I started to read ch.19 and realized I did leave you a review for ch.18, shame on me, so here it is!*Well, there were a few things that caught my attention when Angela and Jessica came over to see Alice and Bellas dorm room. For instance; when Angela asked Bella if she wouldn't worry about falling out of bed and when they both wished Bella best of luck staying where she belonged when sleeping, I wondered what Bella might have been thinking at those comments. ;) Here's some more clues for you Bella; thinking her relationship with Jake was turning into a series of phone calls that left her feeling anxious, upset, and restless. I'll bet Jake doesn't ever take Bellas feelings into account when he's being such a douche bag to her. When Bella was on the phone with Jake at the fitness center, she was trying to be polite and hold the phone so Jake didn't have to listen to Angela and Jessica talking (because who wants to call to talk to someone and end up listening to other people talk, that's just rude) anyway, it seemed to me that as soon as Jessica saw that Bella was putting her phone back up to her ear, she opened her big mouth about Edward coming to pick Bella up. It sort of felt to me like Jess was trying to cause trouble. I'm probably imaging things again. :) So oh crap, Jake had to have heard that and of course the conversation got heated, as much as I felt Jake had a right to be frustrated with the situation because he was back home and Bella was at school, I got really pissed at some of the crap he said to her, then the immature little shit hung up on her. Real mature Jake! Edward sure loves to relive every moment and conversation he's spent or had with Bella no matter how casual, isn't that sweet? :) It was so nice of Edward to drop everything and go pick up Bella from the fitness center. Of course when Bella found out that he'd just gotten out of the shower she couldn't help her mind from wandering to thoughts of him standing in the shower all wet and naked. (me too!) :) When Edward showed up, something she thought struck me *I knew he had quickly dropped everything to come get me.He was thoughtful and unselfish. I was feeling lousy, so it was nice to reflect on someone doing something for me because they cared about me. He wanted me to be safe. He was protective.* I thought, keep letting that stuff sink in Bella you'll get it eventually. Oh my gawd, after they got back to the dorm and were sitting in the car (because I'm sure neither one wanted to leave) Bellas cell rang, it was Jake so Edward, ever the gentleman waited outside his own car in the cold so Bella could have some privacy. It must have hard for Edward to do that, not knowing what was being said it that conversation, and I'm sure he was dying to know. I thought it was telling as Bella said Hello to Jake, her eyes went right to Edward leaning against his car, noticing how his broad shoulders slumped a little forlornly. Bella cares so much for Edward that she knows how hard this is for him too. I rolled my eyes as usual at some of Jakes stupid questions and I could not believe that little punk ass asked her if she had slept with Edward. Jake, jealous or not obviously doesn't know Bella as well as he thinks he does; oh don't get me started on that, I could go on and on. Even with the intense conversation going on with Jake Bella could still focus and worry about Edward. (getting a clue pretty soon you two?) This thought from Bella got to me*We were all so miserable and we were sharing this miserable moment together, apart.*After Bella got out of the car and Edward saw how upset she was of course her pulled her into his arms, that couldn't have been easy for either of them being that close, but he cared about her and wanted to comfort her. I knew Edwards body would betray him as he held Bella that close, how could it not? I felt so bad for him, he wants her so much, but he would never step on Jakes toes or hurt Bella. It was quite humorous that as much as Edward tried to break away from Bella so she wouldn't notice how 'hard' this was for him to hold her like that, she still noticed. *I looked up at him, wishing fleetingly that it were just he and I, that there was nothing stopping us, wondering what it would feel like to just take that step and let it happen* And Edward was thinking just how badly he wanted to kiss her. I think they are both on the same page, for the most part, but the pages aren't turning fast enough for me! Or for them, at least that's what I think. I loved the whole 'people I care about' comments between the two of them and the fact that he held her hand as they walked back to the dorm.*Cute and funny was a lot safer and easier to deal with right now than smoldering and yearning and not being in the right place, mentally or emotionally, to just let go* But I think they would both like to just let go!

Author's Response:

I think Jessica in this story is just a gossipy airhead. She's not so evil. She's got her sights on Mike Newton now, although she apparently tried to hit on Edward unsuccessfully a few times while drunk or otherwise. I don't think she has any animosity toward Edward, expecially now that he's gotten a little friendlier and ate lunch with her and Angela and Bella. They've seen that he's friendly. he just had other issues going on in the past.

