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Reviewer: Lavaughn (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 11:31 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
OH MY! This chapter is great. I think one of my favorite moments was when they made love for the first time in Rob's big bed. I have so many favorites though and am looking forward to what they come up with on their lists. Can't wait till the next chapter! You rock, girl!
Author's Response: Hi Lavaughn,
Glad you enjoyed the chapter! It got a bit raunchy there for a while, didn't it? Aww, making love for the first time in Rob's bed was definitely a very sweet, important moment for them. Quite likely to appear on at least one of their lists! :)
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing. It means a lot!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: allycat38654 (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 11:07 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Rob loves her so much, but i know its so hard for Gemma to trust him again. They are breaking my heart
Author's Response: Hi allycat,
Aww, you're so right. Rob adores Gemma and is trying to hard to prove to Gemma that she can trust him. She's getting there, slowly but surely. :)
Thanks for sticking with them, and continuing to read and review.
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Carly1989 (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 10:42 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
I really love Gemma being a teacher! Being a teacher myself I can defiantly relate. We made volcanoes last month! It’s fun and very messy!
I am very happy they are talking again. They will be okay.
Author's Response: Hey Carly1989,
Ooh, you're a teacher too? Yay! I am as well. Making volcanoes is always lots of fun, but yep - very messy! Definitely an outside activity when it's time to erupt them. :)
Rob and Gemma are certainly enjoying talking again too. We'll see how they go in the next chapter.
Thanks for reading!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: KathyK (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 10:38 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
I'd say all of their moments are good except for the ones that Rob fucked up. You know, the ones where he cheated or got drunk. It's a good thing he is gorgeous and adorable or we would have thrown him out the window a long time ago. Oh, and he's British. We can't throw out any Brit boys.
Author's Response: Hi Kathy,
Hehee! You're so right... We definitely can't throw out any Brit boys! Never! :)
Rob's fucked-up moments definitely won't be making either of their top five lists, don't worry! I think he's learnt his lesson... He's trying so hard to prove to Gemma how much he loves her.
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Gabi-b (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 10:20 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Nexy step??? skype sex, kkkkkkkkkkk.
I loooooove the pool moment in the story beginning, when he make her dad's cheese pasta, the lady gaga/karaoke moment and their firts fuck, hehehehe.
Xo, G.
Author's Response: Hi G,
Skype sex?! Ha! That could get kinda graphic!
Aw, thanks for sharing your favorite moments. We'll have to wait and see which ones make it into Rob and Gemma's lists! The pool moment was pretty hot though, wasn't it? And the cheesy pasta bake, aww.
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Pinkcookie (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 10:14 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Hi Bee:
Well, Gemma is certainly made of sterner stuff that I am. The lovely things said by the Pretty would have had me at his door! When he said it was more important for her to know he loves her than for her to say she loves him... big sigh... I'd be making that long drive to his place!
My favorite moment is probably their date at the Thai restaurant roof-top. They were so in love and had such a nice time... proving Rob can go out with some forethought... and then their session make love after that dinner -- the perfect date!
So, bread is $4 a loaf is Australia. I live on east coast of U.S. -- regular old sandwich breat is about $2 or $2.50. BUT gasoline and home heating oil is sky-rocketing -- very worrisome. Guess you guys are probably worse off with respect to that commodity that us!?!
Looking forward to remaining chappies! Pinkcookie
Author's Response: Hi Pinkcookie,
Haha, I'm totally with you. I would have been driving over to Rob's house as soon as he pointed out how good it would be if she crawled in bed with him. But no, Gemma needs some time and space at the moment to contemplate things and make some decisions. He is definitely quite lovely at the moment though, isn't he? So desperately trying to make things right between them again.
Aww, the Thai restaurant roof-top! It was really one of the few times they went out in public together, and they had such a lovely night. Rob organized it all for them, and as you said, it shows they really could go out for dinner together. And of course, it got a bit steamier back at her place after dinner... The perfect date indeed!
You have bargain bread in America! Our gasoline (we call it petrol) has been really expensive for years now, so we're kinda used to it, I think. Maybe we should all take up cycling! (How did we even get onto this discussion!? Hehee!)
Thanks so much for another fun, lovely review. More coming soon!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: frickandfrack09 (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 08:53 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Um... WOW!
That's about all I've got to say this time around. WOW WOW WOW! I am so happy that they're talking everyday. I'm glad Rob's letting Gemma know that he loves her everyday. I'm just glowing like I'm Gemma and he's my Rob.
As for my favorite moment, it'd have to be the hot tub night with Gemma's spotty bikini. I think. It's just their connection was just so strong, and I could feel it buzzing around me and coursing through my veins. It was intense and I was so sure that it would've been THE night.
As usual job well done. Can't wait for the next update.
Author's Response: Hey frickandfrack09,
Wow indeed! Great to hear you enjoyed the chapter. I think talking every day but not seeing each other all the time is exactly what they both needed... A bit of space and thinking time apart for a while, but at the same time, Rob is constantly reassuring her that he loves her. Aww. I'm glad you're glowing!
Ooh, the hot tub was definitely a fun moment between them. It was actually their first kiss, which later turned into a swim in the pool, which became much raunchier! It very nearly was THE night, but Gemma stopped them. Naughty Rob... But oh how we love Naughty Rob! ;)
Thanks so much for your continued support! Next chapter will be up soon.
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Enchanting Lilly (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 08:48 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
It is an amazing crazy ride and I would ride with you any day. I just love these two crazy kids. I think Gemma is really close to forgiving him I hope so. I can't wait to read the chapter when they really come back to each other to stay. Can't wait till next chapter.
Lilly
Author's Response: Hi Lilly,
Yay, I'm so glad you're enjoying the crazy ride! I am too. Isn't that what it's all about? :)
Gemma's definitely getting closer to forgiving him, but she won't quite allow herself to get there just yet. Still lots of thinking and decision making to do first. The next chapter shouldn't be too far away!
