Isabella Swan is a famous best-selling author and actress.  One of her books is going be a movie and she is forced to play the lead role.  Edward Cullen is the sexy up and coming actor playing her love interest on and off the screen.  Love in the spotlight is hard and there is threat that ties with her past that will threaten all those she loves. 

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"Disarm you with a smile,
And leave you like they left me here,
To wither in denial.
The bitterness of one who's left alone.
Ooh, the years burn."

       -Smashing Pumpkins, Disarm

This is an alternative plot to when Bella is on the cliff, picking up from the top of page 358 of New Moon. Bella does not rush back into Edward's arms. Bella struggles a great deal with depression, anxiety, and esteem. Several characters may be slightly OOC in that they use occasional profanity.

"This story contains incidents of self-harm. If this is disturbing to you, please do not read."

What if Bella broke down on the cliff and truly tried to kill herself? What if Edward got the news in a different way and hadn't gone to Volterra? Where would it leave Edward and Bella? Where would it leave Bella and Jacob? This story will be an angst filled alternative, but I do believe in happyish endings.

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Bella grieves over losing her true love and best friend. She has a life-altering dream that soothes her soul. Will a trip to the cemetery help her heal?  AH

Not everyone is muffin-worthy—especially not Edward Cullen.

Generally stereotyped as a theatre geek, Edward Masen has led a solitary life until he meets the unusually kind Bella Swan. Follow their relationship as they grow in years and passion and face the hurdles of reality.

After Edward left Bella in New Moon, she continued to live the pieces of her life that lay intact. Her relationship with Jacob blossomed, she graduated Forks High, and then went on to experience her first year of college. 

However, when she arrives home for summer break, she's confronted by a revengeful Victoria and attacked. The werewolves arrive in time to fend off the crazed vampire, but at the price of Bella's life. Suddenly the existence she once desired becomes a reality, and Bella finds herself alone and fighting an internal battle of Good and Evil. 

How will Bella react when the Cullen family are thrown back into her life after a two and a half year absence?

For just one day every decade the Cullen family opens things up in the bedroom. AU lemon-fest.  Canon and non-canon pairings, but no permanent splitting of canon couples.

This story contains very adult themes and includes F/F slash in earlier chapters and some M/M slash later.

This story earns its NC-17 rating folks!!

A big thank you to DiamondHeart for her guidance (read Moonshadow!), and to my beta, MsKathy!

Total crackfic

CoWinner in Pastiche Pens' Sparkle and Snark-ful Humor Contest

Warning: language, nudity, violence, and bad taste

Edward struggles with bloodlust and his family tries to help.

The names of 15 popular fanfics are hidden in here. 

Once upon a time in a tiny cottage by the sea, Rosalie Hale lost a journal. What impact might it have on the young girl that finds it?

This is another story in the Six Degrees of Separation Series.

These are outtakes of Edward's perspective of the happenings in

Stolen HeART.

Leah Clearwater will never forget the moment she realized she no longer loved Sam Uley. She was standing in the doorway of the most unusual telephone booth she had ever seen.“Yeah, it’s bigger on the inside.” DOCTOR WHO crossover. One-shot.

For the FFn Tattward and Inkella One-Shot Contest: Edward interviews Bella for an article in Skin Art Magazine. Will his sense of duty and professionalism keep them from getting what they both want? Rated NC-17 for schmexin' and schwearin'.