Great chapter!!!  I can't wait to see where this takes them.  :)

Author's Response:

Hey amy,

Thanks for the awesome star rating.

THanks, I hope you like it.

Here is the UN-BETA’ED teaser and it is subject to change.

This is Edward’s POV, I hope you enjoy it.

 

“Bella told me that Rose and Emmett were going to go home with the rest of the family. This meant that she and I were going to the hotel they had been in this afternoon. She told me there were two rooms, and I hoped we would only be using one. Bella explained that Rose booked the hotel because she didn’t want to go into Bella’s house or deal with her friends. Apparently Rose thought, we might need some time alone, and had booked both rooms for the night.

 

I have to think of a great gift to get Rose and Emmett, I thought gratefully.

 

I led Bella out to the Volvo and within minutes we were at the hotel. The entire ride I held her hand. All the way up to the room she never let go of mine. We didn’t speak, but the electric current I always felt when I was with her was stronger than ever. I could almost feel it crackling and sizzling around us.

 

“Do you want me to go into the other room?” I asked, praying she would say no, when we arrived at the elevator.

 

“No, I want you with me,” she replied.”

 

Thank you for continuing to read this story. The fact that you took the time to not only read but also review means so much to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

:) (That's a big shit eating grin special for you!) There's the epiphany I was talking about. Well played 'E' and more importantly, well written. I loved Rose and Emmett in this chapter. love love loved the way Bella told her 'friends' what she thought of the kind of support they were there to offer. The set list was wonderful, Bella was wonderful and I'm still waiting with bated breath for Edward's accountability. Can't wait for more. I too am a writer (columnist) and you my friend are very talented. I sincerely wish you the best in your endeavor to be a professional writer and have no doubt your dream will come to fruition. Kudos girl, now .... don't leave us hanging for to long. Lol.

Author's Response:

Hey Jordynnem,

Thanks for the amazing starts.

I can't put into words what your review means to me...thank you.

Yes, it was a great epiphany and was a long time coming.

Em and Rose, were the less obvious choice. I was debating back and forth with myself between them and A&J, a review mentioned that they thought Rose would be the one to help bella in the future and that cemented it for me. I'm happy it worked.

 

Oh yeah her friends, I wanted everyone to hopefully like them then hate them so you can feel as conflicted as Bella does. I hope she has seen the light.

 

Thank you, I've hemmed and hawed over song selection like this is American Idol ;)

I think he will.

WOW that is so kind. I'm a writer in RL too, a paid blogger but I would love to write fiction. thanks for the support.

 

I hope it won't be too long but the chapter is very long, a little longer than this one so it really takes the dynamic duo I call beta's a while to get through.

Here is the UN-BETA’ED teaser and it is subject to change.

This is Edward’s POV, I hope you enjoy it.

 

“Bella told me that Rose and Emmett were going to go home with the rest of the family. This meant that she and I were going to the hotel they had been in this afternoon. She told me there were two rooms, and I hoped we would only be using one. Bella explained that Rose booked the hotel because she didn’t want to go into Bella’s house or deal with her friends. Apparently Rose thought, we might need some time alone, and had booked both rooms for the night.

 

I have to think of a great gift to get Rose and Emmett, I thought gratefully.

 

I led Bella out to the Volvo and within minutes we were at the hotel. The entire ride I held her hand. All the way up to the room she never let go of mine. We didn’t speak, but the electric current I always felt when I was with her was stronger than ever. I could almost feel it crackling and sizzling around us.

 

“Do you want me to go into the other room?” I asked, praying she would say no, when we arrived at the elevator.

 

“No, I want you with me,” she replied.”

 

Thank you for continuing to read this story. The fact that you took the time to not only read but also review means so much to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

I love that Bella seems to have taken responsibility for her actions but I hope that Edward does the same. If he stays controlling and judgemental, I'll hurl. :)

Author's Response:

Hey Tracey,

Thanks for the stars.

