned into multiple one shots and describes Carlisle's attempts to control a coven of strong willed males using basic dominate/submissive techniques found in pack animals. It's slash but has all canon couples. You'll have to read it to find out how that works. :o) It will also include the same dominate/submissive tactics between Edward and Bella.

I'll add more chapters if I can come up with original ideas.

The Guard is a multi chapter effort. Bella is dead and the family must figure out a way to help Edward cope. This is not for the faint of heart. Edward's journey includes some violent vampire encounters and very depressing moments. This story is complete and I am considering writing a sequel that will be titled "Forgotten Memories". I will keep you posted.    


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Loner by Nilla Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 9908]

Edward Cullen was a loner, an outcast. He clearly hated everybody, including himself. He was not a nice person. So, why was I so drawn to him? And why did I get the crazy feeling he felt the same way?

WARNING: This story will deal with the aftermath of child abuse and rape. If that bothers you too much, I strongly recommend that you don’t read.



Banner by steffyxxface

Thanks to steffyxxface for the lovely banner!

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 115 Completed: Yes Word count: 365612
[Report This] Published: November 13, 2009 Updated: July 06, 2011

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: November 07, 2010 Title: Chapter 75: Chapter 75

Nice chapter.  I'm a sucker for any Carlisle - Edward interaction.



The beginnings of a most unusual family, as told by Edward Masen


Recommended by TheLazyYetDiscerningFicster and Twi-Fic Promotions, nominated in the Indie, Shimmer, Rare Gem and Vampie Awards, May 2009's Featured Fan Fiction on



Rated NC-17 for content that will include graphic violence, adult language and sexual content.

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Afton, Aro, Carlisle, Chelsea, Demetri, Edward, Edward Masen, Sr., Elizabeth Masen, Esme, Jane, Other Character, Santiago
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Completed: No Word count: 146905
[Report This] Published: January 08, 2010 Updated: January 19, 2012

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: January 11, 2011 Title: Chapter 18: Chapter 17 - There is No God, the Wicked Saith, pt. V

I just love this story and your version of Edward.  He's not so angry as some canon stories I've read.

Author's Response:

Thank you. :) I've always wondered why he seems so angry in fic.  Edward isn't a fundamentally angry person, in my opinion.

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: December 05, 2010 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 16 - There is No God, The Wicked Saith, Pt. IV

I'm still freaked out (several chapters later) over Fletcher being a carbon copy of Edward, worried that the Volturi are planning some weird switcharoo...but Fletcher isn't Edward and this chapter confirms that.  Carlisle will always be able to tell them apart.

Author's Response:


It tickles me to know that Fletcher's copy of Edward freaked you out.

Sorry for the (ridiculously) delayed response. Glad you're getting into this part of the story. :)

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: May 20, 2011 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 18 - Interlude

Because each of your chapters are substantial I don't miss the big gap between postings like I do with those punny 3000 word chapters. ;o)    

And thank God the Volturi are leaving.  I've been a little stressed that they would steal Edward away.


Author's Response:

Ah, c'mon. Like they could ever steal Edward away from Carlisle! ;)


Well, I'm glad you don't mind the space between updates, but I do. At this rate, MLY won't be finished before the world ends in 2012 (j/k). Thanks for the review!

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: May 21, 2011 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 19 - Interlude, Pt. II

I have to say that I really adore your version of both Edward and Carlisle. Normally Edward is so darn angry.  I also like to read the casual interaction between them which is probably why I adore this story.

I should mention that I own and breed German Shepherds so I was very bummed that the dog burned.  I suppose I'd be willing to sell Edward a dog if you want to go in that direction provided he doesn't turn him into a meal at some point down the road.  

Author's Response:

Thank you, and I must say I share your frustration when it comes to Edward. He's not an angry person by nature. When he's angry he's got real reasons.

*lol* I don't think Edward will be acquiring any pets, but if anyone is ever mean to your shepherds, let me know and I'll put the culprit on the list of people Edward will be paying special attention to during his time on his own.

I Wept Not by ArcadianMaggie Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 261]
Summary: Feature

Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? E/J Slash AU/M.

I Wept Not Banner

Nominated for Best Overall in The Vampies:
Winner of Best Slash and Best Non-Canon Pairing in The Vampies!

Best Slash

Nominated in 8 categories for the 2nd round of the Slash Awards:
WINNER of Best Vampire in the Slash Awards!

Rated M for language, sexuality, graphic violence.

Categories: AU Characters: Edward, Jasper
Series: None
Chapters: 25 Completed: Yes Word count: 165328
[Report This] Published: January 19, 2010 Updated: January 24, 2011

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: October 25, 2010 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 20: A Heaven of Blackred Roses

I love this story.  So sweet, so heartfelt and so well written.  I enjoy slash, but the biggest problem I have with it is it's always about the  Not that there is anything wrong with that, but it gets a little boring after a while.  Your story is so much more than that and I really like the turn of events, especially Edward remaining human and Carlisle and Esme coming in and filling the parental roles as vampires.  Can't wait for the next chapter.


