Okay so I knew this chapter was going to be upsetting but damn! I am so pissed off!  I understand he had to get that off his chest.... I even understand him leaving, but geez I can't believe he left her like that. Can't believe she didn't get a chance to speak for herself. She really drug him through it, but is he just trying to send her over the edge and instigate another attempt at killing herself??? Because (and I know she is your character and a fictional character none the less) If she really is the way she is portrayed....that is likely the first thing she would turn to after this! I can't believe he didn't listen to her when she pleaded with him. Man....

Whoooo.... *exhales* now that is out of the way. I really do wanna see the next chapter :) Can't wait! See ya on the thread!!!

Author's Response:

Okay, that was some rant you left me here but I'm going to give you a sweet reply and try to explain things. I know that you fear that she is going to kill herself again, especially after her confession to Edward the previous day, that she is still hearing voices every day. But there are some little changes in Bella's personality in these past chapters. She isn't running away although she wants to, she wants to be a better person that truely deserves Edward and she wants to be that woman for his, really. But she cannot do it alone and Edward isn't going to crawl back. he has to think about himself because he cannot do it anymore. The last week has been too much for him and this was the final thing that snapped in him. I know the timing wasn't perfect, hello?!, but it will never be perfect. So we will see how bella reacts and what she will do, but trying to kill herself is not an option for her anymore because she has a sweet person (Edward) that is worth fighting for. I hope that makes sense! i'm going to post that preview tomorrow!

Oh, my heart weeps for Edward and Bella!  I am so glad he finally told Bella what he was feeling.  This was an intense chapter.  I loved it!  I was a little worried that the miscarriage was going to be a cop out, like SM having Jacob imprint on Nessie.  It turned out to be a real stepping stone, instead.  Great Job!  I can hardly wait for more.

Author's Response:

It was a very tough chapter to write for me as well, especially when you are trying to have a baby yourself like me. The miscarriage was indeed a stepping stone -I couldn't have said it better- and we will see that from now on, Bella will start to work on herself. I hope to update soon, but next week is VERY busy for me. Maybe no update next week...

Heck yeah we want a preview for next chapter...  this one killed me. Bella must feel she has lost everything.... poor girl.  I will hop over on forum later to let you know we want a teaser.

Update reall soon!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response:

You like a preview? Well, you'll get that tomorrow, promise. I'm sorry that I killed you with this chapter, it was a tough one to write as well. She feels terribly lost indeed, terribly lost and she will need a good friend to pull her out of the quicksand. That female friend will make an appearance in the next chapter. About the update: I have a very busy week and don't know when/if I'll be able to update next week... sorry!

THis was a very sweet and emotional story, very well done to you.Can not wait for more!!!!!

Author's Response:

Thank you very much shelly551, means a lot to me!

nice chapter, even with the sadness.  Edward did need to stand up for himself and Bella needs to get stuff sorted out.

Author's Response:

Thank you for agreeing with me, and I definitely agree with you about Edward. More ... soon I hope!

hey omg im like on the verge of tears your writing is soooo good i like never cry =] this chapter is really really good even though it is like sooooo sad =]

Author's Response:

*gives you a handkerchief* Oh girl, I hope you are still with me for the next chapter. Don't cry, I'm going to make it better soon!

Did you have to make it so sad. I was so hoping that this would be a happier chapter. Now I'm just depressed. :( I hope you update soon with something cheerier. It was well written though!

Author's Response:

I'm sorry... but sadness can be powerful I think... Happiness is coming, I promise you stick with me a little longer. I promise you that everything will be cheesy and even more cheesy in a few more chapters!

BLAH!  (thud, falls flat on face)  Um, I was so not expecting that!  In a way, although it needed to happen, it was cruel for Edward to do this now.  She lost Grace, the baby, just found out about jake and lost him and now Edward to boot!  When she needed him most, he left.  She was there for him when he was in need and when she needed him...true that she needed him a lot, but this was like him loosing Grace.  A teaser would be nice, but the whole chapter even better.  More please... And havng excess bleeding and loosing the baby is exactly what I went through... i had to be hospitalized though.. I lost a lot of blood.