Thanks for continuing to read and review!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: underthestars (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 07:51 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Argh! So, that was laced with tension then. Wowzers. He is such an intense soul, he really is. I'm still incredibly proud of Gem sorting herself out first. And pleased they haven't seen one another since that night. Thye need that space and not to just fall back together. Now there was a bit of me that was just too amused now she was back at work. Good boy for asking how the volcanos went. To me, he's a keeper! I could throttle him though, I mean he has been so destructive and now he is hurting so much. There is something so desperate about him, he adores her. I hope that he knows now that he must never wreck this again. I'm sure he does. Super writing as always, and your lemons, in whatever form, are distinctly yummy ;-)
Author's Response: Hiya lovely girl,
'Laced with tension', I love it! It was kind of a quiet, contemplative chapter... Something they both needed. They both have a lot to sort out, and they really did need that time apart. Some distance between them. Even their phone sex brought them together, but they were still apart. Gemma's not quite letting herself give in yet. She's a strong girl when she wants to be. :)
Your description of Rob is great - 'such an intense soul'. He really does adore her, and he's desperately trying to prove to both of them that he's worthy of her. We'll see how that goes... But yes, he definitely knows he can never screw this up again. He wouldn't allow himself to, for Gemma's sake and his own.
Oh, Gemma's back at school! Blah, poor girl. You're the only reviewer who commented on him asking about the volcanoes, hehee. Definitely a keeper!
Thanks so much for continuing to read and review. It means a lot! Can't wait to read your story over here on Twilighted soon! ;)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: gopher4953 (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 07:25 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Hey sweet Bee!
Sorry I haven't reviewed the past couple of chapters, but I've kinda been in a writer's funk and couldn't even put two thoughts together. Better now! Then I was out of town, in Las Vegas for 10 days! Too bad it wasn't this week, or I might've been able to attend Kellan's B'day party at Caeser's Palace. Gahhhhh! The fates are always agin me! Did go to the club where it was to be held, tho. I can at least say that i was in the same venue!!! LOL
This was such a sweet, gentle chapter, with both Rob and Gem coming to terms with how they were feelin'. They love each other so very much, but realize that there is still a lot of healin' to do...especially for Gem. but, Rob needs healin', too!
Loved the flirty texts and phone calls that eventually led up to an amazin' session of phone sex. Beautifully done, btw! I know that Gem is still a bit gun shy, but it seems as if she's slowly comin' around. she understands what Rob did and why...not that it didn't hurt her...and her total forgiveness is around the corner.
I'm glad to see that Rob is workin' on bein' less self deprecatin', comin' to realize tha he is worthy af Gem. I know he's not totally there yet, but I'm positive he'll get there.
So now, darlin', I'm waitin' anxiously for MORE PLEASE, ASAP! I wait impatiently for each update alert and actually squee when it finally arrives.
Thanks for sharin' you amazin' talent with us in tellin' this fantastic story!
Love you!
Ellen xx
PS. I LOVE all of Gem and Rob's moments; the good the bad and the ugly! They are all meaningful to the story!
Author's Response: Hi Ellen,
Oh yay, I'm so glad you're back! I thought the angst must have become too much for you. Can totally relate to the writer's funk... Hopefully it's all better now. And woo, you went to Vegas! How fun! Did you have a blast? I love that you visited the venue for Kellan's birthday party. That's adorable and so you! :)
Aw, sweet and gentle is a lovely way to describe this chapter. It was definitely a quiet little chapter, with lots of contemplation going on for the both of them. You're so right - Gemma has got a lot of healing to do, and Rob has too. They're getting there though, slowly.
The phone sex was an easy way for them to be together, but not together, if that makes sense. Although Gemma really wanted to go over to his place, she wouldn't let herself. As you said, she's slowly coming around, but she's not quite there yet. Lucky for phones! :)
Rob is definitely working on his own issues, too. He's trying so hard to be what Gemma needs, but hopefully making himself happier in the long run too. Time will tell...
Thank you so much for your wonderful review, Ellen! I always love hearing from you. We'll find out more about Rob and Gemma's favorite moments in the next chapter, which shouldn't be too far away now. Thanks again!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: danimcket (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 06:55 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Gotta love phone sex.
Author's Response: Hi danimcket,
Glad you enjoyed! Rob and Gemma certainly did too! :)
Thanks for reading...
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: campcathryn (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 06:42 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
Love it
Author's Response: Yay! Thanks so much, campcathryn!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: kimjhill (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2011 06:37 AM · On: Chapter 41 - Time
favortie moment????i cant pick just one-all their moments have been GREAT!!!! When are these two going to try and see each other again?? I still think he should show up at school to surprise her with a big bunch or flowers or balloons....her students would go wild ;) cant wait to see what they will pick as their 5 favs....dont make us wait too long to find out !!Hint hint-next chap pretty please
Author's Response: Hey kimjhill,
Aw, you like all their moments! You're lovely. :)
They will see each other again soon, don't worry. Time apart is helping though - letting them both have some time to process their thoughts and decide what they want to do. Hehee, showing up at her school would certainly drive her students wild, and probably the other teachers and parents too! Gemma would probably die of embarrassment, too. Eek!
The next chapter has been submitted and is in the hand of my validation beta now. Hopefully won't be too far away! Thanks so much for continuing to read and review!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: underthestars (Signed) · Date: March 12, 2011 10:21 AM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
Okay, I have got behind again...but phew. Gosh. Bless them and then phew again. So My mind has ended up a little fuzzled somehow! There were moment in this when I was actually nodding at the screen; when Gem told Rob about Aaron, when she said that the phone ringing made doubts creep in, when she said that she needed time. But you've created something so yummy between them, the magnetic pull just leaps off the page. It's superly gloriously yummy. I like the way that nothing is presumed, that Sarah and Rob know that Gem needs space and time, that there are some parts of their relationship that always have been and have continued to be spot on, but that they will need more than that to survive. Six more chapters...bring it on. ;-)
Author's Response: Hiya!