Edward walked a knife's edge in Volterra.  What if things hadn't gone so well?  Love can survive when it is surrounded by monsters, but it does not survive unchanged.  Deviation 'fic, New Moon.

Categories: New Moon Characters: Alice, Aro, Bella, Caius, Carlisle, Demetri, Edward, Felix, Marcus, Renata
Series: None
Chapters: 19 Completed: No Word count: 81940
[Report This] Published: February 02, 2010 Updated: October 28, 2010

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: October 24, 2010 Title: Chapter 18: Ch. 17 Questioning

Great chapter!



Beautiful, terminally ill, Yolanda is abandoned by her partner to die in the woods near Forks, but is stumbled upon by Rosalie and Emmett while out hunting.  The kind-hearted Cullen family take this former journalist under their protection & care; see how she learns what they are and that there really are vampires in this world.  Her story plays out in a way she could never have imagined. 

What would you do if you discovered vampires truly existed?  What if you were offered immortality? What if a chance encounter brought you the love you had always dreamed of?

All your Cullen family favorites are very much involved in this story.  An Irish vampire comes calling to add a new twist to Cullen life. 

This story is mostly told from Yolanda's POV as a newcomer to the world of vampires.  Sometimes the story is told from the perspective of one of the others as they watch her adapt to her surroundings.

Story rated NC-17 for explicit lemony scenes, language and dark issues.
It has been migrated across from the FanFiction & TWCS sites, where you may know me as Cullenfest :D

“Is she even alive, Emmett? I can’t hear a heartbeat from here.”  Rosalie stood there, hands on hips, glaring at me like it was my fault we'd stumbled upon a body in the woods. She clicked her tongue impatiently.

We’d been out for a couple of hours hunting and making out gloriously and lustily in the bracken. When the day had started, bright and early, I’d never imagined it would take this turn of events.

Vampires don’t like surprises!

Categories: Breaking Dawn, AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jacob, Jasper, Leah, Nessie, Other Character, Renesmee, Rosalie, Seth
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Completed: No Word count: 109875
[Report This] Published: November 05, 2010 Updated: March 10, 2013

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: February 27, 2011 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9 - Hope Springs Eternal / Miracle

This is the second story I've read today that follows Breaking Dawn and I have to admit I usually avoid these stories like the plague, but you have done and excellent job and are a fabulous writer and I felt I needed to comment on your story even if it normally isn't my cup of tea.   Good job and I look forward to the next chapter.


After being sent to a children's crisis center, Edward has to embark on a journey within himself to figure out how to have the most important thing in life: happiness. Luckily, a familiar friend gets to take the journey with him. EPOV. BxE.

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Maggie, Marcus, Other Character, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 2 Completed: No Word count: 6537
[Report This] Published: December 05, 2010 Updated: January 21, 2011

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: January 21, 2011 Title: Chapter 2: Day Two Part One

Good job. Looking forward to the next chapter.

Morning by Carson Dyle Rated: R starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 167]

Morning finds Edward and Bella happy to live in each perfect moment. Surrounded by loving family and loyal allies. Their path to a bright future seems clear, but the darkest nights cast the longest shadows. What happens when the past refuses to die?

Categories: Post-Breaking Dawn Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Nessie, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 35 Completed: Yes Word count: 246835
[Report This] Published: January 23, 2011 Updated: October 27, 2011

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: March 14, 2011 Title: Chapter 4: Mystery

Your dialogue is very entertaining.  I only wish I could write it so well.  Another lovely chapter.

Author's Response:

It's weird, but I don't even feel I should take credit for most of the dialogue. I do the grunt work of pesky things like plot and description, but for the other, I wait for the characters to start chatting in my head. It takes longer and results in the story being written in random bits and pieces that I later have to rearrange to make some kind of sense, but it feels more authentic that way. There's a healthy recommendation for you - always listen to the voices in your head. LOL

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: March 06, 2011 Title: Chapter 3: Art and Music

Another wonderfully written chapter.  I love the day to day interaction between family members.

Author's Response:

Thanks, cjmuehlb. That's actually the way this story started. I kept imagining day-to-day conversations between all the characters I missed, began to jot them down and somewhere along the line an actual plot emerged. Writing's a funny and wondrous thing.

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: February 27, 2011 Title: Chapter 2: Hobbies

I'm was not a fan of Breaking Dawn so consequently I have no interest in sequels of it as a rule, but I will say you are a fabulous writer, so I'm going to give it a chance.  How's that for a reivew. LOL  Okay pretty bad I know, but I want to give kudos to talent when I see it.  

Author's Response:

On the contrary, a bad review would say "I'll read absolutely anything that has to do with my favorite book in the Twi series, Breaking Dawn - even something so horribly written that I have no idea what's going on!" Yours, on the other hand, was encouraging, so thanks! I do appreciate it.



Edward made a decision after that second biology lesson.  Two years later that decision is challenged.

Categories: AU, Twilight Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 8 Completed: No Word count: 77655
[Report This] Published: March 05, 2011 Updated: November 05, 2011

Reviewer: cjmuehlb Signed
Date: March 29, 2011 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Very sad and very sweet.

Author's Response:

Thank you.  It'll get sadder.  And sweeter :)


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