: Ok, I have no idea if I sent this the other day, I was in such a rush of emotions that and rush to submit it before leaving for work that i didnt check if I actually posted it and ONLY just checked my computer and had this page up still, anyway sorry if this is repeated. But congrads on an amazing chapter. Lets hope this works this time. Or if Im just repeating myself...  :/

Oh my gosh,

this would have to be the most touching and heartfelt chapters, story I have come across. I wrote a review to you last chapter and expressed how much I love your story. This time however, I need to express my devotion to it.

There were clear signs that she was pregnant, and you made me feel so happy and excited that she could have been, but your AUs note abot how realistic you want it to be hit me. And its true, they have been together for a short time but you made me feel like its been two years not two months.

Your writting technique is amazing. Comepltely astounding. Seriously, I have never felt so connected to a fictional character before. You have this pure talent and kudos to you :)

You were right how this hits close to home for alot of people, I myself am only nineteen, and I love and adore children, even became a child care worker because of that passion. But I do have a certain condition were when the time is right for me, I will struggle to conceive children and carry them full term. That pain and hurt that I went through when I leanrt this, came rushing back when I read your this chapter. Of course, this isnt something people would braodcast, but you have this sense of real reality and I just wanted you to know that I may be young, but you had me absoloutley pulled and captivted. You had me go through my own emotins and Jen's.

Again, you're an amazing writter and should be VERY pleased with how great you really are and never doubt yourself with the story YOU have created. Well done indeed. Meagan.

Author's Response:

hi Meagan,

thanks so much my dear.i am so glad you were touched by this chapter, it was important to me to offer a view of life for those that may not really understand what it could be like. 

And it is too soon for them to be thinking family, but this event will help them to think more clearly about what their relationship really is.It will strengthen them. 

It means so much to me to hear readers connect with Jen. She is every one of us in a way (if only for so many reasons) but to have people associate with her heart and emotions, it makes me feel really good. 

sigh... i am overwhelmed by the reviews, I'm at a loss of coherent words really, so forgive me if this response sounds choppy or scattered.... it's been a wild few days...

thank you, so much for your story and for your wonderful words. They give me inspiration and strength to keep on writing!

more soon.

MWAH!

steph

Wow Steph...you had me feeling all kinds of emotions in this chapter. I had to hold back the tears and sobs, as my youngest son and his friends are in side and playing as I read this. I will say that I must agree with Jen, that Rob not know about her just yet. Yes, Rob would walk of the set and give everything up to be with her. I just don't agree with her that he would later in life blame her for his losses. Rob doesn't see it like that. Even though I agree with Jen; she needs to tell our "boy" everything. I'm thankful that you had Nick get in touch with the Patty clan as Jen is in need of some major support, and mum is just the perfect support...as our Rob would be a mess.

Yes, Rob is young...how will he digest this info?

I'm trying to calm myself down for Rob's sake by having a glass of Jackson Triggs Ice wine...so smooth.

Hang in there RobJen we love you.

Thank you for taking care of your characters Steph, because we care a whole darn bunches for them!

Luv ya!

Liz

PS I loved Eclipse

 

Author's Response:

thanks Liz.

Rob will be upset, maybe even angry at her for deciding where he should be rather than where he needs to be, but you are right, he would never blame her for the loss. but she needs to come clean and soon, it will only cause heartbreak...

oh my dear Nick... he and i have been walking down this road to be redeemed for a LOOONG time... i hope everyone sees he is hoping to make amends, not to be forgiven necessarily for what he did... but to be given the chance to make things right.

oh poor Rob... how will he digest?

thank you so much liz, Robjen are near and dear to me, and so much so for you all as well..thank you for that.

love you more!

PS I loved Eclipse too... my how he has grown!

MWAH!

steph

Stef, this chapter broke my heart.  It has taken an hour to respond. What heartbreak for Jen. The loss. twice. Rob will be devastated. Moreso, because he couldn't be there for her.  Her feelings of loss this time is intensified because of selfimposed guilt. Her denying him the right to be there for her is an example of putting others needs before hers.  I weep for them both. She needs warm arms and a compassionate mother figure. Thank you Nick.

I hope Clare demands the full story. And that she gets Rob. THey have all lost something precious and will need each other to heal.