Don't worry about being behind! Rob and Gemma aren't going anywhere. They'll always be here when you're ready. :)
That being said, thank you for catching up and reviewing! I'm sorry I made your mind a little fuzzled... That's a bad thing, right? This was a big chapter in terms of their conversations, and what to do next. Gemma can't help but be anything except honest with Rob, which is why she told him about Aaron and her doubts when his phone rang. He's pretty lovely and understanding though, so they'll be okay.
'Gloriously yummy' - I love it! Hehee! I'm so glad their 'magnetic pull', as you say, comes across as you're reading. It's always been there between them, from when they first met, and probably always will be. Rob has a little theory about that in later chapters, but for now, they've got some sorting out and deciding to do.
Thanks again! You know how much I love hearing from you. Get better soon!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: babystar (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2011 07:00 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
I promise this will be my last review of this chapter, LOL. Anyway, I just had an epiphany! When I said “Robert's love for Gemma is the only thing stopping me from completely writing him off,” Did you take the term “writing him off” to mean, me no longer reading the story? I just re-read my review and it suddenly occurred to me that it could be misconstrued in that way. By writing him off, I meant to say that Robert’s love for Gemma is the only thing keeping me from completely believing him unworthy of Gemma…writing him off in the sense of not wanting him with Gemma at all. For example, even though I don’t forgive him, and am still highly upset with him, it would kill me to see Gemma with somebody else or to see them remain apart. I think I’ve said this once before, but I might be wrong. Does that make sense? My confusion lies in the fact that I still want them together even though I’m mad at him. I don’t forgive him, and I hate on him but I still want them to be together. I know it’s crazy and I guess that might be responsible for you thinking that I didn’t like the chapter when in actuality, I really did. I’m sorry if I confused you, Bee :( And sorry for sending you the evil glares and blaming you for my typo’s :(
Author's Response: Nooo, Kari!
I don't think I interpreted you as saying you were close to "writing him off" to mean you were going to stop reading the story. I knew what you meant! It was more just your general tone of the review, i think. Maybe it was because you were sick... But you kinda sounded a bit over it all, and you were even getting cross with Gemma. That never happens! Or like I said before, maybe it's just me, being a bit sensitive and reading too much into things.
It's nice to know you still want them to end up together though, despite everything. It's a bit like what you said before about family - they're so connected now anyway, do they really have a choice? Well yes, they do, but you know what I mean.
Thanks again for writing back and explaining things further. You know how much I love hearing from you and appreciate every word you write. Don't censor yourself, and don't change! You're fabulous just the way you are. :)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: babystar (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2011 06:02 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
Blaming you for all of my typos!
Author's Response: Bwah, ha! Okay, fair enough.
You've single-handedly raised the review count on this chapter though, thanks! :)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: babystar (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2011 06:00 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
Still shaking my head at "You hope I'll stick around!" *sending BIG, HUGE evil glares your way, Bee* My feelings for Robert ar all over the place! I hate on him and yet my favorite lines are words spoken by him....Anything I might say about Robert should be taken with a grain of salt...it should be suspect, because I can't even trust myself when it comes to him, Pfft!
Sending you eveil glares, Kari
Author's Response: Hehee! More shakes and evil glares! :)
I think it's fine that your feelings for Rob are all over the place, really. So are Gemma's! She's over the hate part of it though, but she's still confused and doesn't know what to do about him. She loves him but can't say goodbye to him, either.
I'm not taking your words with a grain of salt at all. They're far too important for that!
Sending you evil glares right back.... ;)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: babystar (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2011 05:47 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
Bee! Pfft! You hope I’ll stick around??????? OFF COURSE I’m going to stick around! Why wouldn’t I? *This is me giving Bee a virtual shake* First of all, I meant everything that I wrote in my last review, even though I was sick and feeling ultra miserable. However, I get the feeling that you may feel as if I didn’t like the chapter???? How is that possible?????? I LOVED the chapter! I wouldn’t change a thing about it! Even though I bitched and whine about Robert, I wouldn’t change a single thing! I actually like the fact that I feel so strongly about him. Not many authors can get a person to feel so strongly over a character, so you are doing a superb job all around. When I say that I’m upset at Robert or even with Gemma, I GENUINELY mean, that I’m upset with THEM. NEVER YOU!!!!! I am the weird type of person that really distinguishes between the author and the characters. I can be pissed off at Robert till I’m blue in the face and have absolutely ZERO problems with you, even though you created him that way! :( I feel a tad bit sad because I failed to make that point very clear to you. I guess I took it for granted that you would automatically know that I love and appreciate every single chapter. I write what I truly feel when I review and maybe I just let myself get to immersed within the characters and the story that I forget to make sure you understand the love I feel for the story. I think I’ve told you once before….these characters feel like family to me. You don’t disown or disavow family because you are upset with them.