Jake is immature and his behavior hwlps illustrate how much more mature Edward is. Jake is cramping Bella's style and Edward is helping her to blossom. Edward also is very intuitive, and able to put himself in her situation. Everything that he does is becoming "for her" focused. He wants to protect her, help her, entertain her, take care of her, etc. He's just head over heels in love.

And I'm so glad you liked my love triangle observation: We were alll so miserable and we were sharing this miserable moment together, apart. Jake's in Forks, Edward's parked on the hood of the car, Bella's inside the car, yet they were all sharing that uncomfortable, unhappy moment.

You know that they would just "go for it" if there was no Jake situation to clean up first.

Thanks for the review and all of your observations and reflections on the story.

-bannerday

wow, i cant read to more, i really want them to sleep together.

 

Author's Response:

Hi amber! Thanks for the wow. ;) We all want them to sleep together. The only thing we want more in this world, is for each of us to actuall BE Bella. am I right? Now, good things come to those who wait. And nothing ever seems to work out quite like you expect it. Those are mottos to live by and certainly mottos to write fan fiction by. Hope you enjoy chapter 34. Keep me posted.

Thanks for taking the time to review.

-bannerday

Edward is so good with the breaks... loved all the recounting of events between Alice and Bella, and the last few paragraphs were so sweet.

Author's Response:

Hi bellybean. I know I have some catching up to do with you and all of your reviews. Thanks for leaving them all. I didn't mean to ignore you, I was working on chapter 34 and it just wouldn't behave. I love slightly out of Controlward. Alice is such a cute friend. It's good for her to fill in the blanks and get her own questions answered. Real friends would do the same.

Thanks for reviewing.

-bannerday

I'm deliriously happy! That is all I can say at this time. Oh, wait a minute, I think now I just might be looking forward to Jake's impending visit, though it won't be easy for Bella. Oh she better break it off with him and not chicken out, I might have to shake her severely. Or maybe I won't have to, Jasper is already plotting Jakes demise. :) Oh gee, I'm sure he'll bring her a b-day present, I wonder what it will be? I wonder if Edward will get her something as well, and what will that be? I can't wait, I'm almost as giddy as Alice! I laughed so hard at her and Jasper. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but could it be bad that Angela and Jessica think there is something going on between E/B? I'm probably thinking too much. Oh, and I so loved the text messages, obviously, that's why I'm deliriously happy. I also thought Edward was so cute going over and over every conversation, every moment, just everything that had transpired between himself and Bella for the past week, especially the text messages. I think I sqeaked a bit when I thought Edward was going to kiss Bella! I know I have more to say, but it's time to go read!

Author's Response:

So by now, all of your birthday musings have been answered. You've read the chapter and to some of your questions "yes" and to others "no" .;)

I refrained from making Jessica very annoying in this story. Bella doesn't spend enough time with her anyway. Angela I love--she's almost always the good, down to Earth girl who you can get an unbiased opinion from.

I like the text message idea in this story. It's like pasing little love notes.

Edward always overthinks everything--of course he goes back over an entire week, reflecting on what Bella did/said/how she looked, etc. He's obsessed, he just doesn't realize.

-bannerday

Nice dream Bella, I've had a few of those myself. I'm just saying. ;) I wonder if she did say Edward's name and Alice just didn't tell her. Jake was an ass, so what's new? I almost can't believe that assinine message he left on his voicemail, what a tool. I'm so tired of his twenty questions too. I think Bella has just felt comfortable in her relationship with Jake, it was easy. She needs to hurry the Hell up and realize that it's time to move on, after all what she really wants is there right in front of her. Besides, she did forget to call Jake for four days, I think her mind just might have been a little preoccupied with things other than classes and moving into Alice's room. I just knew Emmett was going to get those damn assless chaps! So, Bella asked Edward to go to the store with her huh? I thought she needed to figure things out about Jake, now how can she possibly do that with Hotward in the car with her? *smirk*

Author's Response:

No, she didn't say his name in the dream, but at an earlier point in time yuou were wondering if she'we were ever going to see who the person chasing her was---and now you know...YES. Also, that dream is going to seem familiar to her in real life shortly. What can be said about Jerkob that hasn't already been said? And yes, forgetting to call your boyfriend for four days, is not a good indicator of healthy relationships.

