"His agony defines him. His memories destroy him.

But his hope is what sustains him, feeds him, encourages him. It's his purpose. And he doesn't deny it.

Offered the chance to leave all pain and misery behind, Edward knew that it was better to suffer his loss than to forget it. For in having it, Bella remains his and only his.

To forget would be the ultimate betrayal, abandoning her once again to a world of lonliness and despair. He had already done that once upon a time, and he did so spectacularly.

He'll find her. He has to. 

HE HAS TO."

- icrodriguez (the most beautiful review I have ever received.  THANK YOU for allowing me the honour of displaying it here.  It sums up the tone of this story beautifully, hearts, Erin)

Left in the woods, an unfortunate run-in with Laurant and 45 years later - Bella finds herself facing everything she has ever wanted.  Does it want her back?  What will she discover about how Edward has been spending his time...

Rated for later chapters.

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It is amazing how quickly life can resume normalcy after a traumatic event.  It's not that the inhabitants of the scenario don't know they are rebounding, but the force of the universe pulls them back into its patterns without their consent.  Everything will not be the same, but the normal routine is enhanced, flavored by the bittersweet taste of change or loss in any form.

Bella told me she had once envisioned our lives as the complex pattern of a rug, the colors and textures intermingling, each individual but, when placed together, producing a beautiful creation.  If challenged, I would have most likely used a musical analogy.  I would have compared our lives to experiencing a musical performance by one of the masters. 

Beethoven...Bach...or if you wanted a little strife, Wagner.  Most at one time or another had performed their masterpieces within European chapels.  I could envision the rise and fall of the notes, as they would weave their spell.  The light in the building as it filtered through stained glass, creating a dizzying array of colors. The smell from beeswax candles permeating the room.  Modern musical halls lacked this perfect simplicity.  Yes...this would have been my analogy.

Little was I to know that Fate had much in store for me.  Before she was through with me, I would barely resemble the boy I'd been...

What happens to the Cullens after the Volturi left. Edward and Bella begin life together and face both heartbreak after their lives are irrevocably changed by losses of family and friends, and immeasurable joy as the events of their lives unfold. 

*INDEFINITE HIATUS*

All through high school, Bella was in love with her best friend who was in love with her, too.  Both never expressing their feelings and never knowing how the other felt.  In the end, Edward decided to go across the other side of the country leaving Bella with only one memory of him: his journal. Heart-broken and confused by it’s content, she casted it aside. Years later, Edward moves back home, but Bella wants to move on with her life.  Can they really stay away from each other, or will history repeat itself?

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Isabella Swan is the president and CEO of a major marketing firm in Washington. She’s worked long and hard to get there, and as a result, she’s a bit of a bitch. When her VP hires a fresh new manager, lured away from a competing firm, Bella expects perfection and more money. But this guy seems to think he’s the best thing since sliced bread, and Bella will not tolerate insubordination. It doesn’t matter how good he is. Two people used to being in charge and getting their way are bound to clash, and it’s a battle of wits. Who’s going to win?

Rated NC-17 for language and later lemons.

Now Complete!

Bella’s blood was just too tempting to be ignored.  In this version of Twilight, Edward takes Bella on a sadistic journey with his monstrous side.  While Edward drags her around the world, barely keeping a step ahead of his frantic family, Bella battles the monster for possession of the gentler vampire inside her captor.  EPOV.

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“There was no other blood like this.  Once she was gone, it would no longer be within my grasp.  But if I stopped now, she would heal.  Her body would make more.  The blood would replenish.  I could drink again.  The promise of more – it was the only incentive that could have caused me to stop.”

Edward Cullen is an anomaly as far as Bella Swan is concerned, defying all her preconceived notions about the whorishness of hockey players. Through incessant stalking and persistence, can Edward wears down Bella's resistence and teaches her to embrace her inner hockey hooker? A ridiculous love story.

Just when Bella is ready to give up on her dream, she gets accepted to the Cullen Ballet Academy. Will Edward be able to help her deal with her loss? Can she save him from his? E/B, Em/R, A/J, C/E

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Bella and Edward have loved each other practically their whole lives.  But once tragedy strikes, can they heal their relationship?

In All of Me, Bella chooses to be Edward's 24/7 consensual slave, serving his needs in a way that fulfills her own.  And while some days are hard, there are some that are very, very good.

When Edward's good friend Jasper comes to visit, he is surprised by their lifestyle, but undeniably intrigued.  And when he's invited to share in the fun, they all have an experience to remember.

This is an alternative reality smuttake from All of Me, set during Chapter 14.  It features a Jasper/Bella/Edward pairing.  No slash.

WARNING:  This story contains graphic language, graphic sexual situations and BDSM.  Please read with caution.

Bella is a 24/7 consensual slave, but some days are harder than others. When her big mouth gets her in trouble, Edward isn't inclined to go easy on her and he teaches her a lesson that she won't soon forget.

This is a oneshot set prior to the events in All of Me and will not make sense if you have not read at least a few chapters of that story.

This story contains strong BDSM themes, graphic language and graphic sexual depictions. It is meant for a mature audience (18 and older). Some of the content may be offensive to some readers. Please read with caution.