Remember how upset I was after the Daniel misunderstanding? How pissed I was at Robert for the way he behaved? What did I tell you afterwards? I told you that it is one of my favorite chapters in the story. You’ve taught me that a bit of angst is GOOD! It makes things more interesting. The story is much better because of it. As for the way you write the story…..come on, Bee! I’ve also told you that writing the storey strictly from Gemma’s POV, is simply brilliant! We are surprised when Gemma is surprised! I don’t want Robert’s POV, even though I bemoan that fact. I think I read somewhere that you were planning on doing some Robert POV’s and I’ve been meaning to tell you that I thought it might ruin the story for future readers! They wouldn’t get to experience it all the way that we got to. As for you not doing enough…….*shakes Bee, again* Please believe me when I say that it isn’t you! You are writing the story the way that it should be written. I told you that I could live with anything as long as the storyline retained its integrity and you do that each and every chapter. There was only one time that I feared for the direction the story might take, and that was during the beginning of the infidelity twist. I feared that you would write the story to somehow reveal that Robert was lying about sleeping with another woman. I was actually relived when it was revealed to be true! I hate what Robert did! Does that I mean I hate the story? Hell no! It actually makes the story better. Life isn’t always all cherries and bubblegum and sometimes shit happens. Again, let me get back to your point of not doing enough, to sway me back towards Team Robert. Do you remember when I said that Robert would get a free pass from me for about everything with exceptions being infidelity and abuse? That is where my anti Robert sentiments come from. It isn’t you at all. Remember how I said that this story was making questions some of my beliefs? I went back and forth on the infidelity question. I vacillated between forgiving him and not forgiving him on a daily basis. That is why I finally said, to hell with it, and simply decided to accept whichever decision you made. I trust you to do right by this story. You always do…me and my preconceived notions would let things like pride get in the way. My inability to forgive Robert isn’t your fault. That is strictly due to my stance on infidelity. He stopped being good enough for Gemma the minute he betrayed her. I haven’t experienced enough life yet to adequately see the other side….intractability remains one of my biggest flaws. Even I realize that I hate on Robert needlessly at times. The boy blows of work and I manage to find fault with that….at the moment, he can’t do anything right in my eyes and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I actually like that and I’m sad that you think I’m upset with you and or the story. That really couldn’t be further from the truth, Bee. You do know that I still love Robert don’t you? Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee tell me that you do! Hmm, I think that I might have to tone down or censor my reactions a bit. Thinking that you are under the impression I’m unhappy with the chapter is making me feel bad :( I’m always bemoaning the fact that almost every single story on this site is easily discernible and very predictable and you are thinking that I’m unhappy with this story????? Unbelievable! The infidelity twist was brilliant, Robert is brilliant, Gemma is brilliant, every single thing about the story is freaking brilliant! Why do you think I go on and on about it so much? Pfft, Bee!
Till next time, Kari
Author's Response: Yayyyy! I'm glad you're going to stick around, Kari!
Thanks for the virtual shake. Sometimes we all need a good shake-up, right?! :)
I think I knew you would stick around, because I do know how invested you are in the story, but on the other hand - yeah! I really did think you didn't like the chapter. In fact, I thought you pretty much hated Rob in general. As I said, lots of other readers have stopped reading Days Like This because they've given up on it. They believe what Rob did was beyond repair, or the angst got too much for them, so they stopped. I know it's been really difficult to get through the last few chapters - it has for me too! Some readers have been more polite about it than others, as we already know. So maybe I'm feeling a bit sensitive at the moment too. Sorry! I wasn't angry or anything else, I just genuinely thought you didn't like the chapter, and I felt bad about that!
I love that you feel so strongly about the characters too. You really understand them, and that's fabulous. As an author, it's the best thing ever to see someone so invested in Rob and Gemma's story that you think and feel so deeply for them. I guess what I was trying to say was that by this point in the story, I was hoping readers might be starting to forgive Rob, just as Gemma is. He's doing some pretty sweet things and trying so hard to prove to Gemma that she comes first in his life, but you're still cross with him. That's what I meant about feeling bad that my point wasn't getting across.
Hehee, I like what you wrote about the characters feeling like family, too. So you're stuck with them, even though they infuriate you sometimes? ;)
Lots of readers have asked for the story from Rob's POV, but I don't think I'm going to go there. I have another story up my sleeve that I've started to write, anyway. I'll tell you about it soon. But I know what you mean - this story has always been from Gemma's POV and that's the way it will remain. I can be pretty stubborn when I want to be, too! Hee.
So thank you, Kari, for writing back and calming down my worries! Because pfft, where do you think Gemma gets her overthinking from? Totally me, of course. I think waaaay too much. I'm sorry I made you feel bad by saying I feel bad! Gah! I'm glad you still love Robert, despite his fuck-ups. :)
And no! Don't tone down and censor your reactions at all! I love reading what you have to say and I'd be devastated if you started censoring things. Stay the same lovely Kari you've always been, please! :)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: babystar (Signed) · Date: March 10, 2011 02:59 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
WARNING! This review is being written under the influence of Theraflu, Azithromycin, and Vick’s Vapor Rub! This review might also be riddled with a plethora of Robert bashing as I’m in a crabby ass mood. I’ll probably end up writing another one if the hate gets too out of hand. Anyway, I completely gave in and read the new chapter, Bee! The visit to the Forum destroyed my resolve to wait, but oh well. Were I to use only one word to describe the theme of this chapter, that word would be vulnerability. Vulnerability as defined by Microsoft Encarta is: susceptibility, weakness, defenseless, helplessness, exposure, and liability. That word is a “bad” word by its very definition. Many of us have been trained to view Vulnerability as a flaw or infirmity. Something to be avoided at all cost. However, I see it differently. To love is to be vulnerable. There can be no real love without allowing yourself to be vulnerable to another person. There is always a possibility of heartbreak when we feel love for anything. It is very difficult to tell someone the things we are self-conscious about, but doing so is the only way to establish real trust in any given relationship. This chapter was riddled with displays of vulnerability…Robert and Gemma’s vulnerability towards one another as well as the situation they now find themselves facing, along with the vulnerability exhibited between Gemma and Sarah at the end of the chapter. Individuals tend to relate with vulnerability, not a person who has their shield up and is only projecting strength, perfection, and or belligerence. Robert really seems to comprehend the fact that he doesn’t have to hide with Gemma. He might just be worthy of her….or so he thinks. This chapter, more so than any previous other, has opened my eyes to just how fearless Gemma really is. She isn’t weak at all. She may very well be the strongest character within the entire story. I am now realizing that, what I perceived to be a flaw, namely her desire to forgive Robert, is actually fearlessness. I know that love is uninhibited and powerful, but It takes an extraordinary amount of strength and belief to allow yourself to be vulnerable to a person who has already proven themselves to be capable of breaking your heart. I admire and love her so much more for that, but I can’t help wishing she’d be a bit more cautious in her dealings with Robert.