Thanks for reviewing.

-bannerday

And, I'm back for the other review I owe you, you know I love ya! Again I'll just hit the highlights *Of course Bella's feeling the effects of being in Edwards arms, I mean who wouldn't? But I think she feels guilty for liking it. I knew it was bad after Edward took off out the door and Alice and Jasper had forlorn looks on their faces. When Alice said "Oh Bella, do you really not know what's going on?" and "Bella, Edward really cares for you." I fought to keep reading, the sadness was slowly creeping in on me. When Alice told Bella a bit about Edwards past, it left me more curious than ever. The whole conversation between Edward and Bella when she went to his room just about sank me. I noticed right away in her tirade about Jake that she never once said anything about being in love with him, of course Edward picked on that too. He had to feel some hope way down deep inside. Well shit, she told him that she cared about him and that she knew he cared about her. Poor Bella, this reminds me of the words in an old song "Torn between two lover's, feeling like a fool" or something like that, anyway for me those words fit this situation a bit. Bella's gonna have to choose and this is killing her because she doesn't want to hurt anyone, more specifically, Edward or Jake. She has to do it, she can't live like this. After Bella apologized for saying too much to Edward; this is the part that really killed me when Edward said "I'm glad you said them. It's nice to know those things. But you have my word Bella, I won't do anything with that knowledge. I won't act on it. I can be noble. I know you care about your boyfriend." It was kind of funny when Bella was telling Edward about Jake and how many times she used the words 'want and wants'  Edward thought about being friends with Bella *And if that's all I'll be, I'll tell myself it's enough* The last part of this chapter made me want to cry. *sob, sniff*

Author's Response:

Okay 1918EC, I said I'd do one reply and then I have to get to bed. This chapter was quite turmoil-filled. The move and rearrangement, her room, his room, her room. Back and forth. So, you are right, Bella is feeling guilty because she's thinking more and more about Edward, less and less about Jake. Edward thinks he can just brazen it out and not feel--but we know that won't work. When she fell off the bed and he caught her, it was the dam bursting for both of them. And you noticed that she never said she loved Jake, so she just feels she has to be loyal to him. But that isn't the same as love. edward is a good guy, he doesn't want to be the bad guy and stir things up between Bella and Jake, simply because he knows that would hurt her---even though he sees it coming. In the end, he wants her however he can have her. even if it's not enough. But the good news is, this is only chapter 13. Things get better. ;)

-bannerday

I told you I'd get back to you. :) I re-read this ch. and I'm just going to hit some of the highlights.*During the move it figured that Edward would get the dresser drawer with Bellas undies in it, of course Edward couldn't help but stare at them, uh huh. I have to quote my favorite part of Edwards thoughts *Some of the stuff in the drawer didn't even look worth the effort to put on. Then it dawned on me that the point of putting some of this stuff on, was so that it could also be taken off. For someone. For someone like Jake. I don't know why but he was really beginning to annoy the crap out of me. Fucking piece-of-unknown-quantity shit!* That pretty much says it all, Edward's jealous and knows Bella has a boyfriend and he can't do anything about it. How frustrating to be falling for someone who is unatainable. Poor Edward, he's tried so hard for the past almost three years to be careful and not let anyone in and now Bella has to come walking into his life and turn it upside down. When she almost fell off the bed and he caught her and helped her down, I thought to myself, Oh No... *I told her I had her, that she could let go* man oh man that line killed me, it spoke so much with so few words. The way he described how he gently let her go, sliding her body down the length of his, I knew he was done for. He didn't want to let her go because of the way she felt in his arms. I wanted to give him a hug when he felt having her in his arms was more frightening than seeing her almost fall off the bed. *heavy, heavy sigh*

Author's Response:

Hi 1918EC! I usually try to answer reviews in the order that they post, but since you read this earlier, and since you wrote such discussion-worthy stuff, I can't wait to go through the whole list. I hope that doesn't piss anyone off. I'm working on my next chapter, so I'm not replying to many reviews yet.