This chapter was masterfully done. The hallucinations, the subconscious screaming to be heard. The present and the past colliding into a huge nightmare.  Reality certainly came crashing down.  Love your characters. Love the realities.  I am in mourning for the baby that never will know two special people. I am in mourning for Jen and Rob. When GOd steps in there is always a reason. I trust your ability to help them weather  this .

Linda

Author's Response:

thank you Linda,

this will be a difficult struggle for them. so much pain and hurt and need for one another. She needs him more than ever... it will be a difficult discussion, but one that must be made...

Clare will be the mum she needs, has always needed. we'll see where Rob falls into that...

there is always a reason, and hopefully "Mike" is right... she will have another chance.

I am so overwhelmed by the love that has been laid out in so many reviews. it is overwhelming. Forgive me if this seems short. it is just so much... and i love you so much. thank you for trusting me on this path. 

I'll get them through it. 

thanks Linda. your reviews always inspire me, this time i needed kleenex. 

more soon, always.

MWAH

steph

you did such a beautiful job with this chapter!!!  I LOVED what you did and agree completely.  You are the queen

Author's Response:

thanks so much my dear... so glad you liked it. 

*blushes* aww shucks.. you are too much... i just love to give you my heart... 

thank you so much for all your support in reading and reviewing this little story. it means the world to me...

MWAH!

steph

Poor Jen but she has to get out of the mindset that it's her fault she lost the baby.. get Mrs P.. brilliant idea !

Author's Response:

thank you so much fay. she does... and it will take some time.. she has to work thru so much. 

ahhh. Clare... that Nick isn't such a jerk, is he? hahaha well he is still, but maybe he has a soul after all...

thanks so much my dear.

mwah!

steph

Thank you for this chapter, as you said at the end of your chapter, I really didn't want this to be a 'oh suddenly she's pregnant - it's a miracle' kind of story.  I didn't think you would do that, and I'm so glad you went this way.

I also love that you're writing this from boy Jen and Robs POV and eventually I'll get to hear Robs thoughts on learning what Jen went through in this Chapter. 

I never ever comment, but I had to after this one. 

THANK YOU

Author's Response:

thank you so much silentred.

i am so glad you understand the path we are going. it was a hard thing to post. and to have you come out to comment, I am so grateful and overwhelmed by the love and support from all of you. 

i will be honest, i am terrified of writing this sequence in Rob's POV... it is going to be really tough. i still am trying to decide if i want to wait to do it, or do it while i am still so overwhelmed by the responses... we'll see i guess!

thank you, for reading, for supporting this little story that has grown so much because of the love the readers have expressed. thank you. 

more soon!

MWAH!

steph

You won't get any angry responses from me about this chapter. I just wish she wasn't so thick headed about not calling Rob and letting him know what is going on, however, having Nick call Clare was genious! If anyone can help Jen it surely is Clare because she loves Jen and the feeling is mutual, plus, she knows her son better than anyone else and that is what Jen needs right now.Not to mention that fact that she needs some mothering after what she has gone through with the miscarriage and also having said her goodbye to Mike. It's all too much for her to take on by herself. She needs to know that.

Nick just may have redeemed himself just a little, I hope, by making this decision to call Clare instead of Rob. We'll see. Can't wait for the next update!

Author's Response:

thanks so much my dear... she is pretty thick.. we'll see how she copes without him there, and how she tells him.

Ah Nick... we have been planning this for sooo long... i am so happy to finally see words like redeem and Nick in the same sentence! hahaha

Clare will be an important key to Jen's recovery. she definitely needs family, and Clare will be the mum she never had.

thanks so much my dear. your support has been truly meaningful for me. thank you for all your support.

more soon,promise!

MWAH!

steph

omfg, plot twist. i knew she was pregnant, but i was sooo not calling this :-/

Author's Response:

thanks hun, I hope you liked it (i know, its really not the right word is it?)

thank you so much for all your support. 

more soon!

MWAH!

Steph

Wow.  I am amazed.  You dealt with a lot of difficult topics in this chapter and you handled each and every one of them with tact, sensitivity and grace.  I think any woman who had faced any of these issues would agree.  I know I do.  My husband and I went thru fertility treatments for over 5 years.  We endured 2 miscarriages during that time as well.  It is an incredibly difficult and lonely road to travel.  To say that it is difficult on a relationship is putting it mildly.  I have never felt more alone than i did during that time.  But you were so right about there being more than one way to have a family.  My husband and I adopted a beautiful baby boy when he was only 5 DAYS old.  And all of the  difficulties and lonlieness were so worth it and also disappeared the moment my son was placed in my arms for the first time.  At that moment I became a mom and we became a family.