I listened to my Twilight audio book today. Ironically enough it was Bella’s opening monologue, the part where she says “When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of you expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end,” which reminded me that in order to live the highest of high’s, one must be open to experiencing the lowest of lows. This is all part of living. Somewhere along the way, Robert and Gemma became one entity. Two halves that came together to make up a whole. I believe that to be the point Robert attempted to make when he orchestrated it so that he and Gemma were sharing a single plate and cup. Sarah said it best though....they are Rob and Gemma. One doesn't work without the other. I have to wonder though, if that isn't part of their problems. Shouldn't they be complete within themselves prior to attempting to make a relationship work? Shouldn't they come together as two complete wholes merging their lives with one another, thereby creating an even stronger and bigger whole? That was a bit confusing...even to myself. I really hope I didn't confuse you too much, Bee. Volunteering to make the toast was very sweet of him by the way.
Robert and Gemma are still skirting around the majority of their issues. The problem of Robert’s low self esteem was briefly discussed but nowhere near as much as required. I don't know how I feel about Robert and Gemma's brief discussion concerning Aaron. I wasn't surprised by it because I knew without a doubt that she would tell him everything that happened or almost happened with Aaron. She has always been painfully honest with him and I'm happy to see that hasn't changed even after everything she has been through. I had a WTF moment when Robert questioned Gemma regarding her get together with Aaron. I couldn't believe his gall in doing so! Seriously, what nerve! Where does he get off questioning her, after everything he has done? Anyway, after stewing over this for 5 minutes or so, I realized it wasn't much of a big deal, LOL. Robert’s relief at learning that Gemma hadn’t engaged in sexual relations with Aaron had me wanting to cause him bodily harm. Would he be as forgiving as she is, had she indeed slept with Aaron? Somehow I doubt it! I know that he acknowledge not having the right to question her, but he did anyway. He knew she'd tell him even after he asked her to drop the line of questioning. I keep wondering if Robert gets it now. Does he understand what his actions did to Gemma? Does he realize how painful and cruel it really was? Were his fears over the possibility of Gemma having had sex with Aaron enough to give him a bit of insight on just how much he hurt her? He only wondered if she had slept with Aaron, and look how much just the thought of it hurt him!
I didn't like Robert and Gemma’s discussion, where she questioned him on his views of deserving her or not. It seems a bit hypocritical of them to say that Aaron didn't deserve her, but that Robert does! It doesn't matter what the intent may have been....they both cheated on her. The truth of the matter is that neither Aaron nor Robert is good enough for Gemma! Neither one deserves her! They both hurt her in the worst possible way, and for them to malign Aaron while giving Robert a free pass does not sit well with me. I don't think Gemma should've asked Robert whether or not he deemed himself as being worthy of her because he clearly isn't! At least not anymore. The truly fucked up thing here is that, Robert doubted his worthiness of her in the beginning when he was very much worthy of her, and now he wants to work on believing he deserves her after he has made himself unworthy. That is truly twisted, Bee. In my opinion, Gemma should have said, "It is true that you no longer deserve me, but I choose you anyway, because I love you enough to want to forgive you someday."
I've gained a bit of insight on my inability to move forward, my inability to forgive and forget Robert's actions. I keep waiting and waiting for somebody, anybody to truly chastise, admonish and rebuke Robert for his appallingly moronic actions but no one ever does! I'm left with the impression that he has basically gotten away with murder. In all likelihood, this may be incorrect but that is the way it seems. It is because of that perception, I am unable to let go. There's no closure as of yet. I'm still waiting in limbo for him to be made accountable for the hurt he caused so many people. I'm now cursing the time that they spent apart. I know the time apart was necessary in order for the healing process to begin, but I just wish she could've yelled and screamed at him prior to that. For Gemma to do so now would be anticlimactic. It wouldn't feel real. Too much time has passed for that. Or has it? I had my hopes pinned on Sarah being the one to finally rip into him, but I'm not very hopeful of that anymore. Her reaction to learning of their night together makes me think otherwise. I really thought Gemma's conversation with him from last chapter was enough to sate my desire to see him suffer but apparently it wasn't. The words she spoke to him at that time, really did feel like the best revenge even though she didn't intend it as such. LOL, you know what the problem is, Bee? I just want a front row seat to Robert getting chewed out! I know that his family and friends have most likely let him have it, but because the story isn't from his POV, we missed it! Oh wait! There’s still Dimples! Maybe he could go off on Robert :)
I absolutely adored Sarah in this chapter! Her nonjudgmental stance was perfect. She has proven herself to be a real friend to Gemma over and over again. I may have been a tad bit disappointed that she choose not to yell and scream at Robert, but I'm also happy that she didn't. She handled the situation with class and decorum and didn't add any undue stress upon Gemma. Sarah is the type of friend that we would all be lucky to have. While I agree with Sarah that Robert is a good guy that made a stupid choice, but how is she so sure he won't do it again though? She kept reiterating the fact that Robert loves and adores Gemma, but love has never been the problem. He loved and adored her just as much prior to making the decision to play God with her life. He slept with another woman, all the while being hopelessly in love with Gemma, so again I have to ask, how is Sarah so sure that he won't do it again? How can anybody be sure? Why does every scene with Sarah have felt bittersweet lately? Is it only my imagination? The line where she says "I can't hate anyone who loves you so much," just about tore me up because I completely understand where she is coming from. Robert's love for Gemma is the only thing stopping me from completely writing him off.