She has, wait and see.... I doubt you'll hurl is all I will say.

Here is the UN-BETA’ED teaser and it is subject to change.

This is Edward’s POV, I hope you enjoy it.

 

“Bella told me that Rose and Emmett were going to go home with the rest of the family. This meant that she and I were going to the hotel they had been in this afternoon. She told me there were two rooms, and I hoped we would only be using one. Bella explained that Rose booked the hotel because she didn’t want to go into Bella’s house or deal with her friends. Apparently Rose thought, we might need some time alone, and had booked both rooms for the night.

 

I have to think of a great gift to get Rose and Emmett, I thought gratefully.

 

I led Bella out to the Volvo and within minutes we were at the hotel. The entire ride I held her hand. All the way up to the room she never let go of mine. We didn’t speak, but the electric current I always felt when I was with her was stronger than ever. I could almost feel it crackling and sizzling around us.

 

“Do you want me to go into the other room?” I asked, praying she would say no, when we arrived at the elevator.

 

“No, I want you with me,” she replied.”

 

Thank you for continuing to read this story. The fact that you took the time to not only read but also review means so much to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

So... underneath that tough exterior, lies a hopeless romantic... (by which I am referring to both you and Bella).

Great chapter =)

Author's Response:

Hey PiperSun,

Thanks.

I'll give you Bella but not me, I'm too realistic to believe in Happily Ever After.

Here is the UN-BETA’ED teaser and it is subject to change.

This is Edward’s POV, I hope you enjoy it.

 

“Bella told me that Rose and Emmett were going to go home with the rest of the family. This meant that she and I were going to the hotel they had been in this afternoon. She told me there were two rooms, and I hoped we would only be using one. Bella explained that Rose booked the hotel because she didn’t want to go into Bella’s house or deal with her friends. Apparently Rose thought, we might need some time alone, and had booked both rooms for the night.

 

I have to think of a great gift to get Rose and Emmett, I thought gratefully.

 

I led Bella out to the Volvo and within minutes we were at the hotel. The entire ride I held her hand. All the way up to the room she never let go of mine. We didn’t speak, but the electric current I always felt when I was with her was stronger than ever. I could almost feel it crackling and sizzling around us.

 

“Do you want me to go into the other room?” I asked, praying she would say no, when we arrived at the elevator.

 

“No, I want you with me,” she replied.”

 

Thank you for continuing to read this story. The fact that you took the time to not only read but also review means so much to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

wonderful...she is trying, he is trying.  when they get it right it is going to be beautiful.

Author's Response:

Hey Vic,

Thank you.

They are both trying very hard this time...I think they might make it.

Here is the UN-BETA’ED teaser and it is subject to change.

This is Edward’s POV, I hope you enjoy it.

 

“Bella told me that Rose and Emmett were going to go home with the rest of the family. This meant that she and I were going to the hotel they had been in this afternoon. She told me there were two rooms, and I hoped we would only be using one. Bella explained that Rose booked the hotel because she didn’t want to go into Bella’s house or deal with her friends. Apparently Rose thought, we might need some time alone, and had booked both rooms for the night.

 

I have to think of a great gift to get Rose and Emmett, I thought gratefully.

 

I led Bella out to the Volvo and within minutes we were at the hotel. The entire ride I held her hand. All the way up to the room she never let go of mine. We didn’t speak, but the electric current I always felt when I was with her was stronger than ever. I could almost feel it crackling and sizzling around us.

 

“Do you want me to go into the other room?” I asked, praying she would say no, when we arrived at the elevator.

 

“No, I want you with me,” she replied.”

 

Thank you for continuing to read this story. The fact that you took the time to not only read but also review means so much to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

My favorite fight was from Bella kicking Alice out lol...seriously Alice was out of line, she may have had a point but she is not on the ground to make it.

Author's Response:

Hey JShay,

 Mine too, I loved it. I think Alice to too stuck in the past, she needs to realize things changed.

