I spent the whole story expecting it was hysterical brain vomit from a crazy Edward, silently living in his mind while the sane Cullens surround him in concern. Not so. I also spent a lot of time trying to figure out who was being discussed--awful lot of pronouns.

I have often wondered why Meyer's vampires whine about how hard it is to die. Jump in a volcano, set off a nuke.  Choosing when you've had enough (versus waiting for chance to take you) seems like a nice option. 

Ummm...I guess I don't understand. Are they finally together to DIE together? Beautifully written, but VERY confusing. I'll read others' comments and hope they will cast some light. Thanks for writing it!

Author's notes were right.  I can't read to the end.  I hate it.  Sorry.  Its too far from the story I love.

Whoa.

Whoawhoawhoawhoawhoa.

Wait just a damn fucking second, m'dear.

I think I get it. I totally get it, and I'm feeling it, like... cold water, below zero.  Or Listerine, sucking at my skin.  Piquant mint.  Crawling up my feet, mostly my thighs, and then it's just begging to get to my abdomen but it can't even shiver it's way up I'm so frozen.  Exquisite torture?

I can't even fucking describe it.

I just wanna scream curse words and revel in this little artificial epiphany.

It sounds like I'm... writing.  Like something I'd put in a fic, but it's literally how I... feel.

They're going to die.  In each other's arms?

She was waiting.  It was staring me right in the face - they're going to follow Emmett and Rosalie?

I'm wondering what the hell's going through your mind, and wishing I could meld it into my brain tissue.  I'm contemplating stealing this from you and taking credit - but I'd never do that, because there's no way in fucking hell I could pass this off as mine, it's genius.

I wanna squeeze the hell out of you and jump up and down and scream in your face that you're making me feel things that shouldn't be induced by letters on a screen, at one in the morning, by fictional characters, but at the same time I want to thank you.

A convoluted happy ending.  But, I guess... it is the ending to be expected.  SM didn't really look too far into forever, did she?

Not without him... God damn.

what can i say, mm totaly fucked up story i cant seem to get my head around the idea that bella would go insane, or that rose and em would ask to be killed, if these are your thoughts you have one strange though process

i didn't understand much... ok... i didn't understand ANYTHING!!! am i dumb??? is it too much if i ask you ti explain it to me?

OH...

ah, i don't what to say, ahhh

i think this story is gonna haunt for a VERY long time, and maybe i'll dream about it tonight too, lol

*thumbs up* you're awesome!

God, you have a telent. About the story itself, you're right, I have nothing to say.

jesus.

 

this is everything i love about AU fics - fearless what-ifs, taking away the romance and tripe SM tried to feed us, and looking at her canon with clearer eyes, following it through logically, and letting it take us where it will, seeing it through, telling a story the rest of us might have been afraid to admit could exist had she dared to go there.

yes - wrenching, and sad, and unavoidable and cruel, and tragically merciful, in the end.  but then again, isn't life?

thank you for sharing.

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W.O.W

 

 

Speechless. I don't know what to say. It was dark, it was creepy as hell, and fucking brilliant! That was unbelievable.

Found this through the random fic box on the Home page and was curious after reading your author's note.  

Naturally.

So I read to the end...and was unsurprised that he had abandoned everything, in essence, to find her.  Okay, his willingness to abandon Renesmee was more than anticipated but...

And there...at the end...I finally get it. I am, perhaps, slow.  Bella is not insane, but really really sane.  And seeking one thing that is beyond her.

So of course he'll give it to her.

I understand and agree and wonder how he will fare, now?

 

 

I loved that story.

 

It actually made me happy.

 

A proper conclusion, no living forever and ever in eternal bliss. Bella wasn't really insane, I find a lot of sanity in what she did and think. I especially loved the epiphany Edward came to when he realized what she meant when she said she was waiting for him and existing. She was waiting for him to depart with her, just as Emmett and Rosalie wanted.

 

Beautiful story, and to me is a great happy ending.

Wow. Great writing. And I agree with you - very romantic! I also enjoyed getting a different feel of their vampiric ways.