Oh no, what is Edward doing?  Of course, it was inevitable that something like this would happen, that his self-destructive tendancies would force their way to the surface and that he would end up pushing her away before she could be the one to leave him.  He has two options right now - that's to start drinking and taking drugs again, or to seek help through therapy ... and I have a pretty good idea what he'll do first, regrettably.  Poor Edward; he thinks he doesn't deserve Bella or anything good to happen to him, so he becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.  Can he pull himself back from the brink?

Oh you beast! What a way to leave us hanging! Gah!! Is  he doing this for her sake?  I'm so afraid he's going to be so broken by it that he'll slide back into his addiction. God I hope that doesn't happen. And my God your such a great writer. I love this story, even through all of his pain, I love this Edward so much and hope he doesn't do a downward spiral. He's been doing so well, until he's faced witht he fact that she really is leaving him soon. Hurry with another update please. I'm dead.

OMG heartbreaking!  Please update soon!

Wow, that was amazingly well done. The scene with Jasper and then everything leading up to the break up in Edward's apartment. You take us right into his head and it seems so real. I really care about your characters and I don't want him to use again. He's so vulnerable and sad and now so alone. I hope Bella tells Jasper what has happened, though that's probably not her style. Please don't leave us hanging for too long! Ack!

nnnnnnnoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

Gah Edward! Why. I mean I do understand why. It's fear...but frustrating none-the-less

Talula, I don't know how you do it...

His thoughts, ugh...killing me...he's so heart broken, I can feel it.

Great chapter...love!

xoxoxoxoxo

noooooooo

  This is such an awesome chapter in so many ways.  I really liked their conversation about a higher power, because it comes very close to what I think about what I like to term the "Divine Mystery".  It makes sense to me that whatever animates us continues on after our body dies, but probably nothing like what we imagine. 

  This conversation leads into the beginning of the end for them, though. He's already getting antsy about talking to her about his past, and starting to think he's not good for her. He believes he can never make up for the things he's done.

  In many ways, I think she was starting to be his "drug".  His says his need for her is "insatiable", but at the same time he's terrified he will lose her.  It all comes bearing down on him, and before you know it he ends their relationship almost against his will. It's as if something has taken over, and he can't stop it.  It's like when he tells Jasper he didn't want to go to the meeting and his says the words catapulted out of his mouth.  It's such an incredible metatphor.

  Their converstion at the end is so heartbreaking, all the words and feelings ring to true. So, now he must deal with losing his "drug", and of course there's the concern that he will turn back to the real drugs.

 

 

 

this chapter was heartbreaking; it made me sad; i'm interested in seeing what happens to edward in the next chapter. its not looking good me thinks.
amazing chapter though; i mean it was amazingly well writen, you have a real talent for describing how you characters feel. as a reader you can really feel it. its very raw emotion.


thanks for the speedy update by the way!

I love this story, sorry I don't write enough reviews.... I'm reading a lot of angst at the moment but, I'm sticking with this story because it is so well written and I don't even know whether they are going to have a HEA, life is a tough journey. Waiting anxiously for next chapter. Well done. B xx

edward is being a baby he needs to man up and talk to bella and tell her how he feels

 

what the hell is wrong with E?!?

im so confused right now :(