Thanks for reading and reviewing.

Cheers,

~E

Update soon please!

Author's Response:

Hey Maranda,

Thanks for the awesome star rating.

The next chapter is with my beta's , it's really long so it took a lot of time to polish.

So this is un-beta’ed and subject to change but here is the teaser. This teaser is in Bella’s POV:

 

“Liza just glared at me, disappointment evident in her eyes.

 

I am so sick of that look. Apparently I was too much of a fuck up for Charlie, too much of a whore for Edward, and now not enough of either for the girls. Why couldn’t anyone let me be who I am? I’m not the goodie-goodie I was in Forks, but don’t we have to grow up sometime? Don’t they understand that I’ve done this for three and half years, and maybe I’m just tired of it all?

 

“What the fuck, are you looking at, Liza?”

 

“B, she has point. You have been falling down on bookings in the past few weeks. I want to see you happy, but you were happier before he came back. I think you need to give him the heave ho and come back to us. We are your family. We have your back, we always have. All these people have done is try to make you into something and someone you aren’t anymore. I think you just need to take a deep breath, and remember who you really are, B. That’s all. Then you’ll come back to us. And I know just what you need to be able to do that, to put everything into perspective. You need to loosen up. Now you want to loosen up. Don’t you, honey?  Of course you do. I have just the things that’ll help and it’ll make that hangover go away,” she said and reached into her back pocket and pulled out a baggie of white powder. ”

 

 

I hope you enjoyed the teaser. This next chapter is the longest one yet.

 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review this story. It really means the world to me that you review. It is how the fan fic author gets paid after all.

 

Cheers,

~E

I STARTED YOUR STORIE YESTERDAY AND ENDED WITH CHPT 27 TODAY. WOW!!!!! TIME SOME MADE EWARD PAY FOR LEAVING  BELLA. WHEN WILL WE GET MORE CHPTS? WE KNOW THAT SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN AND THEN THINGS START GETTING BETTER. BELLA NEED TO GO TO REHAB AND DEAL WITH THINGS THEN THEY CAN START TOGET THING GOING THE RIGHT WAY. AN'T WAIT.

Author's Response:

Hey Penstop,

 THis review was sent twice, but I still wanted to answer both. thanks for reading it means a lot to me, so does the fact that you really seemed to get involved with the story.

So this is un-beta’ed and subject to change but here is the teaser. This teaser is in Bella’s POV:

 

“Liza just glared at me, disappointment evident in her eyes.

 

I am so sick of that look. Apparently I was too much of a fuck up for Charlie, too much of a whore for Edward, and now not enough of either for the girls. Why couldn’t anyone let me be who I am? I’m not the goodie-goodie I was in Forks, but don’t we have to grow up sometime? Don’t they understand that I’ve done this for three and half years, and maybe I’m just tired of it all?

 

“What the fuck, are you looking at, Liza?”

 

“B, she has point. You have been falling down on bookings in the past few weeks. I want to see you happy, but you were happier before he came back. I think you need to give him the heave ho and come back to us. We are your family. We have your back, we always have. All these people have done is try to make you into something and someone you aren’t anymore. I think you just need to take a deep breath, and remember who you really are, B. That’s all. Then you’ll come back to us. And I know just what you need to be able to do that, to put everything into perspective. You need to loosen up. Now you want to loosen up. Don’t you, honey?  Of course you do. I have just the things that’ll help and it’ll make that hangover go away,” she said and reached into her back pocket and pulled out a baggie of white powder. ”

 

 

I hope you enjoyed the teaser. This next chapter is the longest one yet.

 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review this story. It really means the world to me that you review. It is how the fan fic author gets paid after all.

