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Penname: cjmuehlb [Contact]
Real name: CJ Cullen
Status: Member
Member Since: May 28, 2010
Beta-reader: No

3/28/12 - just finished chemo and radation.  I plan on jumping back into my stories, focusing primarily on ROI.  I have the next chapter written, but it needs some heavy editing.  I promise to complete it before the birth of your grand children.  No worries if you want to stop reading until the story is complete.  I don't need the reviews in order to continue, but I always appreciate the ones I get.

I have only been reading fanfic since April of 2010 so I"m a serious newbie which is why I'm writing it now too. LOL   I'm particularly interested in the Carlisle-Edward dynamic so my stories will always contain a strong relationship between these two characters.  The only thing I can promise about my stories is they will always have some serious angst (well except for the smut stories).  I like angst...a lot of angst...angst for the sake of angst.  You get the idea. That said, it's unlikely that I will out and out kill off main characters at the end in some surprise twist.  I am not a huge fan of Bella; she's usually written too perfect for me and I don't see her as the bad girl so there isn't much I can do with her.  In other words, I probably won't be writing from Bella's POV anytime soon.

Carlisle is one of my favorites but unlike some, I find his possibilities are much more limited. Since I prefer canon type stories that are just a tad AU, it's hard to write Carlisle.  His history is pretty well documented and he will always eventually wind up at the same place.

So to summarize - ANGST - CARLISLE - EDWARD - CANONish   Nuff said.

Requiem of Insanity - This is my latest story.  This story is going to involve a human Edward and Bella, but the Cullens are all vampires. It will be full of angst and deal with some very heavy issues.  

Submit started out as a one shot that has turned into multiple one shots and describes Carlisle's attempts to control a coven of strong willed males using basic dominate/submissive techniques found in pack animals. It's slash but has all canon couples. You'll have to read it to find out how that works. :o) It will also include the same dominate/submissive tactics between Edward and Bella.

I'll add more chapters if I can come up with original ideas.

The Guard is a multi chapter effort. Bella is dead and the family must figure out a way to help Edward cope. This is not for the faint of heart. Edward's journey includes some violent vampire encounters and very depressing moments. This story is complete and I am considering writing a sequel that will be titled "Forgotten Memories". I will keep you posted.    


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Favorite Stories
Mistaken Trust by Lisa254 Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 1745]

When faced with a betrayal that could tear them apart, Edward and Bella must put their faith in the healing power of love. WARNING: this story deals with rape and its aftermath. 


Categories: Post-Eclipse, AU Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 38 Completed: No Word count: 173863
[Report This] Published: March 04, 2010 Updated: October 15, 2020


"It's you." In The Human Years sequel, Esme opens her eyes to a new life, and the man who has haunted her dreams for a decade. Follow her tale as she discovers herself, gains an unconventional family, and lives a love story that rivals the classics.     

Book Two begins the night Esme opens her new eyes in 1921 and will tell Esme's story until the Cullens arrive in Forks.

The Esme Chronicles: The Vampire Years

- The Sunflower Awards winter 2012, Best Esme
WINNER - Hopeless Romantic Awards, Best Esme
Indie Fic Pimp: Writer Submitted Fic of the Week: Review
Finalist - Avant Garde Awards, Best Esme
Nominated - Avant Garde Awards, Best Carlisle, Best Edward, Best Love Story, Best Canon Pairing
Nominated - Hopeless Romantic Awards, The HR Best Story Award, The Best Virginity Loss (Carlisle), Best Romance, Best Carlisle, Best Carlisle and Esme

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Alice, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 26 Completed: No Word count: 133959
[Report This] Published: March 08, 2010 Updated: February 21, 2014


Whatever is left of me

When Edward returns to Bella of his own accord, he does not realise that just a few hours earlier she nearly drowned in an attempt to hear his voice. He soon finds that the girl he came back to is indeed very much altered from the girl he left behind, and that it takes more than saying sorry to rebuild their lives.

Thanks to Annamorphos for providing the banner!

Categories: New Moon Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Completed: No Word count: 82053
[Report This] Published: February 04, 2011 Updated: April 05, 2013


Addictions are never easy to cope with and Bella is all too familiar with their destructive power as she struggles with the nightmares from her past. It isn't until the Cullens arrive in Forks that Bella realizes if she doesn't get out now, her addictions will stick with her for life.


Thank you to Maddux for the fantastic banner! It is genius and I love it! :)

Categories: AU Characters: Bella
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Completed: No Word count: 118539
[Report This] Published: February 24, 2010 Updated: January 23, 2013

Aberration by shoefreak37 Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 31]

Distortion, deviation, wandering. For centuries, Carlisle held fast to the plan he was sure had been laid out for him by a force much more divine than himself. After he takes Edward for a companion, the direction of his path becomes skewed.  


This gorgeous banner and blinkie were both made by ms_ambrosia.  She's amazing!


Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Carlisle, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 16 Completed: Yes Word count: 52622
[Report This] Published: July 27, 2010 Updated: November 09, 2012

Lost Cause by bonnysammy Rated: R starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 431]



Lost Cause Banner


A woman awakes in a forest. She is lost, alone and has practically no memory. Three members of the Cullen family find her and take her to their home. But everything is not as it appears, especially not with the girl.  How can the little she knows to be true actually be possible?  It could be said that anything is possible when thrown into a world of myth.


Follow along as she travels on her journey to find, forgive and move beyond her past, all the while finding herself and something she never knew she was looking for.


This is mostly an E/B story though other loved and not so loved characters will be involved.


Categories: Twilight, AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Rosalie
Series: Raison D'être
Chapters: 25 Completed: No Word count: 145399
[Report This] Published: September 10, 2009 Updated: May 01, 2012



The beginnings of a most unusual family, as told by Edward Masen


Recommended by TheLazyYetDiscerningFicster and Twi-Fic Promotions, nominated in the Indie, Shimmer, Rare Gem and Vampie Awards, May 2009's Featured Fan Fiction on



Rated NC-17 for content that will include graphic violence, adult language and sexual content.

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Afton, Aro, Carlisle, Chelsea, Demetri, Edward, Edward Masen, Sr., Elizabeth Masen, Esme, Jane, Other Character, Santiago
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Completed: No Word count: 146905
[Report This] Published: January 08, 2010 Updated: January 19, 2012

Victim by Tima83 Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 1091]

She once lived the life of luxury with her husband, James, until he becomes abusive. With the help of an unlikely friend, she fakes her own death, escapes James' abuse, becomes Bella Swan, and starts fresh in a new town. She meets a handsome young man named Edward who will help her heal, but will she ever fully get over the abuse she suffered? 

When James gets wind that his wife isn't dead, what lengths will he go to take back what he feels is his?

Rated for future lemons, some scenes of violence, and cursing.

(loosely based on Sleeping with the Enemy, but with large differences, and a Twilight twist)


 (thanks to CrimsonIceGoddess for the wicked new banner!!)

Categories: Twilight, AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Jacob, Renee
Series: None
Chapters: 31 Completed: No Word count: 167140
[Report This] Published: April 20, 2009 Updated: November 04, 2011

Summary: Feature


While hunting one afternoon, Emmett, Jasper and Carlisle stumble upon what appears to be a corpse.  When they learn it's a severely broken vampire, they take him home to do what they can to help.  But of course, fate has plans for this man.  Canon Couples.  AU.  DARK Themes.

Categories: AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 32 Completed: Yes Word count: 158872
[Report This] Published: February 26, 2009 Updated: October 31, 2011

Morning by Carson Dyle Rated: R starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 167]

Morning finds Edward and Bella happy to live in each perfect moment. Surrounded by loving family and loyal allies. Their path to a bright future seems clear, but the darkest nights cast the longest shadows. What happens when the past refuses to die?

Categories: Post-Breaking Dawn Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Charlie, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Nessie, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 35 Completed: Yes Word count: 246835
[Report This] Published: January 23, 2011 Updated: October 27, 2011

Solar Midnight by LaRosada Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 457]


One of the key events that creates the epic nature of the Edward/Bella love story is the moment that Bella’s scent first hits Edward, and Edward somehow resists.

But what if Edward’s self control had kicked in just a moment too late? What if his proximity to Bella once his conscience reawakened was just too much, and he couldn’t restrain himself. What if he bit her, and Bella had a new life forced on her, before she had any desire to live for an eternity?

Before she had experienced Forks High School, made friends, and re-connected with Jacob. Before she knew what Edward was. And most importantly, before they fell in love.

What would Twilight look like then?

This is the story of the seemingly insignificant moment that changed everything…

Categories: Twilight Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Completed: No Word count: 74511
[Report This] Published: December 17, 2009 Updated: October 16, 2011

Loner: The Beginning by Nilla Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 51]

Prequel to 'Loner'. Edward found his Bella and they got their happily ever after. But what happened before they met? How did the Cullens cope over the years with a new, broken family member? This story takes us back to the beginning.

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Completed: Yes Word count: 30050
[Report This] Published: July 28, 2011 Updated: October 03, 2011


Not everything makes sense to us at first, but sometimes, the paradoxes in life are exactly what we never knew we needed. When Jasper and Edward and thrown together, into a dorm room no less, who are they to deny the twisted logic of fate?

Life is about to get a whole hell of a lot more interesting.



Thanks to Blueskyshymoon-olgameisterfunk for the banner, and S.Meadows for the blinkie!

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Edward, Jasper
Series: None
Chapters: 30 Completed: No Word count: 179659
[Report This] Published: October 03, 2009 Updated: September 21, 2011


A dark angel visits Bella Swan in her dreams, filling her with lust and unparalleled pleasure, but what happens when the line between fantasy and reality starts to blur?  

Banner by @Miztrezboo


Categories: Twilight, AU Characters: Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 39 Completed: No Word count: 263309
[Report This] Published: August 22, 2010 Updated: August 16, 2011


Seeking absolute seclusion to heal from a shattering experience, Edward moves to a remote homestead in the Oregon wilderness.  After a chance meeting with his distant neighbor, he finds himself drawn to the quiet, melancholy young woman who lives in isolation, too.  Can these two broken individuals help each other to heal?   

