"Bella Swan had become beautiful to me. The pain of that realization stung worse than venom ever could." NOMINATED FOR AN ETERNITY AWARD: Edward's Twilight, but not Midnight Sun. AU detours/missing moments. The slow burn begins with the flight to Alaska.    

When Carlisle and Esme had enough of Edward's and Rosalie's bickering, they left the bickering kids on a deserted island while they went to Isle Esme. A whole month with nothing to do but keep from ripping each other apart. NC-17 for lemons.

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"What was I thinking? What was I doing? I knew what my next course of action would be, what it had to be, and it was horrifying. A tiny portion of sanity fought to stop me. But the rest of my mind was no longer in my control. A few more moments and I came upon a small tent with a smoldering fire out front, two adults sleeping inside. Nobody else was in sight or hearing.

It all happened very quickly. In less than a second I was the only one in the tent breathing. The tiny portion of sanity in the corner of my mind was nowhere near strong enough to stop me from quenching my thirst.

It wasn't until after I was finished – my scorching need faded but not completely satisfied – that I fully comprehended what I had done. Though I still didn't know who I was, I now knew what I was.

I felt sick at the thought."

Full Moon Rising follows Alice as her human life ends and her vampire life begins. Each chapter gives a new glimpse into her history, from her family life with her parents and sister, through the dark years at an insane asylum, to finally meeting Jasper and travelling with him to meet the Cullens.

Kept as canon and historically accurate as humanly possible. Rated R for sexual content, dark themes, and violence.

An except from Bella's diary, a hundred and fifty years after her death:

I can't remember my human life, but I remember the first day of my immortality. I remember it with perfect clarity, just as I remember every day that I have lived since. I remember the sights and smells that assaulted my vampiric senses as I opened my eyes to this brave new world. I remember his blood red eyes.

But I don't mean for this to be a story of my early years. I mean for this to be an explanation, a justification. Maybe if I write it all down, I can figure out where this went so terribly wrong. I didn't have a choice about my change. Fate had destined me to live out eternity among the undead. But I had been the one to love two men. I had been the one to break both their hearts and to destroy my own happiness. They couldn't live with what I had done, and neither could I. My family was gone...because of me.

How do you go on, knowing this?

A companion story to The Sun Refused to Shine.

Mary Alice Brandon awakens alone as a vampire. She is first taught by two nomads before her visions show her a way of life she would much prefer. Can she find the golden-eyed vampires of her visions on her own?

Excerpt:

"Who are they?" she whispered as the vision let her go. Her recovered present-awareness had her stiffening – the other vampires were now all but touching her. Oddly, she felt no threat. They could answer her questions, she was sure. "They have gold eyes. Two of them. The third has red. Like ours," she added, confused. "Gold? Golden eyes?"

Charlotte met Peter's eyes. "We've met one of us with golden eyes. About ten years ago. Have you seen him? Was he your sire?"

Peter held up a hand. "No way in hell Carlisle Cullen would turn someone. And if he did, he wouldn't let her go rogue."

Written for the Twilight Canon Tour, New Moon Round.

Edward left Bella in the forest and she went catatonic.  Her parents got her to therapy and her therapist has told her she has to "write out her pain" to process it. Reluctant at first, Bella gradually finds strength and confidence in her online anonymity.

Until she realizes that, having crossed a line, she wasn't so anonymous after all.

Excerpt:

Did Edward ever look that happy with me?  Or did my blood always cause him so much pain?  He said he’d always love me...in a way. But it must not have been that way...  

As Forks' police chief, Charlie was used to being in charge. While he loved having Bella with him, he'd experienced a rude shock when he realized that a father can't truly be “in charge” of his teenage daughter. During the ups and downs of Bella's relationship with Edward, Charlie understood for the first time the true meaning of impotence.

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If you faced losing everything…

Would you trade your mortality to keep just a part of what you have? Count the cost before you decide.

One year after BD and all is not well. Bella's newborn year was way too easy. The newest Cullens are much harder to handle-both of them. Jasper has a tough year ahead dealing with these two! Flashes of human memories add to the tension and mystery.   

Once the venom courses through your veins it’s too late to change your mind.

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Carlisle Cullen considers himself a doctor first and a vampire second. His focus is to protect life. What he finds at a fatal crash seen causes him to break the treaty his family has honored for over 80 years. The entire Cullen family will face the consequences of his last minute decision. Now the wolves are pissed and the Volturi are getting nervous.

Scott and Diane started out on a family vacation they would never finish.  After losing their lives and children through the fires of transformation, can they still hang on to each other?  Diane's human memories, once thought lost, are slowly breaking through in the strangest of ways.  Why does she recognize the vampire in one of Esme's treasured albums?  By the time the Cullens figure out what's going on, all they can do is prepare for the inevitable.

This is a story of love, loss, and picking up the pieces. Even for immortals time only moves forward. There really is no way back.

 Aug. 2011 Nominated in the best Angst/Drama Category

A Twilight fairy tale.

We always expected a happy ever after.  We always knew in New Moon that Edward would return.  We always thought that Bella was the strong one.

What if we were wrong?

This story will cover Edward's journey through the depth of darkness, a hundred years after the events of New Moon. Rated for sex, dark themes, depressing topics, and the like.

Happily ever after doesn't mean that everything is perfect.  It means that everything works out in the end.  We just need to have patience.

There's a dusty old bookstore in Seattle where the proprietor keeps odd hours and knows the location of every book in his stock.  What surprises hide in its stacks?

Post BD. What would happen if Jacob never imprinted on Nessie? And what would happen if, after Jasper's almost attack on Bella, his relationship with Alice was never same? With all the talk of singers and imprinting, they're missing the bigger picture. Danger is on the horizon.OC AU Jacob/OC/Jasper

Ten years after the events of Eclipse, Edward meets his true vampire mate; Bella is left desolate. Alice and Jasper take her in with them to help her through her heartbreak. Rated for mature relationship issues.

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Excerpt from Chapter Two:

"I love you," she protested, sounding hurt and small.

He stepped closer, one hand tentatively extended. "I love you, too. In, in a way."

After dragging one final breath into her lungs, Bella turned. "In a way?" Her arms were wrapped about her torso, her eyes wide and dark and frightened. "What does that mean?"

"It means that — that out of all the things I was afraid of, Bella, I never ever thought I would not be your mate when you changed. But when you awakened, got through the initial adjustments, I could read it in Jasper's mind. We did not share a vampire mate bond."