 

Cheers,

~E

Hey E,

Loved the drunk dial. Awe-some. Awhile ago i read through some of your reviews. I've been enjoying this story from word one, and I noticed there were some haters giving you crap about the characters and the pacing. I gotta say, I really disagree. Addicts are annoying, narcisistic, self-indulgent and clueless. I think you have Bella as addict-alcoholic totally dialed. If the reader isn't annoyed and over it than it isn't reaching in and grabbing a hold of them with authenticity. Edward has always had pansy ass leanings, and he gets a shot at being an enabler in your story which would be a natural extension of his character's leanings in this type of situation. The guilt he feels only complicates things for him, because another loved one (Charlie, Jake) might bail sooner whereas Edward has such a sense of responsibility over it all that he can't face the bitter truth of their circumstance. I like it when he stands up for himself as much as the next guy but if they are going to get through all this baggage, he needs to step up and reach the point where he's had enough and just make Bella figure out what she's going to do. There is inherent turmoil in that situation. The loved ones see the path of destruction and can either continuously put out the fire and pick up the pieces for their broken addict or get out of the way and let the chips fall where they will. Interesting to see though what might play out if Bella the addict got changed without dealing with her demons...would she transform into a strong immortal or stay a piece of shit with better geography? Mmmm.

In a nutshell, I think you write addiction with authenticity. I think its annoying because its true. Addicts are a huge pain in the ass. Heartbreaking, recalcitrant, overwhelming. It rings true. So take your time, write your story. The haters can go read something else. Not like there aren't other options available!

You rock Baby.

boulderpa

Author's Response:

Hey mama,

1) I loved the drunk dial too, I have been waiting for this chapter. So happy you enjoyed it.

2) Thank you, I'm pleased to say the haters are few and far between.

3)hmmmmmm...... I cannot comment on Edward's future actions.

4) interesting theory, not sure when or if or how she'll be changes (well, I do  know the answer can't share, sorry)

Thank so much I always love  your reviews.

So this is un-beta’ed and subject to change but here is the teaser. This teaser is in Bella’s POV:

 

“Liza just glared at me, disappointment evident in her eyes.

 

I am so sick of that look. Apparently I was too much of a fuck up for Charlie, too much of a whore for Edward, and now not enough of either for the girls. Why couldn’t anyone let me be who I am? I’m not the goodie-goodie I was in Forks, but don’t we have to grow up sometime? Don’t they understand that I’ve done this for three and half years, and maybe I’m just tired of it all?

 

“What the fuck, are you looking at, Liza?”

 

“B, she has point. You have been falling down on bookings in the past few weeks. I want to see you happy, but you were happier before he came back. I think you need to give him the heave ho and come back to us. We are your family. We have your back, we always have. All these people have done is try to make you into something and someone you aren’t anymore. I think you just need to take a deep breath, and remember who you really are, B. That’s all. Then you’ll come back to us. And I know just what you need to be able to do that, to put everything into perspective. You need to loosen up. Now you want to loosen up. Don’t you, honey?  Of course you do. I have just the things that’ll help and it’ll make that hangover go away,” she said and reached into her back pocket and pulled out a baggie of white powder. ”

 

 

I hope you enjoyed the teaser. This next chapter is the longest one yet.

 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review this story. It really means the world to me that you review. It is how the fan fic author gets paid after all.

 

Cheers,

~E

“Maybe tomorrow. I will tell you this once and only once, Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, I answer to no one. I do as I please. I’m a big girl who is more than capable of looking after herself. I do what I need to do to feel and stay alive. If you have a problem with that then you can join the long list of people I cut out of my life and hope to see rotting in hell.” I didn’t raise my voice; but spoke in a calm and even tone. My measured words sent a chill down even my spine. I think he understood that he was standing on ever thinning ice and had just undone the majority of the good he did upstairs.

You go girl :)

Do feel sorry for Ed in this chapter though, clearly worried about her.

Author's Response:

Hi Msouris,

 Thanks.

I know, but he is  VERY judgmental.

I love your reviews, thanks for taking the time to leave them and re-read this story.