Anyway--Edward being in charge of the underwear drawer and Bella's bedding, brought his feelings front and center and very unavoidable. I liked the jealousy that her underwear brought out in him. You are spot on: he knows she has a boyfriend and he can't do anything about it, and the fact is HE HIMSELF decided that he'd be noble and not try to stir things up. She's unattainable, but partly because he's decided, FOR HER SAKE, not to rock the boat.

You loved my line! *I told her I had her, that she could let go* I love you! I don't think anyone else has ever realized the double meaning, or maybe they did, but no one mentioned it. I hugged myself when I read that.

The good news is the *heavy, heavy sighs* will give way to *happy, happy smiles*.

Thanks for the review and for sharing your thoughts.

-bannerday

right now am hearing some Barry White , Luthor Vandross type song  playing in my head lol

Author's Response:

Hey fanficfanVic! Yup, your musical artists strike a chord with me and this chapter. And you are certainly welcome to hear those type songs playing in your head. In my head, I hear the sound of Edward kissing and licking me. Now that's my kind of sweet music! The hell with Luthor Vandross and Barry White. ;) 

Thanks for the giggle.

-bannerday

Oh come on!!!  A cliffie like that?  That's pure torture!!!  You know I've been waiting (and not so patiently) for those damn brakes to go and for the rules to be broken and you leave us hanging like that???  OH. MY. GOD!  So not fair!

I had the biggest smile on my face reading the entire chapter!  Holy SWOON over the very romantic and hot as hell Edward!!  Absolutely loved it!  Now please, please, please get the next chapter up ASAP!!  I'm begging you!

Author's Response:

Hi michelle! So sorry, we've pulled off the smooth-sailing highway and we're headed for a detour through Cliffieville. There will be more loss of brakes next chapter, and the windows are sll steamed up from within, the steering is also malfunctioning and we might even go up a curb.

Glad you liked the date with Swoonward. He's a pretty romantic guy and every girl in that restaurant was NOT thinking "If I were a man, I could be out with that girl." They were thinking, "Let's see...if I time it right and leave when they do, maybe I can knock that girl in the red dress unconscious and drag that hot man into my car and get him home and tie him naked to my bed before he realizes what has happened."

Well, that's what I'd be thinking.

Next update on the weekend, hopefully.

-bannerday

OMG next chapter please! :D haha

Author's Response:

Hi twi-girly!

Glad you approved of the last chapter! Next one should be up this weekend. Fasten your seatbelt!

-bannerday

Go HOTNESS & PROMMAN  WOOOWHOOO!  I love the date!  FANTASTIC!  You did very well with this chapter I love the banter and I love the romantic stuff.  Totally thought that the grandma/grandpa couple was so funny!  Laughing my behind off at work reading this.  You never seem to let me down you are a great writer I LOVE LOVE LOVE your stuff.  Hope to see more soon!  :)  <3  YAY!

Author's Response:

Thanks TAT! You used the word LOVE 6 times in your review, so you do indeed make me feel really loved! ;) I'm glad you loved their date--I hope it didn't sound too far fetched. He IS Edward, after all, we know he's capable of much more than the average man. ;) I think the fun thing about Bella and Edward is what they bring out in each other--She's only witty and silly like this with him, and the same goes for him. I think that's just a byproduct of them being so happy together. Funny how the elderly aren't shy to speak their mind---like assuming a couple is about to be getting engaged and butting in. ;)

Once again, thanks for the love. I love it and I love the fact that I can provide this kind of entertainment for others.

I'll update this weekend I hope.

-bannerday

Loved, loved, loved this chapter! Now if I could just find a guy like that. :)

Author's Response:

Thanks, thanks, thanks for the Chapterlove! Let's go Edward hunting together. I've already got the big butterfly net. ;)

Thanks for the review, branlc. I hope to update on the weekend.

-bannerday

 

So they mangaged to cage the raging hormones long enough to get out of the parking lot! I had a date when I was a teenager where we never made it out of the car; we sat & made out all evening! He contacted me last year after 20 years & we've gotten close again.

That poor waitress! Dazzled by Edward & he didn't even know he was doing it!

Now, whatever can Bella have in mind?

Author's Response:

Hi twimom!

So, raging hormones caged, check. Out of the parking lot, check. Edward dazzling Bella and every other woman around him all evening, check and check. I'd say Miss Fire Bomb is ready to light The Prom King's wick. ;)

Hopefully I'll be able to update on the weekend.

-bannerday