Author's Response:

Hi Autumnmissa, *tries to catch yo ubefore you fall with your face flat on the ground* You still need your face baby.I'm sorry to hear that you lost your baby and needed to be hospitalized as well. I wrote this chapter a few weeks after my sister in law lost her baby so I was very close to her and tried to support her as much as possible, but I think it's very touch when something like this happens to you. I know that Edward's timing was horrible, but there would never be a better or perfect timing. And Edward was so so tired and it was the last droplet in the bucket he needed to burst... does that make sense? I think if she hadn't told his brother first and if she had invited him inside afterwards, he wouldn't told her how he felt. But he was blocked out again and he hates that. Anyway, thanks for reading and I'll post a teaser tomorrow!

13 more chapters huh?? Cool, I'm looking forward to reading more :) And, well, I guess I'm kind of glad she doesn't have to be tied to Jacob in any way now. Even though it's heartbreaking to lose a baby.
Hope you can post again really soon!!
-Lauren

Author's Response:

Yep, 13 more chapters and the last ten will be cheesiness all the way until you're sick of it :) But I guess you all deserve that after all the things I've put your through. I hope to post soon but next week will be terribly hectic and I doubt if I have time to post something :(

It's so nice to see the events from Bella's POV as well. It made me giggle that whilst fainting she still managed to think "oh god how embarassing" :P

I love how unassuming Edward is. It is endearing. Doesn't every girl want a guy like that? Sweet, modest, hot? lol. Poor thing is head over heels in love with that girl, and she is taken. It can be really hard to be "just friends" when you love someone deeply and that love is (at least to your knowledge) unrequited. Then again it's like that song:

Unrequited love's a bore
And I've got it pretty bad
But for someone you adore
It's a pleasure to be sad.

Goodness I am only at chapter five! I still have a long way to go, too bad I can't just... bunker myself in and read all day. Although, I must say...this is a great reward system lol. Whenever I take a little break this is the perfect little snack with my cuppa. :)

Eva

PS. I keep forgetting to give you stars lol. Hereby I'm sending you a couple.

Author's Response:

Hi Eva,

As you can see, I'm catching up with all the unanswered reviews that are still waiting for me here and on ff.net. 'Only' 57 reviews to go... I'm so hopelessly behind! Anyway, I hope your nose is still on the right place where it should be and that you aren't running out of toiletpaper, because that would be terrible! Doing better I hope *crosses fingers*

I think all my readers want a Collide-Edward, hell, I would give all my saving to have my own personal Edward! Too bad that he isn't for sale on eBay, right? That would be such a fangirlclash! :) The lyrics of that song fit the situation perfectly, really. I feel for Edward, poor guy. My boyfriend/partner and I went through something similar in the beginning, I was the Bella and he Edward... he fought for me and I'm grateful. After 6.5 years, we are still together and it feels f****** good!

Take your time to catch up with my fic, it isn't planning an outbrake or something like that LOL. Take care and thanks for the stars hun! *hugs you*

Awwww man... I mean I know it's Jacob's baby and all...and this is what I was thinking as well.....but I still feel bad in a maternal sort of womanly way :( Poor poor Bella. This is going to be hard for her.

This is a bit of a cliffhanger though! I'm not mad though :) I like this story a lot. Very well done *applauds* I'm on to the thread now to spread more good cheer about the story!

Again *sighs* so so sad.

Author's Response:

Oh I understand that you feel bad in a womanly way, I think we all felt that way -at least the adults under us-. I felt that way while writing it dear!

And thanks for visiting the thread as well, I like that *hugs you tight* Going to send you a message right now as well, so keep an eye on your inbox!

I'm not incredibly angry because I have something to read still. If this was the chapter I ended on...waiting for an update I would have died *tears* I feel so terrible for them both....But....I don't think that you meant to write anything but a happy ending...So let me go see :) *winks*

Author's Response:

Sorry for the extremely late reply but now that I appreciate every word of feedback! Thanks!

That's the advantage of catching up, you never have to wait to read the next chapter because it's already there :) And there is a happy ending coming indeed!

Oh my gosh so I totally listened to the song without any prompting and I cried....It was so so emotional...And just imagining him playing at a piano and playing for her...after the story about his parents. It was amazing. I'm too excited to write much more though.

Author's Response:

*pads your back* This was a very emotional chapter (like others of this fic) and the fact that I moved you to tears, means I did a good job... Thanks for catching up and sticking with me hun *hugs*