You know what Bee; I think that I've overanalyzed everything to the point that I'm now confusing myself! My brain just refuses to shut off when it comes to Days. I'm a little bit confused about something. How do Robert’s fears over the chaos surrounding his life make him unworthy or undeserving of Gemma? We've known all along that he suffered from low self esteem and really believes that Gemma could do much better than him. Therein lies my confusion, I don't understand how Robert being afraid of the impact his celebrity status will have on Gemma's life translates to him being unworthy of her. He pushed her away because he wanted to protect her from the potential hazards encompassing his life, not because he deemed himself to be unworthy of her no? Is it his occupation that makes him believe he is undeserving of her? Who we are is not the same thing as what we do. Making mistakes are a vital part of learning and growth.
In conclusion, I still haven’t forgiven Robert and remain steadfast in my belief in his unworthiness of Gemma’s forgiveness. The chapter did bring to the forefront, Robert’s willingness to do whatever it takes to earn back Gemma’s trust. My heart broke for her when she admitted to thinking for the very first time, that perhaps Robert’s telephone call from Nick was in reality a call from another woman. Whether they like it or not, that is their new reality. The trust is completely gone and only time and a lot of effort on both their parts can rebuild it. They need to set some realistic goals and decide once and for all whether they are willing to continue on with rebuilding their relationship. I pretty much think that’s a given, after all of that heavenly love making sessions, not to mention Robert’s unwillingness to part from her side. This probably won’t come as much of a shock to you, but I wasn’t very impressed with him blowing off work in order to stay with her. I saw it more as something that he did for himself and his benefit as opposed to for her benefit. He was unwilling to leave because he feared not being allowed to return. I have noticed that Robert can’t seem to do anything good in my eyes as of late, LOL. It’s getting better though…at least I have remembered that, his fuck up is only a minor piece in the very big puzzle that comprises Robert Pattinson.
Favorite Lines
"I love you so much, baby," he said as his hand ran over my ass. "He's not good enough for you. He doesn't deserve you."
"Please don't," he said quietly. "Stay, Gem. Please."
"Logically, I know that's probably not true. In the past that never even crossed my mind." I shrugged. "But things are different now. We're different. And I worry."
"Please believe me, Gem. I haven't been with anybody since that night. I haven't even considered it. I love you so much. I want you. Nobody else. I adore you completely and I will do everything in my power to make this up to you. And I will make this up to you. I'll show you that you can trust me again. That I deserve you. I'd do anything for you, Gemma. Anything." This line did go a long way towards answering my call for more confidence and take charge behavior from Robert
“He's a good guy who made a really stupid choice and it seems like he's working really hard to sort his shit out.”
"No, Gem. We're so fucking good at this."
"I don't hate you, Rob. There were moments when I thought I did. Moments when I was so angry I couldn't see straight. But not now." "What do you feel now?" "Right now? Mostly I feel calm. Like this is where we're meant to be. Last night was lovely. It felt so right." "But I need time, Rob. I'm not ready to forgive you for everything that happened yet. I'm not ready to go back to where we were. I'm not ruling it out completely, but I just don't know. I need time." "And I saw him today, looking so blissfully happy to even be near you again. He loves you so much, Gemma. He really does. I can't hate anybody who loves you that much."
"But don't think too much. Just keep in touch with him and see what happens. You'll work it out over time." Best advice EVER!
"Well he loves you, Gemma. You know that. And you love him too. Maybe you just need to work out if you love him enough to forgive him." Heck if this isn’t the million dollar question!
Till Next time, Kari
P.S. I hate being sick!
Author's Response: Hey Kari,
Aww, I hope you start to feel a bit better soon! Vicks Vapour Rub is always nice though. It reminds me of being little and wrapped up warm in bed with a sniffly nose. I thought this chapter might have helped to cheer you up a little bit, but it doesn't seem to have worked! Instead, it seemed to make you a bit angry and confused. Sorry. :(
I think you're completely right - both Rob and Gemma are very vulnerable right now. Rob is vulnerable because he's hurting and has no idea if Gemma is going to forgive him or not, while Gemma is vulnerable because she's allowing herself to be. She gave part of herself to Rob again in this chapter... although it was mostly just the fun and the physical side of her. I know you want her to be more cautious, but I really think she is being cautious. When we compare her now to what she was like ten chapters ago, there's a big difference. She's no longer saying, "I couldn't help but..." all the time in regards to Rob. That was a deliberate choice by me (and my betas!) to no longer include that phrase from Gemma. She used to say it all the time - "I couldn't help but kiss him" or "I couldn't help but smile", etc, but now she's very much in control of what she's giving him, so she doesn't say that anymore.
She also doesn't say "I love you" anymore. He says it constantly to her, but she doesn't say it back. That has to hurt, just a little.
So in a way, yes - she's allowing herself to be vulnerable. But on the other hand, she's still being very cautious about what she says and does. She hasn't given herself to him completely like she did in the past. She's a strong girl with a good head on her shoulders who knows she's got some big, important decisions to make, but she hasn't made them yet.
I like your comment about how living means having to get through the lowest of the lows, to reach the high points. Gemma realizes the same thing later on. It's life! Bad stuff happens, but great stuff happens too, and you have to let yourself live it. Otherwise, what's the point? Have they become one entity though? Eeek! That evokes a strange visual image of them meshed together into one body. Hehee. I don't think they've really become one entity. They're still two people, who are quite different in a way, but who have come to rely on each other and love each other a lot. I think you're right though, about saying they need to be complete people - individually - before giving themselves to each other. And that's why they're not back together as a couple - because Rob needs to sort himself out, and Gemma needs to decide if she's ready to forgive him. You asked last chapter why Rob wasn't begging for her forgiveness - well that's why, really. He knows he still has things to work out, and so does she. If they do get back together, they both need to be ready and happy to do so. Begging's just not going to cut it!