Now I know Jen and your Rob are "fictional" but at the same time they represent so much more.  All of our own hopes and dreams and desires and fears and insecurities----you have captured all of that in your characters.  I am thrilled at how real these two characters have become for me and for so many others.  And I know that the road that this chapter set in place is a difficult one to travel.  I've been down it.  But I can't wait to see how Rob and Jen grow through this struggle. I am sure there will be some bumps along the way but I know that this will also make them stronger and bring them closer together. 

Thank you so much for this chapter.  I cried a lot through it.  I had to relive a lot of my own pain but I'm a survivor and Jen is too. 

 

Author's Response:

i am so overwhelmed. I keep using that word, but i don't know a better one.

thank you so much. this chapter was the most difficult to post. i had such doubts and fears about it. that those that had been down this road would be appalled, would be angry. That i would not come anywhere close to conveying what i know is such a delicate subject. I was warned that this might be received poorly. 

and yet. i read such wonderful reviews such as yours. I almost didn't go this route... because of readers that have had to live through this. It means SO much to me to know that it touched you. i have been so overwhelmed by the outpouring of hearts, and emotions and personal stories. it makes this so much more meaningful. thank you.for sharing your story and allowing me the chance to know it. 

Jen is all of us. to give her that magical baby would diminish what so many of you have experienced. Which is ultimately why i stayed true to this road, regardless of the fears i had. these two have become so much more than characters for so many, that makes me so proud and humbled at the same time- is that possible? it is such a great compliment, thank you. they mean a lot to me. 

RobJen's road will be rough. i hope i represent the recover true to the situation...that is the next hurdle... but they will get through it, and will be stronger for it. Jen is a survivor. she needs help, but she will see it through. as will Rob...

thank you so much. I am sorry you had to experience the hurt. but i am so happy to hear you will stick with us. i am so grateful for all of you, you don't even know.

thank you so much.

love you

steph

I can live with the hurt knowing that there is a happy ending to come.  I agree that you can't make a topic like this fluffy and magical, that would be wrong on so many levels.  If your story can help just one couple that are struggling to become parents then it is a job well done.  Back to Jen though, she needs to let Rob in and they need to deal with the loss together, hopefully his mum will be able to help like only a mum can....  I'm looking forward to the next chapter, oh, by the way, I love OTT as well.

Author's Response:

thank you so much my dear... 

Jen is definitely in need of family. Clare will be a good beginning, but she needs to get Rob there, or get home as soon as possible, i def agree... we'll have to see...

so glad you are enjoying the stories. that means so much to me!

thanks!

MWAH!

steph

Wow.  I thought Jen was pregnant.  Sadly, Miscarriages happen.  Even though I have never had to go through it, I have a family member who has.  It is heart wrenching.  I hope that the readers who have gone through it will give you some good solid insight into what Jen will be facing.  I also hope that there won't be anger for this turning point in the story.  This may well show us what Rob and Jen are made of and if their love will survive.  Since you mentioned a HEA in your a/n I look forward to the rest of this beautiful story. 

Author's Response:

thank you so much my dear. 

this was a very difficult chapter to post, knowing how everyone felt... it will definitely be something that will pull RobJen closer. as they work through the pain. 

I have been overwhelmed this week by the support and love and personal accounts this chapter has brought forth from so many. it has been heartwrenching and inspiring... 

and absolutely... an HEA in their future... i love them too much....

thank you so much for all your support my dear...

more soon.

MWAH!

steph

I.LOVED.IT!!!!

For those of us who have struggled conceiving or know people who have, this is the fair outcome for Jen. 

You treated the topic fairly and I applaud your courage to bring it up in the first place. Can't wait for future chapters!

 

Author's Response:

thank you so much my dear. 

i was truly worried about this chapter, for so long as the excitement of her apparent pregnancy built amongst the readers... It has always been my intent for Jen to be a representative of so many. I am so relieved to see so many heartfelt responses, and can only hope that I do them justice.

thank you so much. I will update as soon as i can. 

MWAH!

steph