Hey Baby,

I was out of commission on vaca and unwired for a couple weeks, turns out that it might not be pregnancy hormones that keep making me weep like a nerd in a high school dumpster, but your raw unwieldy talent and scary good story telling. I just keep losing it with each chapter. Damn girl, we might need a little one shot side note of Emmett and Rose getting raunchy to lighten to mood or I need to stock up on kleenex.

Yours,

boulderpa

Author's Response:

Hey mama,

How was the vaca (you have to e-mail me about it). OMG your kind words just... now I'm getting all misty... it means the world. LOL I think you are right and I will think about it. There might be a funny little stand alone, something EDelta and I are working on, on the forum and I might post it in an AN because it is absurd and so funny.

Cheers,

~E

That was embarassing, I just shouted, what the hell are you doing at my computer. I don't agree with how Bella is acting, but Edward had no right to ask that. Edward was finally getting somewhere and he ruins it big time. Love this chapter.

Author's Response:

Hey xxkittykatxx,

LOL, sorry but I had to laugh, I've done that before and I take it as great complement that the chapter elicited a strong reaction from you. No agrees with her...life choices but he indeed had no right. He did ... I can't say any more.

I'm so happy you enjoyed this chapter, let alone loved it.

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

 

i cant wai to see whats going to happen next keep up the good work!

Author's Response:

Hey myteeaacup,

A lot it going to happen, thanks and I will.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

I think Edward should have known

He always finds a way to screw things up

Author's Response:

Hey I_heart_jacob_,

 he should have  but he chose not to believe it.

 Yes he does, but he'll try to fix it.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

Awh :( I want things to work out for them! Edward needs to get the fuck over himself and grow up already! Love it, can't wait for more :)

Author's Response:

Hey gabthebomb1,

I loved ur review, you are right he needs to grow up,

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

I am so into this story that I'm mentally writing set lists for Bella all the time these days. I just heard "Jar of Hearts" for the first time this week and immediately thought that Hamartia should cover it, punk style.

(Is it obvious that I'm a musician? ;p )

So, Edward...did you eat a herd of deer outside a Summer's Eve factory? Because you've obviously ingested some sort of magic douche pill.

Author's Response:

Hey JasonGee,

 LMAO that is the best compliment ever! I'll totally look up Jar of Hearts. I'm trying to fit in Cee lo Green F U but it doesn't look like it's gonna happen.

 Yes it is, u love music.

Can I say Magic Douche Pill.... best. review. line. EVER!

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

Hello your a great writer

Author's Response:

Hey niabi,

 Thank you  the star rating.

OMG that is such a compliment, thank you so much.

Thank you for taking the time to read and review, it is very kind of you. I hope you enjoy the rest of the story and continue to review.

Cheers,

~E

You know, Bella, we get it. You're pissed. You're hurt. You've been abandoned. You don't let yourself feel anything. We get it. Edward's a jackass, Alice said things that hit too close to home, Esme might be the only one who comes close to understanding how you felt. But you're manipulating her anyway because you know that with her strong desire to mother you and everyone else, you can tell her how horrible things have been for four years and you know she'll crumble. You've got her wrapped around your finger and you know it.

Whether or not you let the Cullens back into your life, whether you and Alice become friends again, whether you get back together with Edward... or not... get over yourself. I'm not telling you to make life all sunshine and cupcakes, but you can't see how toxic you've become to yourself. Get over the hate and learn to co-exist. You feel like they don't see what you've become, but you can't see anything outside your little "me me me me me" bubble. You've become more like Rosalie than you knew.

Author's Response:

Hey Screaming MImi,

 I enjoyed ur review. I hope you like the next chapter and stick with the story.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

Good chapter.....OK I know Edward is all clinging to the memory of the Bella he knew but he needs to either resolve himself to the new Bella and learn to take it in stride or he has to let her go and be friends. Judgemental Edward is a jerk and he can't help her if he keeps pissing her off. Hope that's what they say in the family meeting. I like the different point of views and that we get to see some of the other characters insights. I think you need a little hearted Emmett to help ease some of the angst though!!!I like this story....Keep going!!!!

Author's Response:

Hey Twihardacctant,

Thanks and thanks for the stars :)

I' so happy u like it and u have hit the nail on the  head. Sorry about the angst... it kinda turns down in a few chapters....

