Abandoned by his parents, seven year old Edward is neglected and abused in his foster home and his only close friend, Bella, lives in Arizona for ten months out of the year.  It is only when the Cullens unexpectedly enter his life that he learns what it means to be loved and his wounded soul starts to heal.

When tragedy brings Bella to Forks for good, she comes hiding a secret too big to share, even with him.  Can these two tortured souls find happiness in a mad world of vampires and werewolves or are they already doomed by their own past?

WARNING: Strong language, underage drug and alcohol abuse, thoughts of suicide and suicide attempts, mental illness and child abuse.  Future lemons. Major angst.

All canon couples.

This is Edward's story.

Jasper, Peter and Charlotte live contentedly in Texas, but when they are forced to move to Arizona and inadvertantly rescue a human one night, they have to decide whether they'd rather keep or kill her before their lives become more difficult.

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Keep Me Forever won Best Whitlock in the Jasper Round of the Twilight Gem awards. thank you everyone who voted for me.

History is what defines us, personal and otherwise. To conquer it, one must decide not what they love more, but what's more important, and where one stood—with ALL things considered—could make all the difference.

AU-NM. All TwiCharacters. Nom'd "Best Shock Value" in the Avant Garde Awards, Polled in PTB's "Best Non-Canon Pairing Fic," Nom'd in the Sunflower Awards, featured in TwiFic Database's "Fic of the Week."

One year after the Cullens leave, Bella is thrown back into the vampire world in the least expected way and learns that Edward is not her mate. Pulled in different directions, with nothing being as it seems or what she thought, Bella will need to rediscover herself and where she stands. Yet, Bella is not the only one that has a past or emotions and circumstances that govern her. Unknown history is learned, especially by the Quileute. Secrets and betrayals are revealed, and by more than just a couple of the Cullens. Where love is found and bonds are broken, a war is brewing. And in the midst of another ancient war, what will be the most dangerous weakness? Love? Greed? Family? Old hate? Forgiveness? Will it be everything that makes you, you?

Bella wakes up the day after her fateful birthday party only to find Alice perched on her bed. Ever wonder if things might have turned out differently for Bella and Edward if Alice and Rosalie had interfered? "Seduce him, Bella!" Guided by Bella’s inner strength and determination, Edward must face both his human past and his vampiric future.  Where will his decisions take their relationship? New Moon with a twist.