Is she leaving?!  She needs to talk to Edward!!!

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Check out the preview :)

If she goes to Africa, she's essentially ending any possibility of a relationship with Edward.  He won't just put his life on hold waiting for her.  Bad move, Bella.  Really, REALLY bad move.

Author's Response:

I cannot tell you anything about her behaviour and the consequences this might have. But she will contact Edward soon, hope you like the sound of that a little... :) Enjoy the chocolate cake and the drink I gave you! :) *hands you some brownie as well*

augh she's giving up!!!!

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Giving up? Do you remember the preview and the sentence 'she wouldn't settle for less'? read that part again babe and be hopeful!

But could she leave without at least talking to Edward about all this??

I can see how it would be good for her, give her time to be on her own and grow...but the therapy, the possibilities with Edward...I hope she'll stay. 

I bet Edward would travel WITH her later...

Just my angsty thoughts.

This was good--lots of great descriptions.  I think, though, in the first paragraph you wrote "the blonde woman" and then in the next it was Leah with the black hair...just double check.

I enjoyed reading as always.  Thanks for writing.

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thanks for the blond woman remark, I already changed it.

About your question regarding them taliking before she leaves (if she leaves) well lets say that I cannot tell you very much about that. but I think whatever happens, you will 'like' it. Does that make sense? heheh. About them going together someday... do you live in my head *is confused* :) That's all I say about that *giggles*

thanks for the review, it's a pleasure to read your words.

Haha, yeah I bet I'm alone on that, but I really can't wait. *shrugs* I can't help it, I love the drama.

Plus I'm still trying to work on my Bella liking skills, so as of now anyone coming in to disrupt Edward's constant infatuation is okay in my book. =P

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I'm happy that I have at least one fan to bring in Tanya *hugs you* And that I'll probably have at least one review when I bring in her character LOL. And I like your way of thinking with the Bella liking skills :)

Hey, you never know. I have no doubt that by the end of this story you'll have me loving Bella, but as of now I have my reserves.

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We will see hun, if I succeed in making you like Bella :)

I guess I can understand how Grace's exit was necessary.

Yeah okay, so when you really think about it, she did the same thing Jacob did to her. Which in a way is why I'm having such trouble sympathizing with her. I mean, yes, she was preggers, and in that way she lost more, the real father of her child, but the relationship was over long before she made the choice to end it.

It was damaged when Jacob started cheating on her, and ended completely when she began to care for Edward as more than just a friend. And again, right there is another reason I don't have much sympathy, she continued the realtionship knowing she wanted to be with someone else. I can't completely wrap my head around that one, if you have to work that hard to both be happy with each other when there's someone else who makes you happy just by being, then I think any reason you come up with to avoid being with the other person is just flawed. Hmm vague pronoun use, let me know if I made sense.

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it made and makes sense dear, really. The human being is rather complex... as well is Bella :) But you're right with the things you said, definitely!

I agree, his timing was a little off, but I can see how that whole fiasco was his breaking point.

Again, I'll try to work up some sympathy for Bella, but we'll have to wait and see how that one works out.

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Haha, so you're not sure if you'll feel sympathy for Bella or not? :) We will see if I do my job as a writer good in the end, okay? :)

Ahaha, yeah, actually I was thinking the same thing, it seems that with each passing chapter my dislike just seems to blossom a little bit more.

I'm counting on liking her by the end, because if she ends up with Edward and she's the way she is now I might go insane, because that's just wrong in so many ways.

Consquently after checking my email I have realized that I comment excessively on this story...sorry about that...

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Like i said in my previous reply to your review: I do hope that you will start to dislike Bella a little bit less when I post the next chapter... *crosses fingers* There are some subtle hints and things hidden in ch 17 that show that Bella is changing, although it are only small changes in the beginning. But she needs to change and work on therself when she wants her relationship with Edward to work. So I do hope you're not going insane when they end up together, because an insane you doesn't sound like fun :)

And don't you dare to excuse yourself for commenting excessively on this fic, I appreciate that *hugs you tight* Don't change, I like you the way you are :)

Haha I always try to find time to read what the authors say on their comments back because sometimes it makes it easier to understand where they're taking the story. Stuff like that.

Glad I could help you name that character. I've each of the books a couple times and even though Tanya doesn't legitimately do anything wrong people tend to pick her as the man-stealer because she's supposed to have a little thing for Edward. Generally though, her appperance in stories lead to some kind of drama which I love. And just knowing that something like that is possibly coming makes me a looooot happier.

My horrible logic was completely flawed, but even looking back I'm okay with that.

And you were right, when Edward stood up I was practically jumping up and down with joy, I really couldn't believe it, but he really needed to. He needed to realize that he couldn't keep living the way he was, it just wasn't right. I was estatic when I saw him telling her that she had to fix herself and that he just couldn't deal anymore. It was simply perfect perfect perfect. So thank you for that.

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LOL @ the Tanya thing, she will make a (short) guest appearance in ch 19 or 20 I think and will she bring some (shortlived) drama in this fic as well? We will see :) I have read Twilight and New moon twice, as well as the leaked draft. But when I read, I mostly focus on the main characters and all those names in Eclips and Break Dawn make me crazy :)

Thanks for your sweet words about the twist in my latest chapter, with Edward standing up for himself. I'm updating the next chapter tonight, and hopefully it will be accepted by my beta tomorrow on my b-day *woot woot*

I'm glad to see that Bella a lil more open in this story and opening up her feelings to Edward. Damn, how I hate that Jacob.  I hope she drops his ass as soon as she sets foot in the house and I also hope he has a chick in the bed with him since he probably won't know whent she is due to come home. That will make it even easier for her to let go and he won't be able to say nothing.

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Hi there, new to this fic? Welcome and thanks for taking the time to read and catch up with it. And thanks for reviewing as well, I like to hear the feedback you have in store for me. When you have caught up completely with the entire 16 chapters, you will see that some of your questions are already answered! Thanks girl!

 heaven help me.....

 

post soon??

 

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Oh heaven? it's coming dear. Don't know about the update... lack of freetime this week. But i'll do my best to post something soon!

ok ... so what I have to say about this story ... I think it is freaking awesome. It is not some unrealistic story ... it's real life. The things that Bella and Edward are going through are the things that we have to deal with everyday. It's reality and not some unrealistic version of what people would like to happen.

I understand what you are saying about things getting better before they get worse. Edward is beginning to learn how to stand up for what he wants and to go for it. He is learning to take his life into his own hands. He has some growing to do before they can end up together. And Bella ... my poor poor Bella ... as Edward said to her ... she needs to learn to love herself ...she cant keep hating and blaming herself. She can't just live with Jake cause she feels that it was her fault that things ended up the way they are. If love is not there then it is not there. She has a lot of developing to go through as well.

SO I completely understand what you are saying and I completely agree with you. If they were to end up together now then they wouldn;t last very long and they  wouldn't be ready for each other.

ps. you just had to go for the hot unshaven angle didnt you! make him even more irresistible! (I want my own personal Edward but I think like Bella I have a lot of growing to do before I can have Edward! )

Nice job ! cant wait for the update!

Author's Response:

Oh my god, your comment really make me blush and I was nodding and smiling, and grinning like a fucking idiot while reading your review *clings to you*

I really don't know what to say to you after reading your review for the 1000th time, because everything you say is so so true and it's freaky, but it seems as if you live in my brain :) Do you?

And unshaven is irresistable, right? Yummie *licks unshaven image of EC* And I normally don't share my own personal Edward Cullen, but since you left me such an amazing review, i'll send him your way for a few days okay? Be gentle with him *g*