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

Author's Response:

Hey Twihardacctant,

Thanks and thanks for the stars :)

I' so happy u like it and u have hit the nail on the  head. Sorry about the angst... it kinda turns down in a few chapters....

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

Great chapter. I am really pissed at Edward for being so sanctimonious over Bella sleeping with numerous guys! Like she said... he left her and she carried on with her life the way she wanted. He should be grateful she even allows him to be in the same airspace as her at this point. Sure, she is on a self destructive down-spiral, which I'm sure will not end well, but if Edward wants Bella back in his life he is going to have to get over it already and quit worrying about what he will or will not see as part of her life since he left. Im really mad at Edward right now. I dont like the lifestyle Bella has chosen, but I can understand the pain that drove her to it. Can't wait for the next chapter!

Author's Response:

Hey Eaglerise,

Thanks. Everyone is pissed at Edward and very few feel sorry for him.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

*g* did Scott really call B a man-eater in front of a vampire? wicked ironic :D

well, while Edward was with her he made it clear she can have love but no lust. He left and it occured to her that she won't be able to love again but lust is easy to have.
simple trade as it is obvious she can't have both?! especially when she's drugged most of the time.

and yes, Edward should've known by now, that what he saw on the stage wasn't just show, it was her.

and how he dares to lie to her again? the end doesn't justify all means, especially because they are in this situation because he lied to her, a lot.

ok so I know this got to long already but somehow I can't hold myself :D
the beginnig was a little strange because I didn't get it why Carlisle just walked out of the living room without allowing the argument.
The picnic was great, it was so... harmonical and peaceful, the anticipation for the ultimate crush down grew with every line and they didn't disappoint.
this didn't went better than Alice visit, maybe even worse.

the secret thoughts all of them have adds a level of insight and deepness to the story that carries me and my sympathy for every character to unknown highs.

good chapter! as always left me wanting more and my mind bouncing between possible outcomes

chaoz

Author's Response:

Hey Chaoz,

 thanks for the stars bb,. Here is the long reply:

1) yeah he did, and I didn't even pick that up... these characters just have minds of their owns lol

2) ur love/lust theory makes a lot of sense and I think I might have to reference it in the future.

3) He was hoping, he was deluding himself. 

4)You are the only one to pick up on the lie, I think it was okay as it would have made everything worse and he just fudged it a little bit.

5)I love ur long reviews and u know it

6) he couldn't stand the thought of arguing he is a pacifist after all

7)Nope he screwed up worse than Alice ever could have

8) thank you SO much.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E

lol there are 3 things u NEVER ask a woman...1. How old are you? 2. How much do you weight? 3. How many guiys have you slept with?  lol he broke rule 3!!!  lol when he asked if she had slept with Scott i would have just said "I'm sure you've read his mind, you tell me." and shrugged it off lol.  LOVED IT!!!! can't wait!!!!!  UPDATE

Author's Response:

Hey Rat_girl610,

 LOL, he did break that rule. LOL that would have been a great comeback! damn I wish I thought of it!

So happy u loved it.

 

Here is the teaser it’s  in Jasper’s POV, enjoy!

 

 

“Go back home Jasper, I can’t deal with you right now. You can finish what Emmett started later,” he said, his tone was exasperated. My bother was resigned to something, what I was not sure yet; I think it was loneliness and despair.

 

No such luck Ed. I’m here and you can’t lose me that easily. We will deal with what you did to my wife later, and it will not be a pleasant conversation that much I promise you. However, I have the benefit of feeling your emotions and know that as you had the altercation you were torn up about yelling at her. I haven’t forgiven you… yet, but I get it to some extent. Moving on what the hell happened between you and Bella? I expected you to return in a better mood. Hell I expected you to return period, and not go running off with your tail between your legs. Why didn’t you come back to the house? Esme was waiting and is itching to know what happened and clear up yesterday. By the way she handed Emmett his ass on plate for almost hurting you.

 

He nodded and explained his entire day with Bella from the picnic to the kiss to his inappropriate question.

 

YOU ASKED HER WHAT?  To say I was shocked was an understatement. Edward was so tightly wound and sexually repressed I could not even fathom how he even would/could formulate that question.”

 

I hope you liked the teaser. Thank you for taking the time to not only read but also review this story, I appreciate it more than you know.

 

Cheers,

 

~E