Rob's self-esteem issues were only briefly discussed, yes. Because again, he needs to sort them out himself. He hasn't yet. He'll have some quiet time to do that in the next few chapters, then they'll finish that discussion. It's okay, trust me! :)
Ooh, the Aaron discussion made you mad. I know you got cross with Rob for asking Gemma if she slept with Aaron, but so did he! He knew he shouldn't be asking, but he did anyway. As he said, he had no right to ask, but she wanted to tell him anyway. Even after everything, and although you're still mad with him, she's still his adorable, sweet Gemma who he loves and adores more than anything, so yes, it hurt him that she might have slept with Aaron. He knows he shouldn't have asked it, but if they are ever going to move forward in their relationship again, he probably should know what happened. But honestly? Yes, I think he would have been just as quick to forgive if Gemma and Aaron actually slept together. He wasn't mad with her for kissing Aaron, and I don't think he would been mad if she slept with him, either. Worried for her, maybe, but not angry.
Hmm, and you didn't like their discussion about whether Rob deserves her more than Aaron. I've been thinking about this all afternoon, and I still don't really know what to say about it! Yes, they both slept with someone else and cheated on her... So maybe neither of them deserve her. But she loves Rob, despite everything, and despite not being able to tell him that. She wants him to deserve her, and she knows deep down, he's a good person. Aaron, on the other hand...!? Maybe not.
I feel a bit confuzzled, myself. I feel bad because you're angry with Rob and Gemma for skirting around issues and not saying what they should be saying... But really, that's me you should be mad with! I put the words in their mouth, remember. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I haven't done enough to allow you to forgive Rob when even Gemma is getting closer to forgiving him. And I feel bad about that! There was a lot about this chapter you didn't like, so maybe I'm not doing my job well enough as a writer to get across what they're both feeling.
It's the same with the fact you want someone to scold Rob and really yell at him. As you said, because it's not written in Rob's POV we miss out on all that. So yep, that's my fault again for not writing it in Rob's POV! If it was written from Rob's POV, we would see Tom telling him he was a fuckwit. We would see Marcus telling him he was an arsehole and to pull himself together. We would see Rob's sisters refusing to speak to him for a week. We would see his Dad giving him a lecture about treating women with respect. We would see what actually happened that night he went over to Gemma and Sarah's apartment, between Sarah and Rob. We might even see Ally yelling at him (although we haven't found out about that yet! Shh, I gave you a little sneak peek!). But most of all? Mostly we'd see how much Rob was hating himself and punishing himself for what he did, which is far worse than anyone else could do, ever. But we're not seeing any of that, because it's told from Gemma's POV. My mistake? Yes. Sorry! But a deliberate choice by me, nonetheless. I guess I hoped people would put one and one together and know that was going on, even if we didn't see it. But maybe I haven't been clear enough. Gah!
I'm glad you liked Sarah in this chapter though. She's such a nice, supportive friend. How does she know Rob won't cheat on Gemma again? Well... I guess she's been convinced. She saw him when he was at his lowest point, and she's seen him now. She, more than anyone else, has seen their whole relationship unfold and she knows pretty much all there is to know about them, so maybe she just has faith. Or maybe she was just trying to be supportive and offer Gemma some encouragement! Nobody can see into the future and know for sure this won't happen again, but sometimes you just have to trust your woman's intuition! Hehee, now I'm just getting silly.
As for why every scene with Sarah is so bittersweet lately? I don't know! Maybe because you know the story is coming to an end? Preparing to say goodbye but enjoying their company nonetheless?
You asked this question - "How do Robert’s fears over the chaos surrounding his life make him unworthy or undeserving of Gemma?" In a few chapters' time, Rob and Gemma talk about this in much greater detail. I know you said what we do as an occupation is not who we are, but admittedly, it is a big part of his life - almost to the point of taking over his life. So yes, Rob has his low self esteem issues, but they cross over into his life as a famous actor, too. Which means perhaps he thinks he's doubly undeserving of her - because of his self esteem issues, but also because he doesn't want to drag her into his crazy life. We will get the bottom of it eventually, I promise!
Ahh, you didn't like that he stayed home from work to be with her! I'll admit, I was a bit surprised at that. Last chapter you were hoping he would do something to show that he puts her before his work, and he just did... but you're still mad with him. Maybe you'll just never forgive him, and that's understandable. Some people have stopped reading because they figured what he did was unforgiveable, and I get that. I do hope you'll stick around to see their journey through... From the beginning, I've always valued your input so much and I love that you think so deeply about the characters and their motivations. I enjoy answering your questions and thinking things through with you, and I'm sorry that this chapter made you confused. I really thought it might cheer you up! It was meant to be a relatively fun, happy chapter. Rob and Gemma were letting themselves have fun again, for the first time in a long time. That's all it was, really.
I shall ramble no more, but I will say a very big thank you for sharing your thoughts and ideas with me, Kari. I honestly appreciate the time it takes you to write them, even if you are sick and feeling miserable!
Feel better soon!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Rogue Reviewer (Signed) · Date: March 09, 2011 06:26 PM · On: Chapter 7 - A Total Reality Shock
Yeah... I loved this one. Not moving too fast, or acting too slutty is a good thing. Good job!
Rogue
Author's Response: Hi Rogue,
Great to hear you liked this chapter! Thanks so much! Hope you continue to enjoy. :)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: pearlgem (Signed) · Date: March 08, 2011 08:53 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
Ok so when I first read this chapter (love it by the way!) and I had written a review, twilighted did this weird thing when I hit submit, telling me I wasn't authorized....no this doesn't have anything to do with the story but I was really irritated.
Honestly this story is definitely a favorite of mine. I love it. I will be absolutely depressed when it ends. You are an amazing writer so I hope there are some other stories in the future?? :) Rob & Gemma are just amazing together. This is going to sound cheesy but I'm so happy to have been on this journey with them.