Cheers,

~E

Glad that Ed decides to fight for her.

Author's Response:

Hey msouris,

Me too, he had too.

Thank you for reading and reviewing, it really means the world to me.

 

Cheers,

~E

Wow.  So....it seems that Bella is coming to one of those life changing forks in the road.  She either decides to get straight and sober, making happy life for herself and maybe a relationship possible with Edward, or she keeps drinking and drugging until she erases everything good about herself, wastes away and dies.  Obviously, getting high to ease the pain worked for her for a long time, but it's not working for her now - that's evident in this chapter - and her world is spinning out of control.  She just isn't equipped to deal with all the feelings that have surfaced with Edward's return.  She can't deal with them straight and now she can't even deal with them high. 

Her call was definately a cry for help...maybe she wanted Edward to rescue her, but the irony is that if he tried, she would resent him more than she does now with all the control issues they have going between them. I don't know if Edward handled her correctly because there really isn't any way to 'handle' her right now.  She's completely lost and needs to find her own way back....no one can do that for her, not even the Cullens.  

It's so sad to watch her fall....

The girl needs to check herself into rehab - quickly.  But, even if she goes to rehab, it's going to be a long road to fix their relationship....another 80 chapters is what I conclude you'll have to write to get to a happy ending.  Ha!  Just kidding.  I have faith in you.

Judy

xoxoxoxo

 

Author's Response:

Hey Judy,

Thanks for the awesome stars.

I think you are right. Exactly it's not working anymore, she can't hide from the pain. That being said she might have to grow up and face it head on.

You are the second person who called it a cry for help. 

She does have to forge her own path, but it doesn't mean she has to do it alone. Dorothy had  the tin man, scarecrow and the cowardly lion (I hope that made sense to you.)

I don't think it'll be 80 chs but I see being quite some time, we are at the halfway point in the story, I think.

So this is un-beta’ed and subject to change but here is the teaser. This teaser is in Bella’s POV:

 

“Liza just glared at me, disappointment evident in her eyes.

 

I am so sick of that look. Apparently I was too much of a fuck up for Charlie, too much of a whore for Edward, and now not enough of either for the girls. Why couldn’t anyone let me be who I am? I’m not the goodie-goodie I was in Forks, but don’t we have to grow up sometime? Don’t they understand that I’ve done this for three and half years, and maybe I’m just tired of it all?

 

“What the fuck, are you looking at, Liza?”

 

“B, she has point. You have been falling down on bookings in the past few weeks. I want to see you happy, but you were happier before he came back. I think you need to give him the heave ho and come back to us. We are your family. We have your back, we always have. All these people have done is try to make you into something and someone you aren’t anymore. I think you just need to take a deep breath, and remember who you really are, B. That’s all. Then you’ll come back to us. And I know just what you need to be able to do that, to put everything into perspective. You need to loosen up. Now you want to loosen up. Don’t you, honey?  Of course you do. I have just the things that’ll help and it’ll make that hangover go away,” she said and reached into her back pocket and pulled out a baggie of white powder. ”

 

 

I hope you enjoyed the teaser. This next chapter is the longest one yet.

 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review this story. It really means the world to me that you review. It is how the fan fic author gets paid after all.

 

Cheers,

~E

xoxoxo

This chapter re-reading it actually find it very difficult to read which is a good thing really because it just shows how well you writing conveys the emotions of the characters at their awkard renioun. The tension is so thick and by the end of it the atticpation of what is going to happen is nearly painful. (Even though I know what's going to happen)

Love that Ed gets to see Bella as a strong independant woman, doing her stuff. Love that he sees she's broken, he knows it's his fault and he wants to fix it. Love, love, love Bella :D

Author's Response:

Hi again Msouris,

Thank you, that is a high compliment- wow, I'm humbled.

 Yeah Bella can't decided who to be, she wants him to know she's moved and that she hasn't.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I can't wait to read your next review.

Cheers,

~E