Categories: AU Characters: Angela, Bella, Ben, Carlisle, Edward, Esme, Renee
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Completed: Yes Word count: 102835
[Report This] Published: April 01, 2011 Updated: July 25, 2011

Marked by Whitlock-Masen Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 325]
Summary: Feature

The banner for

Edward Masen is a self-sufficient, independently wealthy man with a PhD in Social Anthropology who spends his time exploring whatever catches his interest. When he meets a man named Jasper, he is shaken by the disappointment he feels when Jasper is apparently an impossibility.  Slash, OOC

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Edward, Jasper
Series: None
Chapters: 25 Completed: No Word count: 400482
[Report This] Published: October 24, 2009 Updated: April 30, 2011

Uncomfortable by Savannah-Vee Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 53]

Got 'Best Angst' mention in the 'Slash Backslash' contest!

"The way he looks at me makes me feel... uncomfortable."

Jasper's girlfriend's brother, Edward, keeps staring at him. Why? Who knows. Seems like even Edward is confused... Jasper/Edward SLASH, AH, very OOC.


Banner made by FrozenSoldier from!!

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Peter, Rosalie, Tanya
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Completed: No Word count: 41774
[Report This] Published: June 07, 2010 Updated: March 06, 2011

Nineteen Canvasses by Carson1 Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 996]

Bella thinks she finally has it all together after a life altering accident, but when she meets Edward, a once successful artist who has lost his inspiration, everything she thought she knew changes.  Rated NC-17 for a very good reason.

Many thanks to my amazing and talented beta xrxdanixrx for the wonderful banner!!!

Nineteen Canvasses Blinkie

Many thanks to the incredible MizzezPattinson for the amazing new blinkie!


Categories: AU-Human Characters: Alice, Bella, Edward, Emmett, Jacob, Jasper, Lauren, Mike, Phil, Renee, Rosalie
Series: Always Human
Chapters: 33 Completed: Yes Word count: 148145
[Report This] Published: February 26, 2010 Updated: November 23, 2010


Edward walked a knife's edge in Volterra.  What if things hadn't gone so well?  Love can survive when it is surrounded by monsters, but it does not survive unchanged.  Deviation 'fic, New Moon.

Categories: New Moon Characters: Alice, Aro, Bella, Caius, Carlisle, Demetri, Edward, Felix, Marcus, Renata
Series: None
Chapters: 19 Completed: No Word count: 81940
[Report This] Published: February 02, 2010 Updated: October 28, 2010



vote here. Thank you for all of your support!!

What was Edward like before he was a vampire? What was his family like? What type of things did they worry about? Answers to these questions and more plagued me when reading the Twilight saga. I wanted to know so much more about Edward. I began this story, hoping to get a glimpse into his human life and it has blossomed. I plan to take the story through Edward's change and deal with many topics of interest, such as: What was Edward's life like in the newborn phase? How did Carlisle handle "raising" a newborn for the first time? What was it like for Edward learning that he could read minds? And, of course, what was his life like when he left Carlisle to become a vigilante? These questions are so important to discovering how Edward became the vampire that Bella fell in love with. Story to be told almost entirely from Edward's point of view, with perhaps some added insight from Carlisle.

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 32 Completed: Yes Word count: 158757
[Report This] Published: January 27, 2010 Updated: October 08, 2010

Ambiguous Destiny by sparagus_ Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 7]

Jasper, young and rising author, has his ideal world turned upside down by the brooding and antisocial Edward. Edward, a miserable artist, has a past of secrets and pain. Can Jasper break down his walls? Will he want to? Eventual J/E Slash. Rated NC-17.

Categories: AU-Human Characters: Edward, Jasper
Series: None
Chapters: 2 Completed: No Word count: 9839
[Report This] Published: May 20, 2010 Updated: July 07, 2010



A chance encounter leads to an odd attraction that develops into an addiction.

 There are so many things about this woman that fascinate me.  She's beautiful.  Classically beautiful at that.  Intelligent.  Articulate.  Witty.  She's everything any man could ever dream of or want.  Except I don't even know her name.

Warnings:  Lemons.  Lots of lemons.  Actually, more like Mike's Hard Lemonade.  Mild D/s.



Categories: Other Characters: Robert Pattinson
Series: The Anonymous Series
Chapters: 10 Completed: No Word count: 44658
[Report This] Published: March 18, 2009 Updated: June 10, 2010


It's 1919, and Tanya sees Carlisle and his newborn vampire walking across the snowy winter landscape towards her house.  Nothing will ever be the same for her or for Carlisle again.  See Edward as a newborn, a rebellious killer, as his family grows, and as he grows into the vampire we know and love him as today.

Categories: Pre-Twilight Characters: Carlisle, Carmen, Edward, Eleazar, Emmett, Esme, Irina, Kate, Rosalie, Tanya
Series: None
Chapters: 19 Completed: No Word count: 83456
[Report This] Published: January 17, 2010 Updated: June 05, 2010


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