Author's Response: Hi Gem,
Hmm, Twilighted does some weird things sometimes, doesn't it? Occasionally it will log me out too, or freeze up completely and I'll have to sign in again. It can be frustrating! Thanks for writing your review again. :)
Aww, I'm so glad to hear you're still enjoying the story. I think I'll be depressed right alongside you when it's all over! But yes, I do have another story planned. It's still in the beginning stages but more will be revealed soon.
Thank you so much for your kind words and continued support. I'm happy you've shared this journey with Rob and Gemma too! It's been a big one, full of ups and downs, but I've really appreciated all your support along the way. Listen to me, I sound like it's over! Still 6 chapters left!
Thanks again,
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Robstenlover4eva (Signed) · Date: March 08, 2011 11:02 AM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
6chapters? 6 bloody chapters left!?! :-( haha what am I gonna do on my shitty afternoons from college and taking break off work. Are you gonna do a sequel? if not, will you write another story? ;-P hehe
wow I just lov ethe Gem and Rob moments,,, just melted my heart! I wish for a bloke like Rob... well not so screwed up at times haha but just soo sweet and stuff... I get all these blokes here just try act cool with their friends and totally different once alone with me? like honestly? sorry I'm ranting hahaha oh but what else made me love this chapter was Sarah! like her little speech made me have a little tear! its just sweet to hear a friends point of view on the whole situation :'-)
oh gosh, swimmingbee... once again made me smile and cry a little haha I'm gonna write this again and say that you did a pretty good job writing this chapter! :-D
I CANT BLOODY WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER! :-D
xoxo
Author's Response: Hi Robstenlover4eva,
Yep, 6 chapters left! Eeek! I'm sure you'll find something to do with your shitty afternoons, you'll be okay! Hehee. But yes, I do have another story planned. It's still in the early stages but more details will be coming soon!
I'm so glad you're still enjoying the Rob and Gemma moments. They had a happy, fun morning together - something they both really needed. Hehee, you want a guy like Rob? Not many people would have said that a few chapters ago! He still has a few issues to work out, but he honestly adores Gemma and would do anything for her. Isn't that what we all want in a man?! I think so. :)
Sarah is such a nice, supportive friend to Gemma. She's still a bit wary of Rob, but she knows how important he is to Gemma, and she's always been great with the advice. Aw, hopefully it was a happy tear she made you cry!
Thank you so much for your wonderful review! You're lovely!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: alycaly (Signed) · Date: March 07, 2011 10:09 PM · On: Chapter 40 - As Natural As Breathing
I've just read this whole story in one sitting. I like it a lot so far. The plot itself is very reminiscint of Edward and Bella's story in that there is a seemingly perfect relationship that actually contains underlying doubt, eventually resulting in a unilateral decision that shatters trust. Then again, isn't that the typical romance formula? :)
The characters you've created are fantastic. I especially love Tom and Ally. They are probably my favorites, along with Bobby (though we haven't seen him much since the beginning!). Ally seems like the absolute perfect BFF any girl could ask for!
In all honesty (and some people would shoot me for saying this), I feel like there is too much sex throughout the story. I mean, I am not opposed to the mention of it if it happens, and definitely recognize that their physical relationship merits description. However, having so many scenes where every sexual act is described in detail again and again tends to detract from your amazing story.
That being said, I also feel like Gemma jumped back into bed a little too quickly with Rob after not having even seen him for weeks and having him cheat on her. I guess that's just part of how Gemma's character is, but sex just puts too many emotions into situations that already are emotionally charged on their own!
Well, I feel like I'm starting to ramble at this point. All in all, you are a great writer and I'm looking forward to future updates!
Author's Response: Hi alycaly,
Wow, you read the whole story in one sitting?! That's amazing, thank you! I'm so glad you're enjoying it so far. :)
A couple of people have mentioned that Rob in this story is a bit similar to Edward in New Moon, leaving Bella for her own good but not being able to stay away. Seriously, I never even considered that as I was writing it, but I totally understand the comparisons. I actually really don't like New Moon and whizzed through the reading of it... and now I find myself writing something similar! What's that about?! As you said though, every romance has to have their bumps along the way.
It's great to hear you're enjoying the characters. I have lots of fun writing them and will miss all of them once I'm finished. Only six more chapters to go now, eek!
There is lots of sex in this story, I know. Again, I don't think I intended that to happen but Rob and Gemma seem to take over sometimes! They've always been a very physical couple and sex is a big part of their relationship, but I understand that's not for everybody. Some people like it, others don't. In the beginning, I got so many grumpy reviews because they weren't having sex! A bit like the angsty parts, too. Some people stopped reading because of all the angst, while others really came on board to tell me they loved it. Everybody's different and that's what I love about reading reviews, so thank you.
A few readers thought Gemma jumped back into bed with Rob too quickly, but really, it doesn't change anything between them. Yes, they made love, but they both realize they've still got a long way to go and she hasn't forgiven him yet. They simply needed the comfort of each other again, but if they can have sex and not let it over-ride everything else, then good for them.
Thanks so much for reading and for leaving such a lovely review. I hope you continue to enjoy the story! :)
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Rogue Reviewer (Signed) · Date: March 07, 2011 05:10 PM · On: Chapter 6 - So Good
Ah, sweet!
Loving it so far. Great job.
Author's Response: Hi again Rogue,
Thank you so much for reading this far, and for reviewing each chapter as you went. It's been fun to relive the chapters along with you! I hope you decide to stick with Rob and Gemma. There's lots more to come!
-SwimmingBee x
Reviewer: Rogue Reviewer (Signed) · Date: March 07, 2011 04:05 PM · On: Chapter 5 - Just Rob
Ahhh.... lovely. Really, truly, lovely!! See non-explicit can be sexy too! ;-)
Great job, Rogue
Author's Response: Hey Rogue,
Yep, there's a lot of UST in this story! But later, a lot of explicitness too. Just as a warning! ;)
Thanks again!
-SwimmingBee x
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